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A couple of months ago, the New York Times ran a fascinating article called “Googling for God.” In this piece, author Seth Stephens-Davidowitz explores recent trends in Google search data specifically related to questions people pose about God. Stephens-Davidowitz notes that the number one God-related question people ask on Google is, “Who created God?” Not surprisingly, number two is “Why does God allow suffering?” However, I was shocked and dismayed to see the question that came in at number three: “Why does God hate me?”
Stephens-Davidowitz then provides an even more troubling piece of information: “What is the most common word to complete the following question: Why did God make me ___? Number one, by far, is ‘ugly.’ The other sad answers in the top three are ‘gay’ and ‘black.’” Although the author of this article does not explicitly link “Why does God hate me?” and “Why did God make me ___?” I couldn’t help but wonder if there might be some connection between the two questions. After all, if you believe God made you “ugly,” it’s not a stretch to believe God hates you, too, since in our culture “ugly” is a very negative term that is used to denigrate people based, primarily, on their appearance. In the same way, given that those who identify as black or gay are often marginalized in our society—or even targeted for violence on the basis of those identities—it’s not hard to imagine that members of those groups might feel that God is, at best, indifferent to their plight, or, at worst, that God has hand-picked them to be oppressed and mistreated.
Reading this article made me deeply sad, because it made me realize just how many incorrect ideas about God are still out there, and how deeply those ideas are hurting people. Although the church certainly teaches that we are all sinners and have fallen short of God’s glory, it also fundamentally affirms that each one of us is created in the image of God and that through God’s grace we are loved unconditionally. Somehow it seems that this crucial message has gotten lost in the wider culture, because as the Google data show, people searching on the Internet for answers to their faith questions seem to assume that God is primarily a judgmental, capricious tyrant who selectively applies oppression and suffering to certain groups, or who makes some people “ugly” and others not.
The problem here is that it’s not God who is doing this labeling and excluding—it’s human beings. We are the ones who have created societies in which individuals are judged based on their physical appearance or on their membership in particular demographic groups, rather than on the content of their character or according to their unique gifts and skills. We—not God—are the ones who have decided that some are “in” and some are “out,” which is in direct contrast to the message we hear over and over again in Scripture: that God has come into the world to reconcile all people, through grace that is freely given to everyone. As the church, we are called to find new ways to spread the message of God’s grace and love far and wide, so that we might challenge and dismantle the erroneous theology that is causing people so much harm. My prayer is that one day, in the not-so-distant future, Google might report their top God-related searches as “Why does God care for me so much?” and “Why did God make me so beautiful and beloved?” May it be so.
The Rev. Dr. Leanna K. Fuller is assistant professor of pastoral care at Pittsburgh Theological Seminary and teaches in the MDiv Program. Her ministry experience includes serving as associate pastor of Oakland Christian Church in Suffolk, Va., where she coordinated youth ministry and Christian education programming. She writes regularly on pastoral care and counseling, pastoral theology, and congregational conflict.
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Your article came up when I Googled “why does God hate me”, and I happen to live near Pittsburgh. Thanks.
i hurt myself to much times and i think imgoing gto suiside.
god dont want me here in this world
Wow Chris you have been through a lot of bad stuff. I want you to know that God has not forgotten you. I believe you are in a spiritual war and you can win this war. You have to fight the good fight of faith. What you have to realize is you must walk by faith and not trust your feelings and some of the thoughts you are having in your head are coming from the Devil . Get the word of God in your heart, mind and mouth. You must know who you are in Christ. You are a winner. Thanks be unto God who always causes us to win in Christ. You should ask for prayer from several sources like the 700 club. Please hang in there. You are here for a reason. God has a plan for your life. Your purpose and calling could help someone else going through trouble. Ask God for what you want and what you need. Make a choice to believe God’s word is true. Believe receive, doubt do without. Don’t say God won’t answer my prayer. Choose to believe he will answer your prayer. And say it out loud. Yes he will answer my prayer. And all the promises are true and for you. All things work for your good. Rom 8: 28. Greater is he that is within you than he who is in the world. Don’t be alone there is greater strength in numbers. One will set a thousand to flight and two 10,000 to flight. Ask Jesus for peace in your heart, and joy in your soul. Ask For a job. There is something you can do, you are not too old. Don’t give up. Don’t let the Devil win this war. Any questions. If I can help you, let me know.
Who created the devil, and why?
bruh the devil was an angel created by god but sinned and tried to test god so he descended to hell
why do good things happen to thev”bad” people..
It didn’t work. Still being tortured by the supposed “God” who is supposed to love me. I have given up i am getting close to 60 year old. Born heroine addicted, thats right, an addict before I left the womb, adopted by a pedophile who tortured me from the age of infant, dragged through every horror a kid can be, loss of everyone near to me, to hell with it. I give up I no longer give a rip. And the article up there talks about we are “judged” by society….that is and has been the least of my problems. I couldnt care less what society thinks or who assumes they have the authority to judge. Don’t care. Play judge .. It only matters if someone lets it matter. Well it will never matter here.
Don’t let the devil win? There is no devil. God is the devil. Makes billions of people believe he loves them only for them to suffer all their lives… Just ask yourself why so many people suffer. Ask yourself why some people have millions of dollars and some people don’t have food or water. Oh but I forgot… God loves you!
why does god let bad things happen in the first place? that’s bull
Just know for a fact that there is no God. Whomever put that idea in your head is stupid and cannot understand reality. So there is no need to kill yourself over in non existent entity that has no sway over you one way or the other. Even if this God did exist, it says in The Bible that he will not interfere one way or the other in your life at all. Why would you care about something that doesn’t clearly care about you?
I can’t believe what you people are saying. I have experienced God personally and also the Devil. There are Demons out there and they influence your thinking, then your emotions and cause you to say and do stupid things. You need God in your life. God is real and he is Good. The Devil and Demons cause all the problems. God gives you grace and mercy. Jesus is your free ticket to Heaven. Your part is to believe in God and respect him. Ask Jesus to help you and he will. Don’t try to figure it out in your head. Just make a choice to believe in God as the source only for everything good. And like I said call upon the name of Jesus and you will be surprised in a good and wonderful way.
Suiside,
i don’t know you, but please stay strong. you may be feeling this way now, but things will change.
Don’t do anything crazy. You don’t know all the wonderful things that are waiting for you if you just stay strong.
Marci, sometimes things don’t change . Im 61 and my life has gone downhill since I was born, I think every day has been worse then the day before it. And yes, Im a christian and have repented and asked for forgiveness for 20 plus years. Because my life continues going down hill and I am in pain every day of my life I am choosing to end mine also
well,i believed that god love all of us,we just got to open our self up to him,the best ways of saying it is to always make good s choices in life,help our people if u can,and always pray,that your life get better.
love and like are different god loves everyone but no where does it say he likes everyone so he does do things to some of us just to make our life bad.
Suiside I’ve just seen this now & what you need to know is God does not let bad things happen to anyone. Even when persecution comes to the child of God it is not from Him. Would a truly loving father want to do anything bad to their children? Of course not. Why bad things happen in this world? If I as an authority over a particular house handed over to you all the authority & influence I wielded over the house, it becomes your responsibility to take charge over the house & if you misuse that authority or give it over to another terrible person, the house & everything in it will be damaged & destroyed not because of me who gave you responsibility over it, but because of you who misused the authority given to you over it. Now that’s exactly what happened at the beginning, man (through Adam) was given dominion over this earth & everything therein, but he handed this dominion over to the devil who has done the damage ever since then. Now unlike man who sometimes when they give you something they can take it back, when God gives you something it is yours for good, He doesn’t take it back. So when he gave man authority it was man’s for good. Now God sent his son Jesus to undo the damage that man had done, but the effect of his finished work can only be felt when man receives Jesus. If you reject him you’ve simply rejected the solution to your very problem
Actually according to St Paul, God hates women .
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This is really not a good place to put this. People are considering taking away gods greatest gift here! For the people who do feel this way, I want to let you know I feel this way too, but you cannot let yourself do this.. Believe in god or not, You are having a spiritual and internal war inside you. Do not let the devil take you! The reason I am still breathing is because when I lost my best friend, I felt immense amounts of pain. I do not want to be the reason others feel this way. While you feel miserable, you could make others more miserable. When he died, I wanted to join him so badly I considered suicide. But I decided to live on in his footsteps, to make him proud. Lost a loved one or not, please do not cause others to feel this way. I know how badly it feels to lose a loved one/friend, and it is a lot more overwhelming than you think. So please, stay alive for us.
God doesn’t hate you, in fact the bible says “god loved the human family so much that he gave his only son as a sacrifice in order to save everyone. So here’s the reason why the world is so evil. In the garden of eden god placed a tree in the middle called the knowledge of good and evil. This tree represented gods knowledge of what was good for his creation and what was bad.. One day an angel confronted god over this right. This iz what he said. “God knows that in the day you eat from this tree, you will be just like god, you will know how to live and you will be just like god” when this occurred millions of angels were watching.. Had god killed satan that day the angels would have forever said “god killed him because satan was right.” So in order to prove satan was lying God handed the entire world to him and said “you will fail and my son will be the one to kill you..” How can we prove this? Its easy, during the last temptation Satan offered the entire world to satan. Saying “to me this has been given and i can do anything with it..” Satan is the reason for everything bad on the planet.. And soon god is taking his planet back…
So,God couldn’t come up with a better plan?…
This seems unlikely,
Take a long breath stay calm and open any of the spiritual ?-guru granth sahib, Bible, bhagwaan geeta, quraan etc and just ones speak ur God’s name and open any of the page and u will get ans to every question whatever be the question try it once
I feel you bro I feel your hard I cannot believe a little the opposit I believe he wants me here just so he can torture me because I know he hates me and that’s OK because now I hate him back and I’m giving him an ultimatum either he can take my life and bring me to heaven or I will take my own life or I will hurt his people his choice times taken the clock is taken he better make a decision
he put you here and his son died that you may have a place in heaven, so why do you ask if he wants you here or not .Why not be grateful that he has a wondrous plan for you. there are many that believe he doesnt want them, why go there!
Love to you.
God wants you here. He wants everyone here. You suffer because of Adam and Eve, in case you haven’t read the bible. If it was not them who sinned against him and trusted the devil, if we asked for a billion dollars in an instant it would just appear. But it is not that way, so you just have to live with it and pray with all your might, good things will happen to you in the end. But not to sound depressing, even if you dont believe in god you should because in the end you are going to die no matter what. So the least you can do is to worship the supreme God that made you and made your family, friends, and the world. There is heaven and hell, and when you die you will be in one of them on matter what you believe or think. You should appreciate every little “good” thing that happens to you. Live a good life and I pray that you never leave God and go to the devil. I pray that you will have a great life, and of course there are going to be some down days but you fight to get back up with God and dont get consumed by the devil. On that note have a goodnight, good morning, or a good afternoon. God Bless You.
he wants you, you matter.
I feel the same, suiside. I feel — no, I know — that God hates me. And I think it is just a matter of time until I commit suicide. People here try to be nice, but they don’t understand. It isn’t that God has “forgotten” me. I’d be thrilled if that was the problem. It is that God “hates” me. And he makes that clear every day. I haven’t had anything I could call a “good” day in probably six years. The worst part is that it is all just out of my reach. It wouldn’t take much for me to be happy. But every single day something strange and outside of explanation happens to make me sad and angry. If God would “forget” me, I’d probably be okay. But God makes sure, on a daily basis, that I can’t find happiness, contentment, or peace. I don’t know what I could have done to make God hate me. But it happened. More than anything, I’d just like to know what caused this.
Miso Sad, I couldn’t have said it better myself!! If only He would just forget me, everything would be so much better. But He hates me and torments me daily… and each day is worse than the other. My wife and I felt like He called us to open up this clothing boutique and attach His name to it. He wanted us to use proceeds from the sales to send to multiple charities, including the American Bible Society. We have done that for 4 years. The first 2 1/2 years were very prosperous financially, and we were able to bless a TON of people. There were bad days with employees and with my spouse, but not financially. Now He’s taking that away too, so bad to the point we are about to be in serious bankruptcy. Everything has gone wrong, nothing is going right. NOTHING. We can’t even feed our kids. We invested every cent of retirement to start this business because He called us to… and this is the thanks we get. We even held a FREE women’s conference that touched hundreds of women’s lives, because He told us to. Now, here we are in May of 2018 and bills are piling up, bills I can’t pay, creditors are coming after me, our contractor is suing us for HIS mistakes, and God sits back and laughs. If that’s not the definition of hate, I don’t know what is. Do what He says, and this is your reward. All He would have to do is open the hearts of all our past customers and the floodgates would burst back open, but instead we’ve gone from 250-300 orders per day to 30-40. I have no reason left to live either. Sorry to hear you’re going through the same thing.
It is not God who hates us but rather the powers of demonic forces trying to destroy our relationship with God. I honestly have no one that likes me or loves me or people seem to hate me. My neighbors literally deliver packages of doo doo in gift bags and throw it over the fence on my yard and roof. They smashed the beautiful memorial tree in my garden. My daughter does not call me at all and I see her once a year or not. Everyone pretty much hates me and I ask God every day to take me from this world. I ask him often how long can I endure and suffer? I was raped and tortured since I was 3 and predators always seem to target me. It never stops. I turned into a bit of a warrior so they hate me more. I A day does not go buy without the people being hateful. I am a rug. A worm. A broken person. I do know that Jesus was a man of grief and sorrows and he said that they would hate us like they hated him. He said that if we endure to the end; he promises us eternity in paradise with him where there will me no more sadness crying or pain.. Psalm 23 says that Jesus will walk with us and give us the Spirit and his word and we will have victory over our enemies and they will never be able to do anything to harm us ever again. I hate my life and myself but it is not mine to take. Therefore, I choose God and I choose to endure because Jesus did for us
In the eye of the storm he remains in control, he is with you every time you run, and he is allowing these things to happen, not because he hates you, but because good will come from it if you only trust in him.
I’m The Same. I’ve Prayed and blessed others but Hey, The Still Don’t Know The 1/2.
I do believe that God hates some and loves others. I am one of the hated. It’s just all pain, all loss, all misery. It’s live in pain here, or die, and he tortured forever with a god who enjoys it. Romans 9:13 – Just as it is written: “Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.”
Yes, God does hate some people.
He’s made it abundantly clear in my life that i am one of the hated.
How horrible I must be that my whole family shuns me, and God, too.
Does God just get off on making people for the sole purpose of kicking?
God may hate us or God may love us, but the answer is so what? What are we going to do about it? If this is the only life we have to live, if we kill ourselves we don’t have any other option and everyone will be left more alone than before. All those people you could and did help will be worse off if you kill yourself and you won’t EVER be able to help ANY of them ever again. So the reason you don’t kill yourself is not for you, it is for THEM. Don’t kill yourself because you want to be able to be around to help each other survive, you will help them and they will help you.
One cannot win against God, who is all powerful. If He hates you, there is no hope. If God had a drop of mercy, He would wink the souls He hates out of existence completely. No life, no pain.
But how entertaining would that be? He hates some of us, but keeps us around.
Come on guys lets go to the heart and be truthful… there are lots and lots of “gods” there has been for a very long time. Religion is geographically dependent. These people lying to you all could just as easily believe in some real crazy (temporal and comparative variable to some extent) jungle religion, or any cult you can name. just pick the one you like the lest and consider that. If that’s what was all around and taught to someone I can get them to believe it or whatever I or anyone says. I doubt hardcore Christians would be as such with any knowledge of it right?. There is literally no way you can refute that statement it is basic. If I make up a religion and everyone pretends to go along with it for my child he would believe his daddy no? Until age and questions happen like normal at least There are other “jesus” figures with almost EXACTLY the same story and large followings, there was a time and places where the non medicated “prophets” were to be brought into the home….and there were many. Look it up. They tried to stomp out other beliefs. The church does not deny this. Look up visual recognition of the devils work with respect to etiology. Funny how everyone who hears Gods/ Jesus or claims they are either are medicated or delusional….in fact they scan their brain and very often can literally see exactly where dysfunction is. Look up cognitive psychology
they can be exacting and have many a brilliant researchers. Or the bunch of people who all thought they were the son of god that were brought together. None of them relented. Humans can recreate that dysfunction if that is what paid them money and people wanted it. If your saying prophets did not receive messages(phrase it how you want if your going to split hairs or take issue with a lax writing style) then they were just people with an idea nothing more and your story falls apart. Who wants to tell their child that there is nothing after death like nothing before birth(conception). That they will grow old and watch everyone around them die usually starting with the parents. then friends. then dust. then everyone who knows your is dust. Would anyone dare claim to my face that everyone can, literally billions of people, be remembered in ANY meaningful sense in books or digitally. Even the severe disabilities, people that I work with? A few find big places in the books, a few more have a line in those books, the rest get nothing. Maybe a few ancient pics in a box, a name remembered as great great grandpa or maybe an item not yet sold or forgotton. At least stop trying to push a god that many here clearly don’t and will not believe. That makes you feel better for trying but is 0% help. Religious people are often AMAZING and who in society that I know I could count on. But there is no God, its more crap that disfigures the truth. Heck religion refuted the earth revolving around the sun…seriously? and lets say we were 200 years more advanced we may never have to die. Thanks religion…no no don’t complain at my complaints you got what you wanted right? Its a trick of evolution that makes us not ABLE to care. you read this and know there is no point yet most can not feel much from it. TRICK. How can we live forever if dying does not bother us? Tell them to believe in us, or science, and get antidepressants. or aid in the funding of putting wires in the brain to stop the absurd pain they go through. Live to help stop all of our pain that even the religious people have…yes its there. my so called high powered perception allows me to instantly read a face, posture, eyes, expression. ANY one will do, especially if they don’t know I am reading them. (I cant look people in the eyes its often painful and a violation of their personal). In case anyone wonders I am a fool who was somehow (GOD WHY!!!! lol) very very far above the other fools who were doing university in elementary and going to “special” places. The limits of human intelligence are very real and visible to me. Anyone can learn and study but we are most definitely not equals in abilities or perception, but are equal as friend humans going through this together. I will sand for you in support 100% friends. I just cant help without help I am so sorry. To many inventions, near perfect stock picks, too many areas that need filling in. Of the dozen journals and science things I read most of it is stuff I already thought though years ago. This is my depression guys…. no reason for us to be alive. Don’t believe anyone that tells you these kind of things with respect to ability btw. Not even me. ANOMLY. INHUMAN. If someone said these things to me I would think “they have no idea what they are dealing with, I have never even read about a person like me alive and will to rip them to shreds since they are lying” Am pulled so many directions how to pick. I have depression as well guys I get it. Near everything we do is for the individual. If we hate it we don’t do it unless there is something to be gained which comes in many forms, like simply doing the right thing. All the people here even this thing. Sorry people to let you in the secret of psychology. dysfunction aside. We are the verge of being able to live forever and depression will gone one way or the other eventually. Not sure I could do a billion years let alone eternity with a crippling depression shade affection motivation and energy, especially if robots do everything including mining, robot repair, robot creation, blinding speed perfect to the numbers surgery..thats literally the tip of the iceburg. Will be a scary prospect to the future when they think how people all had to die in the past.
omg yes God freaking hates me. He makes sure whenever my mother forces me to church i get really sick and feel extremely depressed. It clears up after we leave the building. I seriously don’t know what could of caused this hatred toward me, but I guess even God has to let out his anger on something, or in my case, something.
Im the same
My life is a living hell so I really feel that God hates me but I will still overcome all not for him but for me and my mom
Believe me I know exactly where you are coming from. I feel the exact same way as you do. And I’ve prayed and begged for forgiveness. But the bad thing is I don’t know what I have done to even ask for to be forgiven for a certain thing. I know that I am very tired now.
I can understand about going somewhere and seeing signs that He doesn’t like you or feel picked on to make you sad or angry, but instead of seeing the negative, focus on the positive.
Repent for anything you have done that may have hurt His heart and focus on the beautiful things that are all around you when you step outside seeing His beautiful creation like hearing the birds chirp, smelling the flowers, seeing all the beautiful people walking and playing outside enjoying life.
Thank Him for being alive and being able to improve or be a better person than you were yesterday to seek His will for your life to bring Him glory. Take some time to read the Word and start a journal and write down any revelations or scriptures that relate to your life and apply it to your life.
You are not perfect but you are not the person you use to be last year. Love the Lord with all your heart and soul and continue the journey of your life with Him, because without God we are nothing.
God Bless 🙂
i would love to know what i did to it would make it so much better
Don’t Suicide Bro there’s still hope.
No bro don’t do that its a sin and maybe GOD will not be forgive if you do that
Me too….I can t take this is horror I live .
Why would you commit suicide when “God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that whoever believeth in Him might not perish but have everlasting life”? Those who have repented of their sins and put their trust in Christ have an eternal bliss to look forward to where they will eternally and perfectly praise and love their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. God bless yoi!
If God truly loved the world, why was He incapable of forgiving us for being EXACTLY who HE created us to be. How are we supposed to trust that Heaven will be good either? The same God who says He loves me and works things for the good, says Heaven is good. I can tell you that if God had loved me for a fraction of a second I wouldn’t exist. God has failed me in everyday, in everyday for 25 years. I held on for decades trusting him, waiting for Him to ever come through, ever prevail, ever give a damnm to ever even fill my most basic needs. But He didn’t, but apparently thinks He did. If this life is any indication on the level of ‘good’, God thinks is good….Heaven is not very appealing. I would choose to not exist at all a million times over. Why would you choose to belittle someone who is suicidal anyways?
Awe no! Be sure to talk to somebody you trust and let it all out and they will reassure you and make things easier for you. Prey. God loves you. You can do this i, a stranger, believes in you! Wish you the best of luck. Have a blessed life! ??
I live on a couch, I have pain every day – all day. My teeth are effecting my health and I can’t afford the implants I want called g4. I have a hernia now for 5 years, and dizzy spells from a fall off a building 10 yrs ago.. I live in nashville an hate this concrete jungle, I get in moods were I drink with ibuprophan to kill the pain. I question all the time – lord theses I’ll do anything… You tell me to , please help..i dream of helping others to pass the time.. Lottery millions – for enjoyment I figure out how much I can give to strangers an family.. It calms me. But I get no answers. I’d give my life for others to live and have begged God to do so. But no answer… I am so broken I have no problem giveing my life to someone in need. But my answered go unheard .. I have tried to be humble an let God take my life an use it as he dreams fit. To no avail…
I’ve lived 6 years in utter pain willing to trade my life… No answer. I cannot vomit Susie because I. Am afraid. …jesus I no what u did. As a boy turning clay into sparrows on the sabith. Your words ring truth may u FORGIVE me.
Dear Suiside, I love you and I totally understand you. All these people out there have only their own advantages in mind. I deeply dislike these people. You cannot believe them. It makes me sick to live between these people. I love you because you feel like me. Suiside if in the meantime you committed suicide already, god will take you in his arms and love you. I know that. If you’re stystruging I pray you find people who think and feel like you. Either way god is with you and please don’t forget I love you.
Please, tell me how I can help! God loves you.
i wrote my song AMEN by KJTOMA explaining how I foolishly hated God for what he has done to my disgusting selfishness. I AM SORRY GOD! Please forgive me … in the name of Jesus, OUR SAVIOR! Amen.
I honestly think god doesnt give a *@)! about my life, i honestly dont care anymore if he helps me or not, i know that at the end he will never do nothing good in my life, oh and if the bible says that god loves me, why does he permit so much suffering, i think he enjoys seeing other people like me suffering, that why i ask him every night to kill me.
I agree and i can tell you he wont kill you . You will suffer till the end . I ask every night for death also . It makes you wonder the bible says god takes care of his flock and i suffer so if it lies about him taking care of his flock is the whole concept of god and the bible false ive been going to church and asking for help for years .no help but i see in life that if you cheat steal and disobey god you get the means to support your family and enjoy life . I dont care anymore i pray if there is a god bless me with the courage to eat a bullet
“For God so loved the world that she gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him will not perish but have everlasting life.” John 3:16 new life is found by repenting of our sins and trusting in Christ Jesus.
I feel the same way, I don’t hate God, Im not a bad person. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this. My life is a living hell and it’s been for 28 years. It’s very tought, maybe God just hates some and loves others. Either way I will keep fighting, not for him because he won’t be the one burning in hell for eternity if I kill myself
That seems to be the only way. Cheat lie and steal your way out of misery coz that seems to be how to get rewarded.
i get in trouble so much its like god wants me to fail so i think about suicide every day and im only 12.
Oh My goodness I just read gobs of this weeping and wailing, and the pathetic blame the devil response to human suffering. Follow that logic and one can conclude the devil delivers on his promise but God does not! People, People, People stop and listen to yourselves sniveling in self righteous pitty as if you are all too good to experience suffering. You are selfish you think you deserve that which you lack knowledge and ability to have. the bible says MY PEOPLE ARE DESTROYED FOR LACK OF KNOWLEDGE. look in the mirror and see what you have done to yourselves. you blame god because it is too painful to accept your own failures. Christ died for you! what more does he owe you? If he never answers another prayer or comforts you what is that your business? He already paid the price of your salvation and you want what? you want to feel good, you want him to give you prosparity, you want a pain free life, you want to be accepted, you want to be free of all the suffering that is suppose to make you grow strong in character and faith? Oh ye of little faith and that is your problem! You talk like babies crying cus you cant have candy. Grow up accept the pain and live! there are others out there with less who are getting by just knowing that they are here for a purpose and they live that purpose every day by loving those arround them. You do not receive because you ask amiss, learn what that means. you have had too many teachers telling you that God will prosper you, will heal you, will take away your suffering, will make every thing right. well you are not in heaven yet!
And to you teachers and preachers who throw arround Gods love and devil warfare as if it is the biblical cure all. Shame on you! You do nothing to help these people because you are too clean to get your hands dirty. These people go to churches you see them every week. what have you done besides sitting at your desk on your rock of ages and plan your word craft. Pure religeon and undefiled is this to visit the fatherless and widdow in their affliction and to keep yourselves unspoted from the world. But you love the world nevermind the spots! Get to know these people who are suffering right under your nose and help them grow in their suffering. these people are not at war with the devil they are victems of ignorance which you perpetuate in your sermonetts that you preach for christianetts. and that is all you will ever achieve because you bought into the lie that the church is for dammaged people. you keep them dammaged by not holdiong them accountable to obedience to the scriptures. you preach the false doctrine of a personal god. Rather than the truth that we are personal to god! it is God that sets the terms in our relationship to him not us. But you teach that our “experience” is undeniable; and our relationship with God is personal to us and that is why there is alot of people sniveling about life aand blaming God because he is not at their bec and call to do their bidding nor are they at his and that is why the misery. just look at how hard they fell who taught that lie. Jim Baker, Jerry Falwell, and whats the guys name that picked up hookers….you have the world in your heart and that is why your battle with the devil is so ineffective. Clens your hands you sinners, purify your hearts you double minded, Obey God regardless and maybe he will have mercy upon you.
Thanks
Your beginning was enough to send people elsewhere.
I’ve given up God continues to reward my enemies and those that bully and hurt me why leaving me to suffer. I feel like the church has lied to me all my life and that my being a good person was all a big joke. I pray and pray and situations get worse. I really believe that God is angry at me or his plan if for everything in my life to be destroyed. I don’t see a window just cold black silence
Either God is all good and powerful or He is not. My being anally raped at age 12 was MORE than enough to convince me that God was one of the following three, or all: Impotent, ignorant, or non-existent.
These “god” damn holy rollers am I right
I know that God wants me removed from this earth, every time I try to live a new life the church always finds a way to take me right back to the worse time in my life. I know it’s of my own doing and I owned it but 4 years on they still remind me of that time. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing left to give, no second chances for people like me.
I know your going through a lot .i know that I’m going through a lot not knowing god loves or even wants me anymore.god loves you more than you ever know.your special to god.god knows what people go through.i still question if god loves me.just cry out to god and tell him how you feel.god wants to hear from you.nobody talks about gods love anymore.this world is cold as ice.
Your article is as dumb as a belief in god. No good bring would be as horribly rotten as this monster you call god. If there is a hell then Hope you and the batters go there.
the unknown truth is that satan and evil exist in this world today.. The God of the world is the one who decieve people and does not like people . I dont think God the father hates anybody. Its a very misunderstood religion system. So sorry you felt like it was God the Father.
Hey I’m late to this conversation… as usual. I’m questioning even my own faith. I have to admit… not hearing his voice in my prayers and day to day life is unbearable – His silence is deafening. I am unmarried…I know this seems sad compared to what other horrors other people are facing… but the prospect of being alone is terrifying.
Been praying for a wife but keep running into spiritual flakes, mentally unstable individuals inside and outside of church. No I don’t think Christian women are bad many of my married female sisters are really kinder than my own sibling, but I’ve not the luck of running into a single women for myself.
I wonder why he would just stand there watching me in my depression and loneliness. I’ve wanted to be married since I was a teen now I’m in my 40s. Trying so hard to not date non christian women. Being alone is scary, not knowing if God cares about this or even listening is terrifying..
He hears your prayers. I will also add my own. You are not alone in these feelings.
God doesn’t hate anyone. People are stupid abusive monsters who want you to blame God so they can Continue doing to others what they have done to you. Humans inability to love or be kind is a testament to the hatred of life. We are simply killing ourselves deprived of intelligence. It is insane to say one hates an individual yet loves an idea of some sort. Preposterous. Use are we all to one another on an emotional basis. Even during some of my most painful memories I knew the cruelty of humans proves we haven’t risen above animalism regardless how convoluted our pretentious etiquette claims to be. Learn to stay away from the cold hearted nuts that drive is to kill ourselves for their folly as bullies is all they have…
For me, I have had so many tragedies and painful experiences. It all tends to isolate me from others.
That’s understandable, Jim. Tragedy and pain can be very isolating. I encourage you to reach out in whatever way you can (whether to a friend, a church community, or a professional) to get any support you might need.
There are several Jims here, but if you are talking to me, please don’t suggest there is any HELP for this. I am now much older than when I was raped, and even as a committed Christian I can’t imagine a Jesus who said “Jesus, however, said, “Let the little children come to me, and stop keeping them away, because the kingdom from heaven belongs to people like these, who then let EVEN ONE of them get raped. I can’t, so I have given up on God. It is sad that He doesn’t help, but perhaps I can help others by advising them to NEVER believe that God is watching over them, because, if I had NOT felt so, I would probably have never been raped.
Most of the time people are at fault, it is their terrible choice that led to you being raped. I’m sincerely sorry coz I can truly understand that wretched feeling. God has allowed people to make their own decisions and when people misuse it, God can punish them you know…so pray for protection, maybe God wanted you to rely on him and possibly grow from the experience and encourage others who feel miserable.
I’m really sorry Jim that happened to you, it brought tears to my eyes. This world is wicked and we have been lied to about damn near everything. I’m going through some things myself, things I’m sure no one will believe, and will say it’s my mental issues..But I know what happened, and it proved to me 100% God /Jesus doesn’t care about certain people, ITS A FACT! Indeed God has a plan for all of us, though we never thought that plan for some of us may be or been something God awful.
Hang in there brother, love ya.. Maybe we’ll meet one day in the pit.
You wrote your comment quite a while ago. I hope you are not feeling as isolated as you once were. And I pray that you know Jesus through the Comforter, His Holy Spirit – whom He promises will never leave nor forsake us. For me, the good thing about isolation is that it pushes me to know Jesus better. When I would walk down the crowded halls, He would say to me, “I know you feel alone but you’re not. I’m right here, so smile.”
Isolation is a time when I too feel closer to God!
I feel the same too. I have been hurt by my own blood and I isolate myself from a lot of people.
The more I pray the worse my life becomes. If you only knew what I have been through… when will it be my season???????????????????????????????? W
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I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN… I NEVER ASKED FOR ANY OF THIS… SO MY LIFE HAS TO BE COMPLETELY SATURATED WITH disappointment, depression, trauma, abuse, sickness – I keep praying but it gets worse
M – I am so sorry you are feeling so badly. It sounds like you are experiencing what St. John of the Cross called the “dark night of the soul” – a time when it seems that God is completely absent and does not hear our fervent prayers. I don’t have a good explanation for why God feels so far away sometimes, or why terrible things happen even when we are praying as hard as we can. I do believe that God hears our prayers, even when it seems no one is listening, and that God loves us and wishes the best for us always. I hope you will be able to find someone who can support you in this time of great sorrow (maybe a friend, a congregation, or a helping professional). Please know I will be keeping you in prayer.
Ya, nobody has an answer why God hates some of us. God is not a loving and caring God. Millions of people suffer and he does nothing. Period. He’s cruel.
Finally someone who understands….
many people understand i don’t want a life
I agree John. I think the history of Christianity is a bad practical joke. I think God is all powerful, . . but not all loving or even good. I think he’s like people. Flawed. And capable of enormous cruelty. Infinite power in His hands is devastating to many of us.
God only hates women so you are save John.
I’ve been having “The dark night of the soul” since I died in 2005. Since I was brought back everything turns sour.
My friends have left.
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No matter how much I pray the opposite happens. My world keeps becoming smaller. I’ve tried so hard.
Can you tell me about the dark night of the soul or any good books?
Yeah, right. God wishes and supports others who wish ill for me.
i understand your pain
^^^ EVERY SINGLE BIT OF THIS!!! ^^^ Apparently, there is no “god”, period. If there were or if he cared a thing about any of us, our lives would be quite different. After all the @%(# I’ve been put through, the only reality that plays out is: There was no “god” when I was 5 years old; there was no “god” when I was a teenager; there was no “god” when I was in the military and there is no “god” now.
For a long time I tried to believe there is no God. I wish I could believe that. It would all be a lot easier. But I believe there is a God. Problem is, he isn’t the “all loving father” he’s held out to be. He’s just an all-powerful entity without much compassion. If he’s on your side, it’s probably great. For the rest of us, it isn’t.
yep. agreed.
God does not hate you. I can’t say it any stronger that the devil and demonic forces will do anything to have you create a God in your mind that is not the real God so that we end up praying and listening to “him” when it’s not really him at all. we learn to serve what we think God is versus who he Really is. I have done this. I want so badly for you to see what I see. that it’s not God and that its demonic forces, granted I don’t know what you have been through but sometimes it does seem like God hates me but we can get out of it by saying “Jesus is my strength” and its true. I’m so sorry that you feel bad, I will pray for you. God is better than a human. He doesn’t have to be a Father, He can be like someone else, someone who cares for you very much. A mom or a sibling or a coach or a teacher or anyone He can be, God doesn’t hate you! I promise. Here is a link to a book called The Screwtape letters,m it reveals and sheds so much light onto the demons’ plans. I know through God that this will help you realize the devil’s schemes and ploy, I don’t know you but God told me to tell you “I love you” no joke. “I have such a heart for you”. I know that God loves you Miso sad and Anna and all the anonymous’s and Kathrine and Lenna fuller and Shawn Madrid and Andrew and Carmen and John God love you all and I pray God that the amazing individuals no that it doesn’t matter what they have done You will never stop loving us please please understand that and i pray that God you rebuke the demons back right Now in the name of Jesus so they are no Longer!!! in control but it is the control of Miso sad and Anna and all the anonymous’s and Kathrine and Lenna fuller and Shawn Madrid and Andrew and Carmen and John over their bodies and any other amazing humans that are on this God make them happy again please Lord Jesus. in Jesus Christ name Amen!
Screwtape letters: https://www.amazon.com/Screwtape-Letters-C-S-Lewis/dp/0060652934
Agreed. We just have to accept we are in this alone
Miso Sad I totally agree with you.
Hey do you want to talk because I live like that too
I believe it is the added stack of negative events. for me, there used to be good days and bad days. Slowly, there weren’t any good days left. It began only alright days and bad days. I started to question perhaps, karma or luck, as I have never been a seriously religious person. However, I felt I did everything I can, in fact, I was smart, i was kind sensitive, and welcoming. I then turned to a higher power, as if why do you like to punish me, the biggest question for me is “what did I do wrong?” And yet, it is not what we did wrong, and honestly I only write this message to make me feel a bit better. Maybe, if I wait for a long, long, long time, things might clear up. I engage myself in everything, change everything to make myself better, yet you can’t change the biggest things, like other people’s preferences, the will of nature, and the way we process negative feelings. Good luck to everyone, as no one deserves any bad days. No one deserves to cry daily. Step into the light.
What light? You gave me like 20 sentences I could relate to and then you just said “step into the light” I would like to, everyone would. We don’t see it. And we all get more convinced every day that it is because it isn’t there at all.
I agree so much cl
Hi. I used to pray every morning and every night. The more honest I became, the harder it got to continue. I feel alone. I am attracted to very young girls for some reason. I feel like so many people hate me. I have to keep my attraction a secret. I worry that if I am honest änd tell people about my attraction, I will get killed. This makes me sad. I fear even my own mom and son hate me If they really knew me. Why do people feel like they’re own family wants them dead?
Nick, if you’re still reading this, please, please get some counseling from a licensed therapist. It’s not your fault that you feel an attraction to children, and it’s brave of you to admit that you have that problem, but you’re right that it’s so taboo that you’ll have a hard time finding support from most people. However, if you keep this to yourself until it boils over and you can’t control it anymore, you could end up doing lasting damage to a child. Children who are sexually abused often struggle with PTSD, depression, substance abuse, sexual dysfunction, low self-esteem, learned helplessness, and a host of other issues, sometimes for their whole lives. Please, please see a counselor who you can confide in. Their job is not to be judgmental but to help you work through unhealthy impulses that could end up hurting someone else as well as yourself. I know you’re not responsible for the feelings that you have, but you’re responsible for what you do about those feelings. I hope you can get to the root of whatever it is that attracts you to young children so you can be free of that harmful impulse and find peace.
To all whom feel like you face your day alone or gods not there for you. I know the effects of suicide first hand it saddens me that you hurt and feel that you would not be missed because if you read this Well I can tell you that our paths have crossed and I would be saddened deeply by the lose of a beautiful life. Please know that you may feel like he’s not hearing your prayers but the beauty of it is he knows the outcome of all of our lives and when we struggle or we have the 1000 pound weight of whatever we are battling well his plan is divine and by golly really feel him and know that he’s carrying you stop and feel the warmth of the sun on your skin and be thankful for little little things and know that you are loved and not just by God because well it maybe a small offering from someone I’m thankful to have crossed paths with I love you too. Suicide is something that is a short term fix but never a salutent please there are many places that can help and truly give the support and encouragement that all of us need to feel excepted there is no pain greater than the one we don’t share your are a unique and amazing brother or sister of mine and I would gladly help there is no hill you can not get over I would not say that had I not climbed some steep cliffs I believe he hears all prayers sometimes we have to be patient and know that he loves and would never let us down have faith and his love and your will are the most powerful things that open great doors trust in him first and there is not anything that you cannot do.. Be amazing and pass that on… Please don’t listen to hate and negative things and coming from an alchoalic you will never find an answer there put the lid back on I hope I can bring a little light to a friend…
I agree to the full there is just no season of peace in any sort of way….. I’m turning 35 this year on so called valentines day still a virgin man kept my place with so called ” GOD ” I’VE lost everything I worked for and praised him with or without anything I even reached out to him and people for help and no support from him or anyone ever I’m afraid I’m on the brink of self destruction I agree fully to your opinion.
I feel the same way you do. I don’t know what it is about me – I have always been shunned, mistreated, lied on and have cried out to God for YEARS… to no avail. Something is always happening and no matter how much I pray to him, listen to pastors, join in church, make sure I pray and make all my time for God, he’s like, “No, sorry, I still don’t like you.” and “No, I will not bless you, but I will bless those around you who curse me to my face.” You and I are close in age and I am still alone, with no children, and stuck floating from job to job no matter how much education I acquire. It is devastating to not only have no earthly father, but be abandoned by the heavenly one too! I can’t take it anymore. Firing prayer bullets, listening to prayers on youtube, everything is for nothing and I am tired of having his back turned to me.
I can relate to you in this one. Its to the point going to church causes physical pain because of the lies. I wish there was even one aspect of my life that I was thankful for. When God’s will for you is a horrible life, when you haven’t been blessed in anyway it is really hard to hold on after awhile. When bad things happen and you trust God, but He never follows through and turns it to good it leaves you broken in a way no human could possibly break you. I truly wish I could believe God doesn’t exist, it would make things so much easier. I can handle having the worst luck in the world. Knowing that God created me specifically to live this life is a cruelty beyond comprehension.
My own blood hurt me that’s not supposed to happen right.
I know how you feel the more i pray the worse it gets
Read God’s Word! It’s “living and true. God is a shield to those who trust Him!” God bless you!
Unfortunately even after this article I still believe that if God exist he hates me. Too many bad things have happened to me for me to believe otherwise.
Nellie, I understand why you would feel that way given all that you have been through. I can’t explain why such bad things happen to people in a world that God loves. My personal belief is that God loves all people and all of creation, even when it doesn’t seem that way – but I very much respect the fact that you believe differently based on your life experiences. I hope that you will be able to find the resources you need to seek healing and wholeness in your journey. I wish you peace and comfort during this difficult time.
Tell that to the dying from starvation kids of Ethiopia and war torn countries. Seems easy to be good and nice and generous when you’ and your kids are not deprived of basic needs for hum#n dignity.
Same here. He really hates me.
I have tried to love him,to no avail.
God may hate us, or God may love us, but the answer is so what? We did our part to love Him and accept Jesus’ atonement and yet we were abandoned. What are we going to do about it? If this is the only life we have to live, if we kill ourselves we don’t have any other option and everyone will be left more alone than before. All those people you could and did help will be worse off if you kill yourself and you won’t EVER be able to help ANY of them ever again. So the reason you don’t kill yourself is not for you, it is for THEM. Don’t kill yourself because you want to be able to be around to help each other survive, you will help them and they will help you.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7, ESV) The peace of God protects those who love God and love reading His word.
God isn’t real
That is contradictory to the way I was raised, but I agree with you. At 52 I have nothing to look back on but emotional pain, desperation, depression, loneliness, stress… this list goes on. It actually makes me hope there is no god (or gods) but rather, just randomness. I do not wish to believe in a deity (deities) that would choose to bless some and not others. It is as if my life is a joke, so yeah I hope there’s no god. And, I look forward to nonexistence. That’s the one good thing that WILL happen to me. Whether it’s next week or in another 52 years, it will, indeed, eventually end.
Hi ,I lived a life of hardship too. For some reasons, I don’t believe we should lose hope . God loves us. ..maybe you could talk about it more with me, if not I still hope you have a great day
To see from your perspective as well, but so much younger pains me. What I feel isn’t often an emotion that is caused from one event, and one that fades easily. it is many events that cause emotions that don’t go away. Honestly, the people I talk to don’t truly feel my pain, in fact, they make me feel more disappointed, more jealous, more self-aware. Where am I? i sit so much lower than the stars. I feel so much more different than what I thought I was.
I feel like this too. I am not concerned if there is an afterlife and hope that there isnt, because it will just be another level of learning and suffering. When I die, I want my suffering to end FOR GOOD. No more pain, just a loss of consciousness. The peace of sleep. As far as I see it, Gods are not worth chasing after. If they exist they have absolutely no concept of pain because they aren’t living in a body. So praying to them to relieve pain and sickness is an utter waste of time. They have no concept of it. My pain and suffering have reached such extreme levels that they have shattered the illusion of a loving God. Either He’s non-existent, or He is Joe Carroll from The Following, a psychopathic monster who enjoys tormenting his victims with exquisite tortures. The ultimate vivisectionist, as C.S.Lewis put it.
You are wrong when you say that God does not know what it means to be human and have physical pain. Jesus CHOSE to experience suffering and pain for all and asks us simply to just believe that he did. He was God on earth in the flesh but his words to humanity are ignored or misunderstood. When you die you will be in far worse pain and torment than you can imagine if you do not believe and accept the price Jesus paid for you when He died on the cross. It is for every humans suffering that Jesus came, died, and rose again. Yes God is in control of everything and allows pain and suffering but few ever take the time to be humble and simply ask him why. I actually have asked and he answered. Many just get angry and never take the time to find out who God really is and why things are the way they are in this world. When I finally sat down and actually read the Bible I was blown away by how much it revealed God‘s love for his creation……..all of it humans, animals, the trees, the whole earth, and everything in it and on it . One of the first things that God showed me when I started asking him why is that from the beginning he wanted a being he could fellowship with that was somewhat like Him. He gave humans the ability to have choice which His other creatures he created dont have. Our choices and choices of those before us brought pain and suffering into the world. We choose our way most times and just complain and blame God without ever even looking to Him for real help because we expect that help to come the way we think it should or we expect God to make our lives better in the way we think it should be made better. All the while God has given instructions to human kind to follow and because he knows our pain and suffering he sent His Son to open the door of communication with him that is closed when we choose to do things our own way and not His. God did live in a human body in Jesus. Jesushimself said he and father God were one together. That’s why they killed Him. At anytime he could have stopped them but because of Gods love for us he didn’t. To this day Jesus has the marks of his crucifixion on his body. He really did die and come back to life. Why? Why would he do that? I mean he could’ve easily just wiped out all of humanity and started over if he wanted. But he didn’t because his ultimate desire is to have that fellowship again with the creation he loves. The human that he created you, me, all of us. If you never have please read the Bible specifically the book of John. Jesus spoke in a lot of parables but he also spoke plainly about who he was why he came to earth and what he expects of people. Before you get angry at God or frustrated with him or try to make sense of things on your own of why this and why that why don’t you take some time and just ask him humbly not in a demanding way or aggressive way just simply ask him and read the Bible and see what happens. If my testimony to you is not true then all you’ve done is taken some time to do a little bit of research but if it is true and you don’t take the time the suffering that you’ve had on this earth will be nothing and I do mean nothing compared to the suffering that you will face when you die because only our bodies die our spirits live forever. Hell is eternity without God. It is judgement never meant for humans. We choose whether we go there or not. As evil as this world is God is still present with man and still an active part of his creation. He lets men make choices and does not control us like a puppet master. His presence is still in this world. There is still good working along side evil in this world because his presence is here but when his presence is removed evil takes complete control. Hell is a place where his presence is known of but the good is completely gone forever. Hell is judgement for the rebellious Lucifer and all the demons that followed him. The only way to go there is to choose the same rebellion…..that rebellion is to choose your own way and not Gods. Please read what Jesus said in the Bible. He explained everything.
There are several of us who have done everything you have said. God has been very transparent with why He has tortured me the way He has. He is very plain on that this is what He needs me to do, and doesn’t care how I suffer for it. He doesn’t care that He created me against my will, He doesn’t care that He forces me to exist against my will. He has a job for me to do, and everything He doesn’t care about. The real irony is He is teaching me most about how selfish He is. Even your whole rant is all about what God wanted, at the expense of us humans. And although Jesus became human to atone for our sins, I struggle with his example. Jesus choose to become human, and I haven’t read anywhere in the Bible where He doubted if God existed or not. Nowhere did it talk about him calling out to God in pain for decades and God never answering. Jesus also had support, He had friends, He had family. They weren’t perfect, and had some week days. But they were also there for him, how could Jesus every understand to know what its like to spend you whole life without that. And with a God who left them alone and rejected. the Bible is full of examples of the people God came through for, but where are the stories about all the ones He didn’t.
Maybe God is using those trials to help you to love Him! Jesus said in the gospel of John that He came to seek and save the lost. Luke 19:10
I disagree when you claim humans created exclusions and labels. All the mainstream religions, the Holy men/Prophets have superiority complex. Women, people of color, gays, anyone different were treated like slaves and this is promoted in the divine scriptures. God created human along with human nature knowingly and willingly to torture some. People believe in God as a coping mechanism because deep down inside they know such entity does not exist and things never do get better. *$#* God, I hate him and he hates me.
Everything you need to know about God is laid out in the story of Jacob and Esau. Esau had plans for a better life but was hungry. Jacob was a horrible person who manipulated and betrayed his own father. God loved Jacob, and he hated Esau. God hates the hungry who should be destined for a better life, and loves the horrific and manipulative enough to make them Kings of all nations. It’s right there in the Bible, and if you take a look around, you see the same metaphor still playing out to this day. Pastors always get weird and uncomfortable trying to teach this story, because that’s when the “God loves everyone” facade cracks and the ugly truth comes tumbling out.
But attraction is instinctual, not learned behavior like this article implies, and if God made us in his image, and some people are ugly while others are not, it is impossible to argue that isn’t his bidding.
I believe God hates me too, I have suffered with mental illness naturally and also brought on by tons of abuse, I cant seem to compleatly turn my life over I stumble almost every chance I get. I came tonight to go to a gsthering to honer Jesus death and feel like God threw me out I was sooooo uncomfortable and in sooo much pain physicaly too. i couldnt sit on the seat. This has happened on more than one occasion me trying to go to church feeling all tormented and. Here I sit out in the car while I wait for everone to get done for my ride home.
I am so sorry you are feeling this way, and that even a house of worship did not feel like a safe space for you to be. I encourage you to seek out any form of support you can find, particularly if you are feeling like you want to harm yourself or someone else. Some good places to look (especially if church feels too painful for you right now) would be in your local hospitals, community mental health centers, or counseling centers. You will be in my prayers.
Don’t recommend hospitals. For that, there are fates worse than death, and hospitals are one of them.
Leanna your only advise to everyone here is to seek some help from others. you encourage to seek support from other individuals, and you end with “you will be in my prayer”. Just so you are aware, this does not help anyone. It’s better if you don’t reply, than reply with a generic statement that leaves us with wondering if we wasted your time.
Harsh, but fair, comment.
I’m with you Marci. There are so many out there that really don’t have the answer but still insist on giving us the same lines we’ve been fed our entire lives that is not even close to a remedy or answer.
I’d suggest reading the Bible. God is a shield to those who trust Him. Psalm 18:30
Dear the forever lost child, if it is painful for you to sit through church, this could be a sign that you have a deeper spiritual warfare going on that you are not aware of. I would suggest praying quietly in a peaceful place and asking for The Holy Spirit to fill you with God’s grace and heal you and protect you from the enemy. I would also suggest talking to a priest.
I think it probably means that church sucks.
God hates me show much as well. I’ve prayed and asked for forgiveness and grace but I never get an answer. Every time I pray things get worse for the last 7+ years my life has been a misery. I’m so suicidal, I’m dealing with pain and suffering on a daily basis. I feel like I’m being punished every day of my life. I’ve got to the stage when I ask God to end it for me even when I pray for that it doesn’t arrive. I just think I’m put on earth for God to torture.
It must be terribly painful to go through what you are experiencing, Graham. I am truly sorry that you are feeling this way, and that you have not been able to find any relief for your suffering. I am concerned for you, and would strongly encourage you to reach out to a helping professional – perhaps a counselor, a physician, or a pastor that you know – and ask for help. If you feel like you are in danger of hurting yourself, please go to your closest Emergency Room or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. You can find more resources on their website at https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ I will be keeping you in my prayers.
Leanna, what is wrong with suicide? If someone chooses to die it is their choice. We all have to die sometime and if we are miserable why not choose yourself how and when? Instead of being force to live a horrible painful life? Obviously God does not care so why should we?
Leanna, that phone number exists so they can call the authorities to take away your freedom. They track your phone number from previous calls and build a file on you. Say one wrong thing and the cops show up and take you to the men with white coats. They suck. I agree with Barbara. The problem is that suicide can fail. There needs to be legislation that allows people to be euthanized if they want to die.
Do you want to chat with me because I actually feel the same way . Hence ,why I am here. I think things may seem brighter soon. But for now I’m taking things one step -a time
I believe there is a Good God who loves you and cares about you. And a Devil who is trying to destroy you. You are in a war. Everyone go’s through the hills and valleys. I fell like God hates me sometimes, but it’s a Devils lie. There is a lot of unknown stuff going on. We don’t have the knowledge or understanding to see what’s going on. As simple as it can be. God is good and the Devil is bad. Faith is a choice to believe. Make a choice to believe in what you want in life. Start to speak it to yourself. As I speak to you I speak to myself. Our words are powerful. Don’t call yourself a looser. Call yourself a winner. Can’t you see the Devil working here. Stand up and fight for yourself. Be careful with your thoughts and the words out of your mouth. What you think, and what you speak is what your going to get. This is how we fight the Devil with positive thoughts and positive words found in the Bible.
How convenient. We can’t know, so simply believe a story. What sense does that make. And why give an “all powerful” God a pass for the horrors of reality. It’s the Devil’s fault? God is all powerful. But it is the fault of one of his creations? God can do anything, but isn’t to be blamed for what he does and doesn’t do? I’d love a gig like that. Where do I sign up?
It’s very convenient. How about realizing that God and Satan are two cheeks of the same arsehole? What, you think he contracted out the building and running of Hell to someone else? But he creates good and evil, by his own words. I’ve heard the spiritual battle/war bull+@(! for too long. It’s self-delusional crap.
OK I would have to say God hate us. If an infinite God can do anything created everything down to subatomic particles, stars, black holes and even the notion of time, dimension even the notion of good versus evil would not exist without his bidding. He made it like this. You can’t get something from nothing right? If I build a computer to run a specific spec or program it won’t magically overnight upgrade itself with new algorithms unless you place them there as a variable in the first place. I believe that this universe is to God what a television is the people, it’s just for entertainment purposes. He could give two f**** as long as we play by our rules that he give us, shit on our live’s daily just to spice things up (except for his favorite characters) then expect us to say thank you. We are just toys that got thrown away after the funs been had….even Satan had no say in his role. “But God sends these trials to see if we really love him or “how would we know pain or suffering if everything was perfect?” Well my answer to that question folks is we would because the same argument could be applied to God! Who has never died , FELT FEAR never feel pain, never sweat, never cried, never got sunburn, not even a papercut, NEVER HAD ANYTHING, ANYTHING, not go his way, NEVER EVEN HAD A BAD DAY, Everyday surrounded by TRILLIONS OF thousands of tons of jewels myriad of gold pearls food ,planets, people, friends, in a dimension of neverending bliss, is trying to give us a lesson in pain to prepare our minds for pleasure riiiiiiight. Just look at his kingdom description in revelation, the one about his throne in heaven not the one on earth. For somebody who doesn’t want us to take stock in material possessions sure as hell have way more than even the greediest human could ever acquire in a billion lifetimes. After all we are made in his image so we naturally crave deityhood. It just comes off to me as a universal case of do-as-i-say-not-as-i-do type of thing.
Prince S.
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That’s expressed very humorously.
And to think that all i ever wanted from God was for him to bless a good man like me with a good wife and family that i still don’t have today unfortunately. God is very mean.
Lo and behold, I feel what you’re saying is true, I’m 22yrs old, from a born again family and starting to doubt God’s plan.long story short, there’s a girl I wanted, I prayed to God that she’s be my wife and for awhile it did indeed seem like we would be married but now she’s engaged to a different man. I don’t understand. Why would god tantalize me like this, he says “ask and ye recieve” but now it seems like hes’ really saying “ask and I promise then laugh” it hurts so much being lead to believe he’ll give you something good then have him rescind the promise.
You are 22!! Did it ever occur to you that this girl just didn’t feel the same way? I realize it sucks and it hurts when things don’t go your way, but God gave humans free will. That woman has free will of her own and guess what, she didn’t want to marry you. You think God owes you that woman and you just give up on your faith because a woman with free will didn’t choose you. Maybe she didn’t marry you because you didn’t respect her free will and autonomy! Have you actually read the Bible – the entire way through? When Jesus says his yoke is easy and his burden is light, he isn’t talking about life being easy, but a relationship with HIM being easy. And it is easy when you stop blaming God for all the problems other humans create. It’s not his fault that people are )%#(*%@! He gave them free will and with that free will they are choosing to be )%#(*%@!! And to clarify, that girl isn’t an )%#(*%@! just because she didn’t want you back. Do you know anything about attraction? Maybe she just isn’t attracted to you – which isn’t her fault. God gave people physical desires and each person is unique in that way. Frankly I find it insulting that when people who are dying of cancer of suffering of starvation and poverty and they still have faith, you are whining about a girl not liking you back. And when Jesus said ask and you shall receive, he wasn’t meaning he will give you whatever you want. Just as God said he would answer your prayers – that doesn’t mean he will answer them to your satisfaction. I personally am agnostic but I was raised in a very religious household and my dad is a pastor. I have read the Bible many times over. I have suffered sexual / emotional abuse as a child and teen, and then in my early 20s I spent three years fighting for my life through a dibilitating disease that I still suffer from today. I was homeless as a teen and have had to starve at times. And I didn’t give up my faith in God because of that – because I knew that God wasn’t to blame for what other people did. I stopped believing in God because scientifically there is no proof. I am not an atheist because I cannot prove that there is no God. So I am agnostic. I can totally understand other people’s posts on here but to be 22 and )%#(*%@! about God not FORCING a young woman to marry you is disgusting. You have your entire life ahead of you. Did you ever think that God has other plans for you? Maybe they are better than you could possibly imagine! Maybe you will meet someone you care for ten thousand times more! Like every other human in earth when I was younger I was in relationships where I thought no one could EVER be better for me than that person and when the relationships didn’t last, I was heartbroken.but each time I found someone I liked way more! You need to respect other people’s free will. Also, read the bible.
Jamire,
You’re 22? You’re very, very, young. Don’t worry over a girl. There are many more girls. Work on improving YOU. Get a good education so you can have a good job in our modern economy. What do you want to be? Be that thing, work hard to obtain the skills to do it well, and you’ll be in demand. Maybe you want to be a truck driver, or a plumber, or a carpenter, or a writer, or painter, or photographer, or a teacher, lawyer, computer programmer, or anything else. Get the training needed to be VERY good at your chosen profession, then the world will want YOU to do work for them, you’ll be doing work YOU want to do, and you’ll probably be successful. THEN, many females will be attracted to you, and by then you’ll have some wisdom about which ones would be best for your life. But with women come threats to the wealth you will gain, so be cautious; women have ruined many men financially; many women are good, but you must be careful.
I wonder how many of the stories on this page about the misery people are living through, are caused by poor choices those people made, and how many of those people are willing to admit (at least to themselves), that they are responsible for their own misery.
Go to the library, or bookstore, and read page 1 of “The Road Less Traveled” by M. Scott Peck. One of the most powerful pages ever written on the face of this earth. That page is pure truth.
YOU , WITH ALL YOUR YEARS, HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THEY HURT ! I wish that for just one day you could stand inside their shoes and for just that one moment they could be you !
He already stood in their shoes. He knows the pain because he already experienced it.
You two are like a farmer who expected that God should sow his grain for him. If the farmer should not plow, not sow, and not reap, should he then curse God that he is hungry? And what of the martyrs that faced torture and death but maintained their faith in God? Did they accuse God of being mean or of tantalizing them?
To be fair the guy before you stated what seemed to be sowing into a relationship, and next regarding those Martys I’d argue their situation while worse in any conceivable way is not comparable due to what each person in this life goes through some people can suffer a cheating spouse and move on while others will be tormented with bitterness and all sorts of sorrow, I see it as the farmer who scattered the seeds some just got the break of being sown in good soil regardless of the environment they are in if they are essentially placed in great conditions they will grow, imagine a seed on a concrete road never to be moved but the place around it is perfect for it to grow but it’s not sown where it can grow, I feel for people like them rejection can be painful but I argue God can not give you a wife He might set everything up to be possible but He never forces His will on us in this way, I’ve been there I was deeply in love but it wasn’t mutual I was left for another and I am what supposedly she wanted but she chose otherwise and I admit it still bothers me, I learned that you can not expect God to give you a wife or to keep one for that matter, you have to just be the best person you can be and open up if you find someone your interested in and take note of anything similar to the ex ladies and if they are too material or success oriented (I really mean selfish) , beauty is fleeting and charm or niceness sweetness are deceptive but a woman who has good morals is worth your time, and trust me you’ll only fall in love with someone you actually like so don’t worry so much about the beauty is fleeting cause your going to be attracted to her just don’t lie to yourself about being greatly attracted to her personality when you don’t think she is at least attractive on some realistic level to you, no offense to people who feel ugly (girls tell me I’m ugly and handsome, physically, woman are crazy anyway, they can be a detriment to a man) so don’t be in a rush remember the world got ruined because of a man compromising for his woman, don’t compromise your happiness and sanity for a woman they are not worth it, nothing is without it your throwing yourself into fire and misery, I learned my lesson and I have had nothing but ultimately bad experiences with women in my life even outside of dating or whatever you want to call it words only mean what they are understood as anyway, hope you guys get past all that stuff and stop waiting on God to bring you a wife do it yourself and see how it goes. Praying without going out to do what you praise for won’t do nothing trust me! No offense but God kinda sits there looking waiting for you to try something it may or may not work, I just know from my own relationship with God I got to do the work (as per my human abilities to do so) in order to get anything never got a handout for nothing but idle words and discouraging statements like pray and read your bible (like any Christian who can read never read at least some part of the Bible and talked to God) people sometimes just speak without getting it, as for the whole thing with people during and being tortured for their faith no proof can be said that they always keep faith other than what is said and when we meet God I’m sure we will see the truth I hope I get to be with God in His temple but till then idk I’ll just keep suffering till I get over what ever is going on in life including my depression and loneliness and my lack of faith in Gods promises, I hope I get over all my little things and toughen up cause I hate life right now and I haven’t really enjoyed after being saved sense my first girlfriend I’m only 24 now and was saved 2009 got my first gf in 2012 and it was horrible experience and I tried again last year and this was even worse and I tried with others in between but nothing, who knows might never get married might never have kids with someone I will live with for the rest of my life, might die young might die old might be miserable forever might become happy today and forever more or a mix and match idk I just hope God will be more protective of my heart and mind but even then the Bible says guard your heart cause if you don’t we’ll then guess what your screwed cause that’s what’s going to make you look good in Gods eyes despite what Jesus did on the cross which sucks to me cause sometimes no matter how much you want to be good to others and forgive and all that jazz you just can’t seem to get past what your heart feels and thinks, I just want to love God again but I find it hard when I know he is ultimately in control it’s just the thought of that that makes it hurt cause how does my death and misery spiritually and as a whole person glorify his name, I’m terrified of the idea of becoming like Judis or like Cain or like that married couple who died in Acts I lament on the thought of being mocked in hell seeing the promises God had for me supposedly but for what ever reason I was made to be in capable even with the Holy Spirit to overcome the test and receive them supposedly I was supposed to be married like 5 times according to prophets and look at me now and it’s not from a lack of being open and trying this makes it even more difficult to trust God if His supposed prophets who I believe most must have been legit according to accurate and sometimes fulfilled prophecies. I think maybe I’m not good enough that maybe Jesus doesn’t like me because I don’t like being mistreated and desire him to defend me (not do bad things to people just open their eyes to stop being so abusing and evil) or maybe cause I have a porn/sex problem idk, I guess I’m too ugly spiritually while people who are also Christian can do more worse (as far as is fixable) and still come out on top and seem more favorable than me, I get depressed thinking about it, even just looking at my own self and the word it just confirms a conflict and for some reason the contradiction in the Bible to my actuality is too much not to ignore idk I’m just a person like everyone else I use to be super favored ex relationships though never could find a compatible woman as of yet regardless if I do as a man should
The world wasn’t ruined because a man compromised for his woman. Spare me the myth of the talking snake and eating an apple.
“woman are crazy anyway, they can be a detriment to a man”
Yeah, well men are crazy and the sure can be a detriment to a woman. Men aren’t worth it either when it comes to a woman giving up her sanity etc. If all of your experiences with women are bad, than the problem lies with you, quit picking bad women, problem solved.
Why is Adam always seen as a victim? He also chose to sin. He could have held out and God would have given him another wife. He blew it, too.
Good thing it’s just a myth.
The martyrs should have accused God of being mean. He is mean. Those people suffered and died for an all-powerful God who could have stopped it at any moment. What a jerk. There is the farmer who won’t plow, sow, or reap. But there is also the farmer who has his crop wiped out by pestilence or drought. Or fire. Or flood. Everything bad that happens to people isn’t all because they didn’t work hard enough. Children born blind, disabled, etc. People plagued by cancer. Etc. I’m happy to “accuse” an all-powerful God who claims to love us for all the horror and suffering in the world he created and can control. He just seems really mean.
No . He’s just very patient. Jesus said he was coming soon . ..we have had to wait over 2016’s years for that arrival , what we think as being soon and God thinks as being soon is a lot different. But if you give glory to God and not disrespect him you’ll have forever. So you won’t even need to worry
God only loves and does for who he wants. People worship him and he spits in their face daily. That’s a fact. Ask the children who are repeatedly raped. Ask people who beg God for some relief and he does nothing. But yet child molesters, dope dealers and rapists get whatever they want. But a five year old little girl can beg God to stop being raped and he does nothing. Oh, ya, but God loves you!
Real#*^! bro
I so relate to the comments. I am turning 51 in a few days and the only deep desire I have had Is to marry and have a child. I have prayed my whole life for this. I have tried my best to be obedient to God and serve him. We are suppose to trust that His plan for us is the best one. I can’t imagine being alone is His best plan for me. Then I look at my sister who is not a Christian and has a wonderful husband and two beautiful children. Please explain about this loving God??
As we can see, nobody has the answers to our pain and torture. This is God’s plan for us, period. If he loved us or we were part of the chosen, he’d do something but he does not. The bottom line is if you love somebody, you show it. You don’t play games and continue to let them suffer when they need you. People I love never have to question my love. Period. I don’t lie to them and tell them to have faith in my love and then continue to turn my back on them.
We Deserve a answer from our father as to his silence to our cries. Answers like why do you give us 60 years to get it right but satan gets a planet to rule , rape, and ruin our lives, with us under his whip for thousands of years? Havnt humanity suffered enough? Guess not. I just wish he would explain this to us not as a god but as a father,but good luck with that
Mr. Rosa you’re not alone, I’m a 27 year old guy who can relate a lot.
I’ve decided He’s a lot like us. Put infinite power into the hands of an ordinary person and bad things will happen. What is the saying? Power corrupts. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. He projects a public persona that is loving and wonderful. But in reality he’s petty and cruel. I think most of the horrors of our lives is just for his entertainment.
Have you tried finding the amazing lady you want to marry . ? Sometimes God wants us to wait to be blessed sometimes he wants us to work to be blessed
I love God with all my heart. I want Him to be in my life but he keeps failing me. I trust only on him but does He even foe once think of me? I pray, i fast, i am born again but God hates me and want to dissapoint me everytime. I read His word n believe in it but nothing written there ever works for me. It is hard for me coz all my hope, trust n faith i put in Him but i guess he feel happy seeing me suffer. Why should i suffer if Jesus died for me?
God may laugh at the Wicked , not you . If you are keeping his word . You will be blessed do not only think about this life .when we will have forever. But no tbh it’s probably Satan holding you down from your true worth . Unfortunately evil exists not Just Jehovah ..
This is a sad case where misery does not love company, because it.’seems sadder to know that other people are feeling & suffering as I am. Sure, I’ve made mistakes or incorrect choices, but I am human . I basically do try to lead a good, moral life, follow the “Golden Rule”. Yet, I too firmly believe the more I pray, the worse things become in my life. I’m almost.52 & feel time running out st speed of light! So, I’ve S/w/variety of clergy, seeking the answer to why G-d seems to hate me so much?! I’m still waiting for the answer while trying to figure S god reason not to end my life. As per Dylan: @theanswer I’d blow in’ in the wind”, cause I still don’t know!
I too wonder where the loving God is. I am an incest survivor, have had ptsd/mdd, was abandoned by someone who was a lifeline to me, have been homeless and hospitalized, have no family as the abuse occurred in the family, and have been unable due to mental illness to integrate into society. I’ve been discriminated against and treated badly by many. I abused myself as a result of these experiences. I ask God to take me home ever day and know one day I will simply end it. I even had therapists abandon me. I have lived in housing that triggered my symptoms and my dreams are gone. I am middle aged now and have never had a bf. I am tired of life and religion is full of horse**** and false promises. I don’t see Jesus returning or a new heaven and earth or any justice, just worse and worse pain. I do pray for others as I am able but I am tired of everything. I take responsibility for my own errors but anyone who knows the pain of incest knows how it can devastate your life. I look at what others have and at the daily struggle I cover up and am sick of it all. Churches I found to be judgmental places. This is a world for the wicked and evil to thrive in, the kinder you are the more hell you’ll have. I”m sick of God and I’m sick of Christianity’s lies and bullshit. If there is a God he or she is fine with children being raped and tortured and sure as hell doesn’t give a loving plan to anyone I guess except the fake prosperity ministers and those who don’t give two shits about him. I’ve been tortured my entire life even to the point of having demons attack me and having him cruelly test me so he could break me down further. I have zero hope for my life. God destroyed it all and let satan torture me and I hate Christianity and its promises. If there is a God, he isn’t worth praying to. Good luck to all those suffering we all need it.
I’m open to talking to you if you want to. Some people may not understand but I do , I actually get it. I’ve been put through this Sometime in my life. I hope you receive All your blessings .have a great day
After reading all these comments, at least I can say I’m not alone. So many similar to what I am feeling and going through. My entire life has been a “dark night of the soul”. I have been abuse/neglected from the moment of my conception. No matter how I try to get away. If it’s not family, it’s a significant other, if it’s not that, it’s a coworker, or just some random person I happen to come into contact with. I have been ill most of my life. My youth was stolen from me. I have lost jobs (not because I did anything, but due to “downsizing” or the “economy”. I have been homeless. I have been poor my entire life, regardless of how hard I work. I have had Panic disorder and IBS since I was 18. I have been “alone” my entire life. I prayed and prayed for a husband and as it turns out, the one I got is a meth addict and now I can’t get rid of him. I even went to jail because I tried to defend myself when he was in an alcohol and drug fueled rage. I have been made fun of and laughed at. I have never felt love or security in my life. EVER. Now I have just recently been diagnosed with a brain tumor. THAT DID IT. I just had to let God go. The more I pray, the worse it gets. I have been “walking in the desert” for 45 years. Nothing good has ever happened to me. Even the smallest of tasks are difficult. I’m never going to be allowed to be at peace. All hope is lost, and no one can help. Even knowing you all are suffering too, I am still alone. Obviously we are not going to Heaven, unless it’s for God to continue to use us as whipping posts. So maybe wherever we end up, we’ll end up together at least.
Talk to me , I understand completely.. I’ve been through a lot. But God honestly does love us . Try thanking God different ways.
Have a blessed day
By the way I love everyone , even for no reason
i disagree with this completely
God may love us but that doesn’t end age discrimination in seeking employment. It doesn’t stop a “Christian” governor from making an enemies list of people who will never get a state job. It doesn’t stop academia from using “diversity” to refuse you and hire others of less experience and education. It doesn’t quell the pain of constant humiliation oir feeling one’s talents from atrophying. About every other day now I think dead is better.
Dead is never better this pain will soon end . Have a very blessed day ?
It won’t end Until we are dead. Maybe not even then.
Haven’t you been saying that dead is better? That in spite of the horrors of our world, after life people will be happy with God? Which is it?
I Dont Really Know What To Say About This.I Thought Am The Only One Passing Thru Such A Terrible Thing.But I 100 Percent Believe The Comment That Says The Kinder You Are The Worst You Suffer
“The problem here is that it’s not God who is doing this labeling and excluding—it’s human beings. We are the ones who have created societies in which individuals are judged based on their physical appearance or on their membership in particular demographic groups, rather than on the content of their character or according to their unique gifts and skills.”
Disagree with the first statement since it is God that taught his children to differentiate between beauty and ugliness by making flowers beautiful and the desert ugly to look at. But God never taught us to destroy deserts or not use them to our benefits, it is humans who decided to exclude ugly creations out of their world when in practice, ugliness can be more useful than beauty.
Yeah, but he answers the prayers for those considered beautiful
Reading through all these comments is heartbreaking, and I searched this for the same reason as everyone else – suffering. Praying and hoping for something to change, a lifetime of sadness and people who are cruel and unjust. Feeling like some people just get everything their whole life – a nice family who loves them, then their own family, a normal good husband/wife and kids, a good job, nice friends and then on top of it, God blesses them even more. I don’t know why.
I was thinking while reading this, some people do have an advantage, but, what if the point is to start to live our lives for other people. What if the way out is thinking about what we can do for other people and what WE can do for God, instead of only what he can do for us? It is supposed to be a relationship. Seems pretty one sided if we want to take from him but never give. He wants love too. There are things he wants accomplished on this earth just like we want things in our lives. “Seek first the kingdom of heaven.” We want him to do for us, well, he also wants us to do for him. We are supposed to be his servants.
What if all the people in this world who were alone, depressed, abused, etc…. spent time reaching out to others instead of only waiting and crying for someone to reach out to them, or for something to “happen”? If you ask God what you can do for him, the answer is almost always to help others. Sometimes it is prophecy/study and then sharing that. Especially in these days. If more people were asking God what they can do for him, then wouldn’t more people be helping YOU? Loving YOU? Who is responsible to do this? We all are, even us who are suffering.
Then wouldn’t it be more likely that 2 people who needed a friend would find each other? Should we be upset that others are happy? We don’t know what they have been through in the past, or will go through in the future. I was just thinking, maybe, part of being blessed by the Lord, starts with blessing others. You could be the answer to another persons prayers, and in doing so, gain more joy in your own life. I understand so many of us struggle with being shy, being afraid because we have been hurt and betrayed so many times, feeling uncomfortable around new people etc… I have this problem too. I am now at the point where I have no friends and no family (but one child). I finally walked away from the last few people I had, because they are so toxic and abusive. I want to be around healthy, kind, loving people who love the Lord and try to behave how he says to. Not people who project, manipulate, are full of rage. I am afraid to try to meet people though, I am shy and a lifetime of emotional, psychological and verbal abuse has beat me down and taken my confidence. The Lord will start to give it back to you. It isn’t overnight but he will. You didn’t lose it overnight either. I am still to afraid to go out and meet people, but, I know I can ask the Lord all day to magically give me friends, but what I need to ask him for is confidence and courage.
I don’t know what to do, but I think it starts with getting over my fears and thinking more about other people and how I can help them, instead of how miserable and unfair my life has been. I think the Lord blesses this attitude. I am going to try it. I also believe that he allows trials and they either strengthen us and improve our character, or they can destroy us. Think of it this way – the devil wants your trials to destroy you and cause you to turn away from God, and from truth, and God wants you to overcome, seek him and gain eternal rewards. Who do you want to side with? The one who loves you and is rooting for you to win, or the one who hates you and is rooting for you to fail? I don’t know why we have to suffer and why we have to be here, but I know God is real and I know he is good, and that is why Jesus said you have to become like a little child to enter heaven, because children trust and love, even when they don’t have all the answers.
God bless you all. If I could meet or be with any of you, I would be your friend, and I love you. May the Lord bless and protect all who read this. That reminds me, “you have not because you ask not” – Jesus. Through all my life of suffering, I am currently suffering the most I ever have, and it is easier than in the past because, this time I realized to ask the Lord regularly for these things: strength, endurance, peace, joy, patience, faith, love, hope, understanding and wisdom.
You can ask the Lord for a job, money, a spouse, friends, etc… .but ALSO ask him for the above things. Keep doing it day after day, and one day you will think “my life is awful by anyone’s standards, why do I feel so happy right now!?” Then you will realize, oh yes, I have been asking the Lord not only to change my situation, but for the things I need to endure it. You will get sad again, and the pain will return, but it will be less often, and more bearable. Please try asking him for those things, daily. Don’t let go of the one thing that can keep you going: Jesus……he never lets go of you. Please search out people who need someone to encourage them. I wish more people did that, and then maybe I would have at least one person I could count on in addition to Jesus. I am going to seek first the kingdom of heaven, and trust that then all those things will be added to me. I am going to spend my time that I am not spending with friends and family (because I don’t have any) trying to help, love and encourage people who are as sad as I am, and maybe then I won’t be so sad.
If you made it this far and think, hum, she may have a point, then also please pray and seek more truth, because the time is coming for the final days. You don’t want to be far away from God anytime, but especially not then. My life actually became so terrible because I had dreams from the Lord about the last days, and when I tried to share with the people I know, they became enraged. You have seen this irrational hatred in the Bible. It is here now too. Maybe, your life isn’t hard because God hates you, maybe it is hard because the devil knows God has plans for you, and he wants to do everything to keep you away from being saved, everything to prevent you from doing the Lords work and everything to keep you from being used by God to help bring joy and peace to others. Maybe it is the devil who hates you, not God. Not maybe, it is. He wants to keep you from God, heaven, rewards, blessing others. Don’t let him steal all God has for you! God bless you!
Wow! This was awesome and I really needed this right now. I’ve been feeling so down and alone for YEARS and I’m really trying to hold on to some hope and believe God has plans to lift me up/help me and not harm me. It’s hard, but everything you said makes sense and spoke to my heart. I thank Jesus for placing these words in you to share with us…because they really and truly spoke to me.
I also pray that everything gets better for you and you can overcome your fears and insecurities. Keep on pushing, praying, believing, and putting your faith in the Almighty Father. Again thank you for these words.
There is no Satan, Neither is their god ,that is the truth .
Ruthless People Win ,Emotional People loose, serving others will not get you god ,it will get you a terrible death Like the one my mother got. god did not come from heaven and save her …there is no heaven there is no god ….stop this satan bull@)%! ….man is god and man is satan . you want to live a good life be ruthless …
funny your name is Job, Job in the bible who had every reason to abandon God and did not,strange
Pls go fall in a hole
I just read your inspiring, very helpful comments. I would love to be an encourage to you ellen
Why did god make me a boy? Or why did he give me this personality to crave it? Who knows. I prayed everyday but still nothing. He likes seeing me suffer I guess. That’s like putting food in front of a hungry dog and saying don’t eat it.
Being ugly is the most hurtful thing on earth. It leaves you wondering why God created you. It hurts. And God doesnt answer ur prayers if you are ugly. Depressed
I lost my looks , I believe mostly due to drugs I “had to take” it’s sad seeing my pictures as a kid and realizing I don’t look that way anyMore
I really wonder sometimes why didn’t God make a very good man like me meet a good woman to have a family with instead of still being Single And Alone today which it wasn’t my choice at all either. It is just too very bad that most of the women of today are Nothing at all like the women in the old days were since it was definitely very easy meeting a good woman back then with No Trouble at all. Women today unfortunately have certainly Changed since then which is very sad.
Yeah, well I’ve got news for you, the men of today have changed and are immoral, selfish and users. It’s hard to meet a good man these days.
Well I believe in God and I got saved around 5 but then I started to doubt I was saved because I started having feeling of wanting to become a girl and I’m still attracted to girls as well but my question is if I were to become a girl was I ever saved at all? I don’t like the fact I want to be a girl because I know its a sin but I cant help it .
Interesting that this article mentions homosexuality as a reason why people think God hates them, and then has the audacity to say that the reason for this is human cruelty. Correct me if I am wrong here, but probably one of the BIGGEST reasons for homophobia in our society (and others) is RELIGION!
It sounds like people are blaming God for everything just because he is the creator. Jesus Christ was perfect and held up the sins of the world before he did making him a man of sin who never sinned. Besides blaming god for everything what have anybody done to turn they’re own life around ? It’s easy to sit and point fingers instead of working towards a sunny day. Faith without works is dead. My life isn’t perfect. I suffer with low self esteem, I’ve asked god why numerous times but looking at the bigger picture he has blessed me more times that I can know. I’ve put myself in a lot of bad situations and I came out is then without a scratch. I could be dead right now and often times I wish I were just because my life isn’t a certain way or I don’t think I’m pretty. But I’m just complaining. I don’t work towards a better life. He might just be waiting on ME and his hand will follow once I start. Look at yourselves. We aren’t worthy of such grace. You can’t hold doubt and hate in your heart and have your hand out. The enemy feeds off us turning away fRom god. Hell was never for us. If we go it’s because we put ourselves there. God can’t be to blame. As much as I can hate myself or ask him why I can never deny my father. He knows what’s in our minds so don’t sit here and complain about your problems like you’ve lived the prefect life and never sinned. Our wants and what we need are different and god knows what we need. I’m disgusted by some of the comments I’m reading . I don’t blame god because it sounds like a bunch of spoiled kids. Do something different in your life and ask god for his guidance that’s your doing the right thing.
You think these people haven’t done anything in to help themselves & improve their situations? I’m sure most off them have! They are complaining because nothing good has come from their efforts & God has never helped them & still won’t help them even when they’ve exhausted all of their energies & can no longer help themselves…. Most people who I’ve known (myself included) with mental illnesses have tried & tried to live holy & enjoy their lives and make it good. There comes a point where you get weaker & weaker & you don’t have the mental or physical energy to do much of anything anymore & you wonder where has god been & will he ever come through for me? You call these people spoiled brats, maybe you’re just insensitive.
tesh you are a very ignorant with your comments. You have no clue at all what people are doing or not doing.
God has left me in the dessert. No one wants me after I lost my job of 14 years. I’m over 50 and I can tell what they are all thinking. God is not with me on these interviews
He loves to watch me fail. He laughs at me. He must get a kick out of seeing my time wasted. I have forgiven my enemies. That is what Jesus wants me to do. But where is God now?
God is nowhere now sadly.
at 50 u can reinvent your life what do u like doing what gives you joy,??? i like sewing and selling .where was God when you were working ??? did u feel abandoned then
God hates me a lot. Since 1999 after suffering a severe spinal injury I’ve had 19 major surgeries. I had 9 back surgeries, both hips replaced, a knee replaced, several shoulder operations and a total shoulder replacement. I also had two heart attacks. I was a Shipping worker for Company X, and I gave that place 20 years of impeccable service, starting there when I was 18 years old. After I injured myself and couldn’t work anymore, I found out I was chosen to become the lab’s new Traffic Specialist, which would have been a $15,000. annual pay raise. I lost that, along with 20 years of service. The back surgeons I went to all were paid off by Company X, and they changed their notes to say I didn’t need back surgery, causing me to go nine months without getting surgery. This caused permanent, irreversible spinal nerve damage to develop and make me disabled for the rest of my life. I was terminated from Company X and put on Disability. I filed a workers compensation lawsuit against Company X because I fell off the dock and tore two discs in my lumbar spine. My attorneys dragged my case out ten years, hoping I would suffer a third heart attack and die. God was letting all these things being done to me, one after another for all these years. Now, my life is ruined, I am in constant pain 24/7 needing to have a spinal cord stimulator surgically implanted on my spinal cord. Yes, God hates me with a passion. He blessed my crooked doctors, and he blessed my crooked attorneys who were paid off. My attorneys destroyed all of my spinal images that proved how severe my injury was, and instead they settled for a much lesser amount, but only acknowledging my back injury as being a ”strain”. This is how I was screwed by even my attorneys, and God let it all happen. God could have kept these people honest and get me a decent settlement. Better yet, God could have kept the first back surgeon I saw honest and operate on me before permanent spinal nerve damage developed. Had I been operated on nine months earlier, I wouldn’t be disabled now. But, because these surgeons were paid off, they lied and they all fluffed me off, dragging my situation out for almost a year before I finally had surgery. But, it was too late and the nerve damage became permanent. None of this had to happen, if God loved me, but He hates me!!!
At age 7, I can remember fighting angels at night. Just like Jacob. I woke each morning in a sweat. I was exhausted. My life was hard every day and school was an awful experience of fights and rejection. I was rejected by my father who beat me and my family rejected me as well. The only exception was my grandmother who taught me the value of never giving up and the love of food. I became a chef and stayed in kitchens until I was 40 years old. My days were filled with unending work. I knew God placed every roadblock imaginable in front of me. No promotions. No relief from financial burden. No relief from a sick marriage. No acceptance from my family and no friends. No amount of college or hard work took the 10 ton Rick off my shoulders. I talked to God and frankly I heard his voice. I am not delusional. I asked for relief and God said no. God told me he didn’t like me. I am not kidding.
Then when I turned 56 things suddenly changed in a period of one week. The 10 ton rock was gone and God said to me that I have had enough pain and God told me I was humble enough to be free. He gave me several talents but also told me that I was not special. God did not give me any more explanation than that. So, 50 years of suffering was what God gave me. I feel better now and I’m not mad at God. I feel a certain sense of peace each day. I also think God’s will set me to accept death.
I think God creates beings he likes and doesn’t like. He evaluates and sets us free for reasons or no reasons. No one ever prepared me for what God really is. God is not a good God. He is like us but has tremendous power. He can multitask and attend to all living beings. God is without religion. He applies pain and relief to all as he sees fit.
God hates humans. We r created in his image so he must be uglier than sin. He must HATE UGLY people because he does nothing to help no matter how much we begged him he ignores UGLY people all the time most of us want to die because we are so UGLY and some do. It is called SUICIDE. if god loved me he wouldn’t let it happen. But he does because he is evil. Your book of short stories tells you that. God is good and evil the story says but it is wrong. He is so EVIL. He is also a liar. Don’t eat the fruit for surly you will die. Did anyone die???? Because god is a lying #)!($. %)#@ god and +#)! christ.
Your life story is interesting. Some truth and some lies. It does make sense that hard things in life are like a purification process. Like gold and fire. Ron 8:28 says all things work for our good. The process and outcome work for your good. You are in the hand of God. No one is going to take you out. What do you want to change in your life? Speak to your Mountain and command it to be cast into the sea. Leave your emotions out. Walk in faith and not by site. What you say is what you get. Guard your mouth. Be positive all the time. Keep putting yourself, your life, and all situations in Gods hands. He will work it all out for you. You can’t loose when your a winner. Your a winner. Don’t believe anything else.
I also feel the same pain that you guys are going through. Throughout my life I have never experienced happiness, raised in poverty and sometimes hardly nothing to eat in a day bt I believed everything was to change when I grew up. Right now it’s even worse …no stable …job salary does not even last two days it’s gone…I have been praying hard to God to remember me but all he gives me is his back. I came to realise that God has his special people that were well created of whom he has eliminated sufferings and to others like me suffering is the main topic of each day….I ve reached a point where my heart cannot take it anymore and I ask him to relieve me from all this and take me away but instead he makes each day for me unbearable to live. I ask him to forgive me for everything and especially my mistake of being born poor especially in Africa where everything is nothing it’s all darkness around you where only you will understand the real meaning of agony and pain
Ask him daily for a break through, funny i was reading the comments made by many people, and i thought about how difficult things are in Africa for many people ,black people, especially some arab people also ,i attend an African church in the U.S, many of the church goers are people doing well. but many struggled before things got better We all have our troubles ,I think sometimes we just need to be frank with God and ask Him what is he doing??? is he seeing you?? a couple of times in my life i did this and got answers ,really ,,, may be we are afraid to come to God that way, thinking we will be punished ,like when Moses told God are these my people ?? they belong to you why are you putting this burden on me on my shoulders, am i supposed to carry them for you ??,This was bold on Moses’s part i get the impression that Moses was just feed up with everything dealing with stiff necked people in that barren wilderness ,,,3 million people maybe ??? even ten would be too much ,, but God saw his point of view as valid and changed the situation
David i am praying for you ,remember David also went through so much in his lifetime, hunted and being hunted by Saul, defeating a lion and a bear being disliked by his bretheren ,and overcoming goliath ,,,, and nations …Stay full of Yah’s faith,David was also depressed and felt oppressed from reading the psalms you can tell what he was going through ,but he clung to Yah God ,begging the Holy Spirit not to depart from him ….
Why does that god hate me so much..have no freakin idea.all of the ppl who hurt me and continue hurting..live wonderful lives..god is not good…he favors the evil..while the good and innocent suffer.i hate him.its like he just refuses to see me happy..if he is such a good god..why do the innocent/good ppl suffer?? He allows it..then tells us to have faith in him…$*^@ that
I think God only loves certain people. And i am not one. I have prayed and prayed and prayed nothing ever gets answered. It is to the point I am afraid to pray for others afaid something bad will hapoen to them because I prayed. If God truly loves and cares for us then why can he not answer 1 prayer we ask in his name. I grew up in church so i pray the way I was taught. But nothing!!!!
So I googled, “Why does God hate people?” and came across a response from a reverend and then I read all the following comments. I googled the question in the first place because I was completely discouraged and giving up on God as a loving Father. It seems like the comments can be divided into two groups: 1- those who believe that God is against them, no matter what they pray, do or believe. 2- those who believe that God can be for you only if you are doing something – for him or others.
One particular comment that struck me was: 222 says, “I was thinking while reading this, some people do have an advantage, but, what if the point is to start to live our lives for other people. What if the way out is thinking about what we can do for other people and what WE can do for God, instead of only what he can do for us? It is supposed to be a relationship. Seems pretty one sided if we want to take from him but never give. He wants love too. There are things he wants accomplished on this earth just like we want things in our lives. “Seek first the kingdom of heaven.” We want him to do for us, well, he also wants us to do for him. We are supposed to be his servants.”
In my head, it sounds like those who are greatly discouraged, pray and pray. But God does not answer their prayers and it seems that things may even become worse. Therefore, they feel God not only doesn’t love them, he actually hates them.
Person 222, says that it’s not what God can do for us, but it’s what we can do for God. Therefore, if I want to feel love, I must give love – or whatever else it is that my heart feels desperate for. I must give it first.
How to reconcile both viewpoints? In my head, I think it is important not to assume that whose who are greatly discouraged are not trying to “believe and do” those things that God desires – that is – to be his servants seeking his kingdom. My assumption might be that they actually are trying to “believe and do” his will and continue to seek him in prayer for relief from suffering.
It is very hard to reconcile a belief about an all powerful God allowing continued suffering for those who are seeking him for relief for that suffering. If we believe he hears us than why does it seem he ignores us or turns his back on us? That is a most discouraging place to be in. It is why many who responded with this deep hurt, desire death.
Hebrews 11:6 says “ But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him”
It certainly seems that almost every commenter has faith that God is. However, many commenters do not have faith that he is a rewarder because they have sought him, and he did not reward them – being that he did not answer their prayers.
That being said – these people cannot “please God” according to this scripture because they don’t believe he will reward them – because he hasn’t. Therefore, God must hate them after all.
Well, what does it mean to “please God”. I think it means to make God happy. In the sense that I make God happy when I come to him and trust him – no matter what happens. I will trust that he is a keeper of his word and sees the bigger picture that he is building in us.
When I get discouraged, I am often reminded of the man Jesus healed, who was blind since birth. John 9:1-12. This blind man was forced to be a beggar, rejected by all including his family and “the religious”. In the end, when the man saw Jesus, who had healed him, he believed in him and worshipped him.
What does this event tell me about God and the reconciliation of “believing and doing”?
This event tells me that God knows and allows our circumstances. This event tells me that some people suffer exceedingly through no fault of their own. This event tells me that those who suffer externally are often severely rejected by others as well. This event tells me that the work of Jesus had all ready been accomplished in this man’s heart. Why? Because when he saw Jesus, the man received him and worshipped him – not as a God who hated him and allowed all his suffering – but he saw Jesus as a God who had been with him through all his suffering.
So again, to reconcile the idea that yes – it is important to love, reach out, forgive, be generous, work for, serve, etc God and others – – and that yes, we can do these things and still feel that God is against us and continues to allow our suffering — What is the reconciliation? What is the solution?
Maybe the reconciliation or solution is in being “okay” with what is. Like the man who was blind since birth. I make God happy “please him” and bring peace to my soul when I release it all to him and say to God, “It is okay. I do not understand what You are doing or why, but I will trust You anyways. Life is short and You have not forgotten nor forsaken me. If you answer my prayers, I will believe that you love me; but if you do not answer my prayers, I will believe that you love me. You Lord, know the whole picture. Life is but a breath and it is gone. I cannot keep myself in faith, but You Lord, abide faithful and I will trust You. If I am like the blind beggar, than so be it. I look forward to your coming and I will rest in you
Strange about the blind beggar i am having an issue with my eyes and may need intervention at some point ,but i ask God why now ??? and what is so strange last friday at church there was a whole sermon on that blind man ,and it spoke to me then, i went home and read the details ,and in the end,Jesus is asking him What would you have me do unto you??? ,THE ALL KNOWING GOD asked him and he gave his answer,,,, to be healed of blindness,,,Jesus certainly knew his problem ,like he knows all our problems, and his blindness was turned to sight ,So i was thinking maybe i need to get a note book and the heading would be”’ WHAT WILL THOU THAT I SHOULD DO UNTO THEE””” write my burdens down eacd day and ask for relief from those burdens that weigh us down each day
I was emotionally and sexually abused as a child. At age 18 I developed Panic disorder and Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I was born ugly, ungifted, unloved, and unwanted. I have been poor all my life. When I thought it was finally my turn to be happy, my husband turned out to be an abusive meth addict. Bad things happen to me all the time. Recently I was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. They did a craniotomy to remove part of it. All my life, I have prayed, tried to be a good person, tried to be a good citizen, followed the rules and the laws, worked hard to try to better myself. All for naught. I’m now 46 years old and no better off than the day I was born. DOES GOD LOVE ME??? I’D BE A FOOL TO BELIEVE SO.
God does love you. Leave the past in the past. Press the delete button and start fresh. Don’t defeat yourself. Your words make you or break you. Ask Jesus for all the things you want and need. Believe and not doubt. Ask for prayer online. Things will change for the better.
And how is it Ron that I have done that for 20 years and things have just gotten worse? Every day things are worse no matter that I pray, read the Bible and try to have faith. It is very hard to have faith if your prayers are never ever answered. And no, I do not believe that he is answering , just the answer is no or wait. Why should some christians have good lifes with plenty of good things in their life and others nothing even though they are doing the same things? Im not arguing for the sake of arguing, I truly want answers why? Im so tired of pain and unhappiness that I know soon , very soon I will end it all.
Have you placed your whole life in Jesus’s hands?
Guilt guilt guilt, blame blame blame, deflect, deflect, avoid avoid avoid.
#%*! god, whether or not it created us to give each other grief or not it still created disease death and all emotion if you want to go into it with chemical reactions. God is a tyrant and when we all die it is a given responsibility to usurp This trash from the throne to create peace for all not just for those that don’t ‘fall short of the glory of God’. God will be destroyed.
All this is a lie from Hell. God is love, and he loves you. There is a Devil, and he is a lier
Do you believe that there is a Satan, fallen angels and demons?
If I were to construct a God I would furnish Him with some way and qualities and characteristics which the Present lacks. He would not stoop to ask for any man’s compliments, praises, flatteries; and He would be far above exacting them. I would have Him as self-respecting as the better sort of man in these regards.
He would not be a merchant, a trader. He would not buy these things. He would not sell, or offer to sell, temporary benefits of the joys of eternity for the product called worship. I would have Him as dignified as the better sort of man in this regard.
He would value no love but the love born of kindnesses conferred; not that born of benevolences contracted for. Repentance in a man’s heart for a wrong done would cancel and annul that sin; and no verbal prayers for forgiveness be required or desired or expected of that man.
In His Bible there would be no Unforgiveable Sin. He would recognize in Himself the Author and Inventor of Sin and Author and Inventor of the Vehicle and Appliances for its commission; and would place the whole responsibility where it would of right belong: upon Himself, the only Sinner.
He would not be a jealous God–a trait so small that even men despise it in each other.
He would not boast.
He would keep private Hs admirations of Himself; He would regard self-praise as unbecoming the dignity of his position.
He would not have the spirit of vengeance in His heart. Then it would not issue from His lips.
There would not be any hell–except the one we live in from the cradle to the grave.
There would not be any heaven–the kind described in the world’s Bibles.
He would spend some of His eternities in trying to forgive Himself for making man unhappy when he could have made him happy with the same effort and he would spend the rest of them in studying astronomy.
– Mark Twain’s Notebook
Jesus says, “When you see me, you see the Father. I and my Father are one.” If you want to know who God is and what God is like – look at Jesus. Read the Gospels for Jesus is the exact representation of the Father. You might find that the characteristics you think God should be – He is.
I am agnostic but I was raised in a Christian household that was VERY religiousa church 5 times a week, my mom a Christian singer, my father a pastor (though they’ve been divorced my entire life) and I’ve experienced
many different denominations. I thjnj
you’re wrong to suggest that people created these demographics and classes in society that they are harshly judged on by other people, if you actually read the Bible, it is what sets up targeted abuse toward the LGBTQIA community and toward women (we are supposed to be submissive and not hold leadership positions in the church and Paul was a real jerk toward women) and so much more. But that is another story. I want to respond to people here who have said they believe God hates them or that they gave up their faith.
I used to believe God hated me. After all, I went through sexual and emotional abuse as a child and teen, I was homeless as a teen, I suffer from a debilitating disease and had to fight for my life for 3 years through dozens of constant surgeries, etc. But then one day I realized that other people being abusive and nasty to me doesn’t mean God hates me. He isn’t the one doing those awful things to me – people with free will are! And sure, God could intervene but if he did, then people wouldn’t have free will. As for my illness, I’m not sure that’s God’s fault either. I was just born this way and there are scientific explanations for that.
Read your Bibles – all the way through. According to the Bible, God allows suffering because a) people have free will to do whatever the hell they want to others. B) Suffering is a test of faith ie Job C) Eve bit the apple and Adam joined in D) The sins of our forefathers pass on to the 7th generation E) Suffering builds character and teaches us lessons. It also allows us to have a testimony and praise God when we make it through F) Without suffering, we really wouldn’t have a need for God because most of us don’t spend our time praising him for every single good thing that happens …. I could go on.
While God said your prayers will be answered, he never said they would be answered to your satisfaction. God is still answering your prayers even if he happens to say NO instead of YES or if he closes a door instead of opening it. And there are many reasons for that. We humans can’t see the big picture but according to the Bible God can. There are reasons God allows us to go through certain things and doesn’t give us everything we want. God is supposed to be our spiritual Father, so consider this analogy. A child asks an earthly father for things and the father says yes to everything the child ever asks for and makes everything in life simple and easy for the child. Now think of the kind of person that child would become. They would be unhealthy in every single way because they never had to work for anything, they always got what they wanted.
The earthly father says no to things and doesn’t make everything simple and easy for the child because the child needs to learn and grow and experience life. The child, at the time, doesn’t understand and may get upset with the father and think the father is being unfair or is punishing the child, but the father is only doing what is best for the child. The father tries to protect the child, but the child has free will and makes their own mmistakes and gets himself in bad situations sometimes. And other people have free will, and the father can’t stop what other people may do to the child.
Can you imagine if the child just stopped loving its father just because the father didn’t always get its own way? Or can you imagine if the child is bullied at school and blames the father for not preventing it? Sounds ridiculous right?? You are the child, and the father is God. He gave you and others free will and people may have treated you terribly yet you blame God for the actions of humans. You ask God for that job or that wife or that car or whatever, and he doesn’t give it to you and you get angry, even though he sees the bigger picture and you don’t, and you have no idea what He has in store for you and it may be something so much greater!
It is ridiculous to think God hates you because of the actions of other people who have free will and because you don’t get everything you want. Especially when most of us knowingly and unapologetically sin like crazy and then try to bargain with God once we need something.
The OTHER reason life is so difficult and it seems like the world is going downhill fast and there is so much suffering is because again, according to the Bible, we are in the end of days and Jesus is coming back soon! An increase in suffering, natural disasters, sin, debauchery, hopelessness, and more is what preceeds the return of Christ. I could go on.
Basically I understand why people would feel abandoned or hated by God bur they aren’t! At least not according the Bible – even if I don’t believe in it.
I like your continual emphasis on “free will” and how we should not “blame God” for the events in our life. If I believe that God is for me (like you say – a good father) – then who can be against me? Our warfare isn’t even with people who chose to hurt . . . us – our warfare is in the spiritual realm against demons and powers and principalities. Jesus says that the thief (devil) has come to steal, kill and destroy. If this is what we are experiencing then we need to use our free will and rise up against this thief in the name and authority of Jesus who has power over the wicked ones.
God only chooses who he wants.He made all countries/people but only chose Israel as his flock.It’s better to believe in astrology
Maybe God chose Israel as an example of his interactions with a nation in the physical/material realm. Did you ever notice that the purpose of the genealogies in the Bible is to provide a historical linkage between Adam and Jesus? and that once Jesus came – the genealogies ended – except not really – now God says, “We are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus”! Consider your genealogy and how amazing it is!
God does hate .. I often wonder why he created me ,i know im not an amazing person but i do not deserve to feel so much pain on a daily basis .im probably the only person in the world that has had suicidal thoughts since they were 9years old
Dear Mimi, God doesn’t hate you. He created you because you are amazing just as you are. He grieves with you when your heart and your flesh feels pain. He tells you sorrow comes but joy comes too. Ask Him to give to you joy unspeakable and full of glory. Did you know that Jesus says if we ask Him anything that is his will, He will give it to us? It is His will that we know Him and His joy, ask Him for this – then be still and hear what He says.
I have been a born-again Christian for most of my life, I got real serious about it when I started having attack after attack, both physical and spiritual, ie- actual spirits in the home, on the way to spread the gospel to a muslim woman one morning, I had my legs swept out from under me for no apparent reason, I have prayed over people who had cancer, different types, who had second tests that confirmed it was carcenoma cancer, and they were healed, one had penis cancer my wife and I prayed about him to God, he was healed, to this day I have never met the man, only a thanks through his wife whom my wife worked for. So I have seen Gods’ mercy and healing in the name of Jesus, on normal people, and wealthy people, muslims who gladly accepted the healing but chose to remain muslim, on catholics who pointed out that we were not to study the Bible but only to turn a page every day and leave it on display in the home, when I argued against this as I believe it is God’s will that we read and learn every day, I way called a devil by them and the entire time that we worked together I was called this, I have prayed for mormons to come to the truth of Christ, the whole nine yards.My question is this: Why do we have to die — Noah had how many years?, a year is a year so no BS about a year wasn’t the same as is now !! Several people in the Bible had years that are not comprehensible, and then back in the 17 – 1800’s a European man only lived to 37, a man of 40 – 45 was as father time, and we strugle to reach 70 – 80 today. #2. Why so much pain and suffering ? God said that he would punish to the 4th generation, He said nothing about the 5th – the 200th or so, I understand that through our own choiches we bring about a certain amount of suffering and pain, but there are people out there who had nothing to do with sin, like my nephew who was born totally messed up with whatever it was, he was in a perpetual state of siezire having one every 2 – 3 minutes, couldn’t speak, could only cry out from unimaginable pain from birth to death at age 31, How can a loving God allow this to happen, not to forget all the starvation and disease in the world, why can’t this so loving God stop all this BS, heal the people, the situations throughout the world miracoulsly, and through these miracles make it so that we could teach the people the correct ways. The usual answer is – ” That will happen when Christ returns to the earth “, although true, we have no idea, not even the angles in heaven know when this will take place – so we are to keep on as though today is the last day, great, no problem, and so go on the needles suffering, starvation, war, disease, and all the bad stuff you can think of that the normal person has nothing to do with. Is it that God can’t or won’t. I don’t understand how all this has a purpose to bring us closer to Him. It is driving a lot away, some in total disgust, no wonder the churches around the world are empty, yet stadium size areanas are full to hear some motivational speaker tell you to put a smile on your face and all the bad stuff will stop, if only you will tithe and smile I guarantee that Jesus will heal your pains, get you that car and the big house, and set you apart from your neighbors. And GOD allows this to aspire. Something is seriously wrong with this picture. But I’m willing to bet that you have some answer that intails waiting untill God makes up HIS mind to change your situation. We need help now, not 10 years from now !!
Life has become unbearable painful and I think about blowing my brains out daily. I lost my first wife to cancer 24 years ago, went through two divorces, have had two children with autism, have lost jobs, have been unemployed for long periods of time, am in the process of failing in a business since I am deemed too old to hire, live in isolation and utter loneliness, and I am getting very close to being homeless due to financial problems. For years I have cried out to God, but no relief. I do know people whose lives have just flourished. They may have problems from time to time but they always come through the trials and have ended up prosperous and surrounded by friends and family. I don’t know what to think about God anymore. It does seem that I am not among his elect and that there is nothing I can do about it. If it has to come down to being homeless, then I will end it all.
Dear Chris, what misery and sorrow you have experienced. It makes my heart sad with sorrow and my eyes fill with tears for your grief. Your burdens have been many and it sounds like you have felt alone in bearing them. Can you say to God, “It’s okay. I will take this yoke that is on my neck and place the other side on Jesus’s neck. No matter what each day brings, I will see Jesus there – carrying my yoke with me.”
I’m right there with you Chris. It sucks. I wish I had an answer too.
Hi Chris,
You pains are all to familiar with me… years of crying out to God, working so hard and not getting anywhere, seeing people prosper while you keep getting punched in the face…. I get it!
I’ve realized something in my own life and that is, what ever I seem to fear most and the bad things I think about, ultimately happen to me. It seems too weird to be coincidental. I’m 48, and like you have had a string of bad luck as of the last three years. I’m starting to believe that when we are negative, we attract negative things in our life. It’s hard to think positively when you can’t get through one problem before another one comes at you but, I’m sure that if everyone here were to analyze their thoughts they would probably see that there is a tendency to focus on negative things which probably just leads to getting more negative outcomes.
Many preachers will fill you with unrealistic hopes and dreams about God’s blessings but real blessing comes from within ourselves. It’s our own work and diligence that creates our world and even though we keep getting hit and run over, we have to learn from failures and allow them to empower us. One thing that I’m starting to learn is that if you want to be successful… as the saying goes… “no man is an island”, we all need people and it’s our connections to others that will bring success.
As an example, my dad owned a paving business years ago and he eventually met up with a builder that wanted to do business with him. Well, my dad being the loner that he was, rejected the offer and eventually closed his paving business with little to show for it and remained very poor to this day. On the other hand, the builder went on to be very successful and built many homes and is probably a millionaire by now. If my dad would have let down his walls and connected with the builder his life would have changed for the better and he could have had a great retirement.
So, if you want your life to change, try to find a way to meet people. Do things differently. Have an open heart. Make connections, tell people about your dreams and maybe you can get the help you need to make them come true.
You can do it, Chris.
Life can change for you.
No man is an Island, and if a man is to have friends, he must show himself friendly,Get a book on the PROMISES OF GOD read those promises daily .For years my husband struggled, coming from Africa, were he was successful at work, was able to help his family members, due to the job he held there. Coming to the U.S it was not so, he was told that he was overqualified in the area he wanted to wok in ,missed opportunities,,tried going to college but was railroaded in different ways, worked as a security guard ,worked in factories .print shops he is 68 years old now and drives a commercial truck now just in the last 1-2 years and was able for the first time to send a small amount of money to his brother in Africa ,after 27 years of being in the U.S, It is small in the U.S.but big for them in AFRICA HE has always Trusted in God no matter what and has always been a hopeful man ,smiles all the time and has had an innate joy in him .sometimes i think a man of 68 should take it easy ,but it seems like he can go for another 100 years ,that is how hopeful he is about life ,so hang it there .it can all be because of the way we see life HOPE LEADS TO HOPE AND EXPECTATIONS ,EVEN I NEXT TO MY HUSBAND CAN TAKE A PAGE FROM HIM AND HOPE MORE,SO I THINK IT IS A MINDSET THAT WE MUST DAILY REVISE.MANY PEOPLE LOOK AT OTHERS AND MEASURE THIER PROGRESS,AND SADLY IT IS ALWAYS ABOUT MONEY AND MATERIAL WEALTH,BUT PEOPLE WITH MONEY FEEL HOPELESS AS WELL AND MANY DIE ALONE WITH NO ONE AROUND THEM,JUST SPEAKING TO GOD KNOWING THERE IS A BEING ONE CAN SPEAK TO INTIMATELY WITH NO ONE ELSE HEARING YOUR THOUGHTS IS AMAZING,,, SO I SPEAK TO HIM,IF HE HEARS HE HEARS,SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS GETTING A PARKING SPOT WHEN OTHERS ARE STILL LOOKING AROUND FOR ONE IS SOMETHING TO SAY ‘THANK YOU LORD’ ,THE SMALL THINGS COUNT MUCHLESS THE GREATER THINGS !!!!
I have had one tragedy after another in my life and have never had peace. I accepted Jesus and I was still suffering. I wake up every single day wishing I hadn’t or wishing that something, anything would come along and kill me so my suffering would end. I cry to God in prayer but lately, I can’t feel anything when I try to pray. Almost like I know God isn’t listening and he doesn’t care about my suffering. Sometimes I even get the feeling that he wants me to suffer which is why I never die. I have been chased by murderers and almost killed. Been through through things that would kill most people but no matter how much I want it all to end. God will not allow me to die. I have tried church after church and it is always the same message that leaves me wanting and more depressed at my situation then I was before and hating myself.i see horrible awful people being rewarded left and right but I am forced to barely survive every day of my life. Why don’t I deserve God’s love and mercy? Why can’t I ever have anything good? Why is everything taken from me. I’m not some sad junkie out there ruining my life. why don’t I get a blessing?why doesn’t God love me?
I’m not sure why God has led me to this point. I was a happily married man with 2 kids and a good, solid income (from working in software development at a number of large companies). Suddenly in mid 2016, my job was eliminated and I interviewed for a job at US Cellular. I got an offer from them, but for some reason I can’t now recall, I turned it down. Right after that, things began to implode for me…I suffered some deep depression (apparently) and was hospitalized for weeks for it. I finally got out, only to be diagnosed later with epilepsy. I’m now on a number of medications (2 anti-seizure drugs) and now I don’t have a personality any more. I can’t carry on an intelligent conversation with anyone and I only have a part-time job at a grocery store (which, of course, can’t support a family). I keep praying to God, but it seems he now hates me and won’t listen to my prayers (or those of anyone else praying for me and my family). What is the point of my life being taken to this point? Why am I stuck here, apparently unable to help my family by getting a better job with insurance, regular hours, etc.? There must be a reason why God has let this happen to me, but I can’t for the life of me figure it out.
MAYBE YOU CAN THANK GOD FOR THAT JOB THAT WAS OFFERED TO YOU ,AND ASK HIM TO FORGIVE YOU FOR NOT TAKING IT,SEE IF YOU CAN REDUCE TAKING THOSE MEDS,AFTER ALL YOU DID NOT HAVE EPILEPSY FROM BIRTH ,IS THERE SOMETHING YOU CAN DO ON THE WEB THAT GENERATES MONEY,CAN YOU TEACH ,WHAT ARE YOU GOOD AT WHAT CAN YOU DO WITH YOUR HANDS ??? PLEASE STAY HOPEFUL AND PRAY ALWAYS ,FAST SOMETIMES AND ASK FOR DIRECTION
and besides depression depletes molecules in the brain that is necessary for optimal function ,maybe that is what lead to epilepsy ,try walking walk in the sunlight ,take StJohns Worth on a regular basis ,vitamins ,become vegan that might help,YaH GOD BLESS YOU.
I agree. I find it very hard to praise and worship a god who cannot even answer one prayer, or even say one word back to me.
You live your life the best you can, and it’s like you’re being spit at constantly.
One doesn’t do good things to expect to be paid back, but when you have troubles, over and over, you’d like to have some help.
It’s as if the god-believers think you have to be loyal, when he is not loyal to you.
From all the hell I’ve been through I can confirm that indeed God is an EVIL, INCOMPETENT bastard. I hate him and I would spit on his face if I ever saw him.
First off let me say, that I pursue spirituality by necessity, not choice, if I had the ability to survive without the concept of God I would. I believe this is the case with most humans, we need to believe in something even if it’s not believing in something. Secondly, if any of you are actually considering killing yourself seek help, there are very useful medications available, I know I took them for 32 years, I don’t take them now, don’t make a permanent solution for what might be a temporary condition, if you think no one cares you are wrong, I care, a lot of us care. Prove it you say? I don’t know how to do that, other than to assure you that if you were here with me and you told me you wanted to kill yourself I would say I know I’ve wanted to kill myself a lot, some bad stuff has happened to me and I’ve got it pretty good relative to some people. And then I would try to talk you out of it, suicide is unnatural, unless you have chronic physical pain that you cannot bear or are psychologically incompatible with Humanity you shouldn’t do it, and that second one cannot be determined by you alone.
The following is purely my opinion based on what I see as the evidence. You must make your own determination. If there is a God, and I hope for the sake of goodness there is not, he is the most deceptive and evil force that humans can possibly imagine, we don’t have words to describe the level of malevolence cruelty torture discrimination persecution and just pure evil that has been perpetrated on Humanity for the last 200,000 years, stop right there, many of you will be saying this guy is the devil! Bull #)!* wake up people (you’re really not going to like what I say next) and you Pastor if you have the guts to post this I will be very surprised, remember it’s just my opinion. We have been lied to throughout history in effect God and Satan are the same being, God’s agenda cannot be known to us but it’s not good, or good for us, we can be sure of that. I don’t believe he hates us, he doesn’t consider us significant enough to hate, we are like mosquitoes to him, so his “hatred” is what we would call criminal negligence, this makes him the enemy of man, not an enemy of man THE enemy of man, we don’t need to understand the relationship of him and his stoolie Satan if they are not the same then they are brothers or partners, doesn’t matter, they have to be stopped divide and conquer is the way they will get us. Now let’s talk about Christ or as I call him Master Lord Jesus, he is my savior, and he does just that. God has a habit of taking credit for things he didn’t do and not taking blame for things he did Christ is okay with that he was sent by the higher-ups he was human he walked Among Us he understand us, he feels for us he’s on our side, this is how I look at it even if he was just a brilliant person like Gandhi Buddha MLK or perhaps Muhammad (more research is required on that one) since none of this can be proven or disproven it may not mean anything to you maybe you’ll decide what you do believe, all I know is that together we stand we must police ourselves and if you are not for us(humankind) you are against us, look at the evidence people and you may well discover that not only is God not love he is fear I’m scared to death and if I have to die to save Humanity from him I will…. Somebody said, ” love everyone, trust a few, harm no one”, I would modify that in this way,”love everyone who doesn’t intend you harm, trust who you have to, eradicate those that need it”Edmund Burke said,”the only thing necessary for evil to Triumph is for good men to do nothing”, so how about it brothers and sisters? Are we just going to sit by and do nothing are we going to end the reign of God’s tyranny? (Real or not God equals fear and tyranny)
Because I’m sure you’re wondering, I am a caucasian, straight, patriotic, 17 clean and sober son of a gay man, I am also a disabled veteran. Be good to yourself, H
oh, to answer your question why did God make me what?I am, because he hates you and suffering and misery(for whatever reason) AR what he does….
I spent alot of time on my lengthy post, and you screaned it or whatever? That’s ok, it was really for me, I’m not surprised, it was pretty hard core, and I suspect a little to logical for you, and I probably scared you. That cool, I’m scared, was scared, I’m not very scared now. After reading through some of the posts I realize that some peoples lives really suck, I thought mine sucked, it does, but not that bad. Anyway, I feed bad for saying that the reason you are what ever you are is because God hates you, that is insensitive, true in effect, but it’s not personal. If God exists, he “hates” us in the negligent, dead beat, absentee landlord way, we are not significant to him. Just my opinion, H
At this point in my life ( 59 years)
I believe I’ve exhausted every possibility ,I know my Faith has evaporated !
Praying & knowing nothing will be answered has become more draining
than a 40 hr work week & taking care of 3 daughters. Continued Prayer
& faith will probably kill me quicker than being a non believer .
Truly sorry to all people of faith !!
We ruined the world. We are our own torturers. We were meant to love one another and God, but live in hate and cause suffering to one another. We are sinners,who sin, and you whatever woes we suffer are our own works.
Yes. It’s pretty much our fault, he seems by far and large checked out, disappointed, disinterested, keeping his distance because he’d kill us to look at us and our works,dunno, and all we do is reap our wicked harvests and blame him for it.
However, God designed suffering. God designed the spiders venom, the inflammation and the caustic rot. God gave the the Lion it’s hunger, and the lamb his screams- that special bit of hell as it’s flesh rends apart.
All that we CAN suffer,do unto ourselves (or just happen naturally, as a wolf will eat the hare despite one’s goodness all the world over) was designed by him, to be able to be done to all of creation.
So in that, being a part of creation, and having a mind to actively see what I can see in empathy and understanding of suffering, and caring that it suffers, caring that I suffer, and wishing it would end for me, for all that is, good or bad, justice or no, having being wronged by or simply unaware of.
I feel wronged. I feel the whole of creation has been wronged by suffering, it’s design, it’s allowance.– It’s designer. I feel God hates me. And I hate him too. That doesn’t make me a monster. My weakness, inability to do something to stop it, knowing it should be stopped make make me one.
I don’t wish to harm any, even if I drown in hate. So I forgive God for the wrongs I feel he has done to creation. I forgive every selfish wicked nothing that torments me here. The only thing I ask of God is justice, and I believe that to be mercy. If he would kill me flesh and soul, I would not suffer. I would not knowingly or unknowingly cause others to suffer. I would not hate, I would not offend, I would not be.
I want him to take his “gift” back. I want out. I want out. If I can not help, and I can not, I will not harm. I will not multiply, I will not commit the sin the lord has done unto me, though my sins me legion otherwise in vain effort to be freed if but for a moment of the lords “gift”
So yes, I hate God, he hates me, he hates the ant for the weight of a grain of earth in the many moments of measure in the mind of the ant- It may be below and beneath God, but is it not all to the ant as it is for me?. But it’s mercy that guides my heart, not malice, and in that I see no sin and have no hope for peace with God. I will always pray to him for mercy for all, I hold it far above pride and the cruel thorns hope leads one into in Gods eternal silence and cruelty.
Reasons I hate being a woman:
Its hard to dress up and look beautiful because guys only see you as a sexual object. As long as you didn’t have something tight on they never even noticed you.
If a men and women cheated, the woman carries the title “whore”
Women have to do soo many things to beautify themselves and it still doesn’t turn out right.
Women go through pain before pleasure. Men go straight to pleasure. Women can die from having a child. Men don’t have to worry about certain things.
People excuse me but I am angry with God on this one
Woman are emotional as hell, man isn’t. You don’t have a clear since of direction for women. You want them to be fruitful and multiply yet you make child baring painful.
Are we to never experience sex because we stand a chance of getting pregnant. Why would you put those cravings desires in people when if we were to fulfill them it will make you angry. Breaking your virginity is painful so you can’t even design a body without mistakes. Why didn’t you give man this same pain. That’s why they have so many kids because intercourse is not painful but very pleasurable to them from the beginning why women have to feel unbearable pain through so many tries before it feels good. Your creations are very messed up. You are very unfair. Woman have to bleed every few weeks, man doesn’t, women have to keep their legs shaved, man do not, women have to carry this ugly huge big stretch mark contraction stomach for most of the entire year, if man finds a wife he found a good thing, but you didn’t say that in return for women. Why not if the wife finds a husband it’s a good thing? What the hell does she get out of it you unfair. You built women to be slaves to man.
No guy wants to be with a woman if she’s not willing to have sex. It is sad how I heard about a girl who had intercourse for the first time and she was in tears because it hurt so bad and nothing felt good about it and she was immediately pregnant. But it was very pleasurable to the men. That would be another one of Gods bad creations being unfair to women. If you are going to impregnate women at least give them the pleasurable side too since she got to go 9 months in pain and bad looks. I believe you mess up people’s relationships because you are jealous of how they love each other. Men will go as far as rape to fulfill their sexual desire. Waiting until marriage is like waiting till your 80. You don’t know who your supposed to be with. Proving God is slow in all things.
y’all I’m 30 and cannot get passed a tampon, so sex is out the picture. You have to be able to satisfy your partner sexually. So I can already see my entire sad lonely single future. I don’t want kids so that makes it harder to even attempt sex. According to God, your supposed to be married. I just hate being a woman. There’s nothing in the Bible I read that’s bad enough to justify creating a woman this way. God you are love?? Well this ain’t love at ALL!
I don’t want sex to bring life in the world that is very messed up how God did woman. It is so hard for a woman to break her virginity, not because of rules but because it’s that painful. Why give women tones of pain by carrying kids, bleeding, getting cut open and making it so painful in the vagina. You didn’t give such disgusting pain to men. Can seem sexist. God if a woman breaks her virginity and she’s not married, you get so pissed off and hateful, that’s why we have all this pain in the first place. You got straight mad at the females. You were like here give them pain in this, in this, and in this. If it really gets you that upset can you at least keep your desires for this away from us when you definitely don’t plan on giving it to us or fulfilling it. This is one of your worst creations you threw on woman and not men. You created men to just have a great pleasurable time.
I am still trying to see why God is sooo mad at women, angry at women, hate women. Child bearing is far from a blessing. A lot of women have babies because they are sooo eager and curious to have and see what sex feel like. It was never about a child. A child is just part of that business. Vaginas and how they operates, I wasn’t thinking about this as a child and shouldn’t have to have my focus there at such an age, how it has to be worked into at an earlier age painfully over and over again just so you can be able to have sexual intimacy at the appropriate time at ease is a ridiculous way to create a woman. And if that’s not enough then carrying a bloated stomach in pain, can’t function normally, leave work for weeks to months, permanent stretch marks, c section, cut open, sex didn’t even feel good or problems in vagina area where you are required to seek a doctor , splitting your tissues, and the child is ugly on top of it with mental problems, period cycles. God I wouldn’t dare thank you for this ridiculousness. Your reasons in the Bible isn’t good enough for this type of life pain, then it’s hell on top of it taking care and having the dad do his part of the responsibility for 18 years. This is straight hateful. Why does it bother You what we do with our bodies mann? You have the power to give and take away, so if it bothers you for someone to break there virginity then why want You take those urges, stimulation, craves for sex away when You know people have a very small amount of power to stop themselves from fulfilling that crap. And when they do their lives are more of a worry, stressed , poor, and rough till they die because that’s how mad you are at them for doing that so You give them hell most of their life till they die. Favoritism You do show between male and female. Men don’t have it close to this bad.
It’s hard being a woman. Everything about us painful. Nothing is fun. How come ppl can get through it fast and others like me can’t even enter. Males can just go and create and they have no idea what a woman go through.
I never wanted a child but should I never get to see how true sex feels because I can risk having a child, a disease, or I’m not married.
Aesha, I don’t know if you’re still reading this thread, but I hear your despair over the various painful things that we can go through as women. I’m not sure if I’m interpreting what you said correctly, but it sounds like maybe you want marriage but don’t feel that you can look for it because you’re afraid intercourse would be too painful for you. Is that right? You mentioned that even using a tampon is painful, which shouldn’t be the case even if you’re not sexually active yet. Have you ever been to see an obgyn and asked about the pain you’re experiencing? I suspect you may have a medical problem, such as vaginismus or vulvar vestibulitis, which can cause a lot of pain in that area of the body. However, there are treatments for those problems so that, with time, you can overcome the pain and be able to enjoy your sexuality. Please look into this and get some help for your painful symptoms because you shouldn’t have to go through life feeling like you’re doomed to be alone because you can’t have sex with your future husband!
God will not help me so far i failed a really big test and my family does not have US citizenship and my life is really bad i think god hates me
Christians have lost the truth of the gospel in this area.
Living in the world is suffering and pain. The world is separated from God by Sin. We are obviously separated from God. The condition of sin has separated God from us. God created the world, gave it free will and He is allowing the world to feel the results of this freedom. Plants, animals, mountains, people all are free to do what they do. Lions eat animals, sheep get eaten. Sheep eat plants. The earth roars with quakes. Men commit the highest evils – they kill, cheat, steal, slaughter, or rape other people and know better.
Most of the time the world’s free will causes pain for someone in a random way. Some are born with evil parents. Others born disabled due to incredible bad luck. Others die in wars, or from pollution, earthquakes, from cancer, child birth, accidents or just random illness and awful suffering and death.
Yes, the only sure thing in this world is death and taxes. I would say suffering, death and taxes.
The people who are mad at God due to their suffering are right. The world is fallen, awful and unfair. Middle class American Christians, born into luck and wealth, have distorted the gospel into promises of prosperity while the NORMAL condition of this world is freedom – and suffering. Constant suffering and pain. Suffering that is endemic to the human condition. Randomness, injustice, suffering and death is our lot in life, with a few random blessings in the middle.
The promise of the gospel is that we can live for God now, or die for him and gain. We can help alleviate the suffering of others in our work and find eternal meaning. Or we can leave this sinful world for heaven – our final healing.
Meanwhile, I can only agree with the suffering people here. They have a bad deal. The world, though no fault of their own, has cheated them. They were dealt a bad hand. Life was stolen from them. They never had a chance. However, if they can cling to the only hope we all have, the hope that Jesus died for their sins – that He ultimately loves them – then they will have every tear wiped away in heaven. That is the promise of the gospel to so many. Life everlasting, where every tear will be wiped away, where we join His family, with heavenly bodies, and live in eternal peace, our work of faith ended.
To those who are suffering, check out this verse and others like it, “Those who cling to life will lose it, but if you give up your life for mine, will find it.” Matt 10:39. Give Jesus what little you have, and you will find life most abundantly. Give him those dreams, all that suffering and you will have treasure in heaven, maybe more than those spoiled people who have so much here on earth. Those who wave their good fortune at you like they earned it, like it was not luck or others who gave their good lives to them as a grace filled blessing.
Why is it that god is given all the credit for good things, but religious figures blame humans for all that is bad (like this article). If god truly intervenes and is good, racism and homophobia wouldn’t exist. I have had many interactions with god, and he intentionally divided people, puts us against each other, and then enjoys the resulting suffering as if we were cocks in battle. Everything that happens on earth is predetermined by god, as if he were directing a drama or horror show. God is one big mind $*!# and people will bend reason in a myriad of nonsensical ways to protect God’s image at the expense is we who suffer. How is a god who casts people into a lake of fire with a six headed beast for eternity simply because they didn’t believe a fairy tale — even though god predetermined that they would not believe it — perfectly just? I can’t think of anything more insanely ridiculous!!!
this describes me i get ever question wrong on a test this shows that god hates me he does it proves me in that he does hate me
Me again (spelling correction needed) *Every* I spelt *ever* Lol I meant *Every*
You say: “The problem here is that it’s not God who is doing this labeling and excluding—it’s human beings.”
But the problem is that God created us, knowing how we would interact and live. So yes it’s true that many problems are human induced, yet it is God who created us this way, and hence God knew how we would treat each other. I am a Christian but wish I never existed. I have been tormented my whole life with one cruel trick after another. I worked from nothing to millions, gave away millions to Christian causes, only to have be hurt continuously in every area of my life by Christians who rob, cheat, and steal. The only reason I don’t kill myself is because of consequences of doing so. Though I dread the afterlife to. There’s hierarchy in heaven and I am done with this pecking order in life. Obviously that’s better than the alternate, hell, though the ideal would be to have not had my soul exist at all. Unfortunately souls can’t be destroyed or wished away from ever existing. The latter is highly tempting if it were an option.
I’m headed to 70.
Over 40 years of unanswered prayers and outright broken promises from God.
I’ve been used for so called, “miracles,” for others.
Cancers (3 to 6 months to live) banished.
Person out of a wheelchair that doctors said would be for life.
And other things too numerous to mention.
I have been faithful with the gifts given to me.
I kept the faith.
God didn’t.
It’s far too late for some of the promises God made to me to be kept.
Age.
And others, if kept, would be almost as bitter as the decades of not being kept…. far too little far too late.
I can attest. I can witness. I can call it true.
God saves your tears in a bottle. Look it up.
God brings good and evil. Look it up.
God has actively purposed one of his angels to be a lying spirit. Look it up.
Everything is from, through, to God. Look it up.
I speak with the authority of decades of broken promises from/by God.
As God has not kept his promises of good for me here on the planet surface how can I count on God to keep his promises for me of good on the other side of this life?
I can’t.
That is the bottom line.
I didn’t get me to this point.
I got here following God and being a servant, a vessel, to bless others in big ways while I got, get, the dregs.
The crumbs of crumbs.
Yes, it sounds bitter.
And it is.
For a while I attempted to mix sweet with the bitter, in an attempt to hope for the best, that a kind loving God would come through.
That God did not. I saw others all the way through get blessed big time. Who did little to sacrifice and serve.
There is no longer a mixing of sweet with bitter.
The attempt to make lemonade from lemons has failed.
Now, there is only bitter, after so many decades of service, and there won’t be enough sweet, not enough years left, to make up for it.
Trust this God to keep promises concerning eternal salvation?
I think not.
I have tested God. His words and his deeds do not match for me all these decades.
Anything he did do, kept true to, was just to keep me going, surviving…. and…. suffering.
God has collected a significant portion of his Cosmic Tear-Wine Cellar from me.
The only question that remains is how and when I exit this Malignant Tragedy.
Of course, there is the fear that forcing an exit with my own hand might result in an even greater misery on the other side of this thing.
Great God, eh?
There was a great 1961 Twilight Zone episode entitled, “It’s A Good Life.”
Check that one out if you can.
I read the original short story it was based on.
Someone was very sly in writing that.
And someone was very sly in writing it, adapting it, for the screen.
Genius.
If you’ve seen it possibly you can relate it to what goes on in this life, in this world.
In a nutshell it is about a nasty little boy with all power. God-like.
People are terrified of him and keep telling him that all the terrible things he did and does were and are so good.
Sound at all familiar?
I too have had a life shattered by God.
No one can tell me otherwise and no one can tell me to just hang in there, that God has a plan for my life.
That all things are working to the good. They aren’t and they haven’t.
I’m too old to buy into that anymore.
I’ll be 65 in 3 weeks.
It’s been decades of being a believer and being used to bless others.
I’m looking at homelessness. At 65.
God is a promise breaker in my life.
My existence on this planet is a field of broken promises, promises made and broken by God, and shattered dreams.
God can’t really keep some of them any more. I’m too old.
God would have to whisk me away to an alternate reality where I am young again.
And if God keeps the others it will be very little very late.
I’ve been given some impressive gifts by the Holy Spirit.
I’ve been faithful to them and used them, or more accurately, have been a vessel used by God, to work miracles for others.
Have been used to bring about great blessings for others.
But as for me, I’ve been cast aside for the most part.
I know God exists. There is zero doubt about that for me.
That God is kind and loving, that God IS love…. there’s the rub.
God is not much of that…. for and to me.
No.
Given just enough to keep living and serving. That’s it.
I’ve prayed for death nearly every night before I go to sleep for over 20 years.
And I always wake up disappointed that I’m still here and have to go on in the deprivation.
I am afraid to commit suicide because I know that God can make things even worse on the other side of this life.
Caught between a rock and a hard place, courtesy of the One that made us all.
I’ve come to understand that God is the Ultimate Psychopath.
The Ultimate Sociopath.
I despise that these words are coming from me.
But The Truth is of the utmost importance to me.
These two are what God appears as to me.
I wish it were otherwise.
I pray that God will show me otherwise, will show other sides of Himself that are…. Friendlier.
God can do whatever God wants.
God DOES do whatever God wants to do.
God can tell us, me, that God is a good God.
The proof is in the pudding.
We have to live in that pudding.
This poor man’s take on the Book Of Job that I’ve been living for decades, forced to live for decades, has been going on for an awfully long time.
I want it to end. This life. This existence. This on-going torture.
I will pray for that before I sleep, yet once again.
God appears to be preparing an even greater hell on earth for me.
I hope God does an about face and acts suddenly to bless me, to save me from absolute destitution and disease untended.
For, in addition to asking for the grace, the blessing, of death, I will also be asking for a better life here.
The two are not at odds. There is no conflict there.
The object is for all the intense suffering, the gross unfairness, the seemingly malevolent treatment from and by the One Who made us all, to come to an end.
I choose Life, and a better one.
If God chooses to continue to deny me that, then I want death.
It’s as simple as that.
I don’t use my gifts much anymore. I’m too wiped out for far too long.
Other humans are missing out. I’m missing out.
I still have a heart for and pray for others. But I know not the results at this point.
Prayers are in passing.
They always were but there was a time when I could get close up in the trenches and be used to make the difference and witness Results.
God needs to move. I no longer can.
If God won’t…. well, God won’t.
I can’t control that.
It’s all in God’s hands. Always was. Always will be.
I do what I can to do my part. I’m doing less and less due to the overwhelming depression that comes with such overwhelming deprivation.
Decades of it.
And the afflictions that overtake the old.
God should Move. Suddenly.
It will have to me suddenly, because I’m just too old for it to be otherwise.
Enough ramble.
Check out that Twilight Zone episode.
Dear Doctor Fuller,
Your analysis of “why does God hate me” and “why does god allow suffering” google searches as being due to people inappropriately named and divided by society is very interesting. I’m sure that society causes suffering for many people.
However, based on the responses, it appears that suffering itself is the main source of people’s questioning of God and loss of faith. Mental illness, deaths, failure to have children, disabilities, addiction – People seem to have a lot of disappointment and real pain and suffering. There are dozens of hurt people here. They are really questioning if God hates them due to their losses and suffering.
This has touched a nerve, that could be an entire blog. I see a need for it. It is one of the most basic questions of religious people who search for meaning. (This one page appears to have the most views in the PTS blog?!)
I see the Protestant Work ethic and Prosperity Gospel as ideologies that blame the victims of suffering for their lack of work or faith. Those who suffer are being punished by God due to their lack of faith or sin. Yet the book of Job proves that suffering is not always due to sin, but randomness and reasons we will never know. Jesus words in Luke 13:1-4 about Pilate’s murders (sin) and the Tower of Siloam (random) are the same.
Deterministic Evangelical visions of an omnipotent, omniscient, God reveal that God wills some incredibly horrible suffering on some, and blesses others. God causes or allows preventable pain in some kind of dramatic movie script.
I think Christians are afraid of the suffering topic. We fear chaos and pain. We want to look away. We just hope God protects us and our families. When He does not – we lose faith. We join the ranks of disillusioned Christians like so many who posted here.
I think many of the people who posted painful stories, want to believe – or they would not even search for “why does God hate me?”.
I read that you are the Professor of Pastoral Care. How does Christianity answer this question of God allowing suffering? What do you teach Pastors to tell broken people?
PS I’m one of those who want to believe too.
The way Christianity answers the suffering question is based upon the original curse after eating the forbidden fruit and sending the world into death and everything that comes before it.
If that was all there was then it wouldn’t be so confusing. But it doesn’t end there since the Bible makes all sorts of bs empty promises that contradict the original sin “you must suffer like a bitch” concept. God makes all these bs empty promises for this life but those who know know not a $$% one of them ever come to pass, at least not in this life like He claims. The only real hope I have is that a lot of the Bible is not God’s word at all but just commentaries by certain a**holes like Paul who contradict themselves every other statement. Secondly that hell was just a metaphor or some other bs, otherwise I find it sick. I was a christian for 30+ years and can’t call myself that anymore since I am pretty sure I am going to hell since I reject various contradictions from this God of the bible, pacifism being one of the top ones, he commands me to be a pacifist yet is one of if not the greatest murderer in human history. *@&! that bs. He wants me to pray for and serve the wicked, *@&! THAT, never, and I don’t give a *@&!, the NT is sickening to me in so many ways how this *@&!king bs fake love of God protects and favors the wicked over those who gave their lives to this a**hole and continues to blame and shame them into an eternity in hell because nothing is good enough for this a**hole, nothing, except bowing down and being a *@&! street dog, paraplegic or some other f*@&! tortured state which makes you worthy enough for Him. BS. Jesus so called died to save us from our sins and makes all these empty promises about prayer bla bla, none of it is true for this life anyways, maybe the select few paraplegics and street hobos will enter heaven in the afterlife, but none of our prayers do *@&! for this life, only random chance and the curse of adam rule this world and whatever God’s betting buddy Satan and his demons bring about.
I don’t kill myself because I think if what Jesus said there are levels to hell and since I am mostly certain I am going there I don’t want to go to the worst place in there, that is the only reason I don’t kill myself, because I think God is an a**hole and will put me in there, but maybe if I don’t do a few certain sins in this life the a**hole will grant me a little less hot place in hell. That is an empty hope but I have it anyways.
I am not jealous of those who may make it to heaven, but I think the one who lets people in or not is a hypocrite. The wicked I don’t even wish into an eternal torment, maybe annihilation but not eternal torment, isn’t the torment of this life enough anyways. For me I would wish that over eternal hell/lake of fire torment as well, or like what I have asked for is
“Oh great a**hole in the sky, I believed in Jesus, I lived for you by your commandments, but that was not good enough, so I said “*@&! you” then for abandoning me and now you curse me to hell, well if there is somewhere else you can send me, would you please oh pretty please send me there instead, haven’t you torment me enough in this life, do you have to be an a**hole to me for all eternity too? So thanks find some place far away from you so I won’t bother you but don’t put me in hell if you decided not to let me into heaven/the new kingdom”.
So even though there is no biblical basis for alternate place to go, that is what I asked if he does not have the guts or consistency to let me into heaven, which I seriously doubt he would ever do since I have told him to “*@&! off a**hole” 1000x now in the last 2 years for what he has done to me/allowed to happen to me by his betting buddy satan.
God hates us all ,we where created to suffer it is our purpose.Orgional sin and temptations that god new we could not resist are just part of the game,half my family is dying from cancer under a sea of medical bills I cant get enough work to pay all the bills.Prayer has become a sad/sick joke , now the car is in need of major repairs , i think i hear giant laughter in the distance .If God does not hate my family than why wont help and answer my prayers,maybe i am to much of a sinner so i am asking you to pray for us before its to late.
There is a creator , but nothing like in the bible or any other book…i,m 57 years old and have a lot of living behind me…….if you look at history …real world history…..millions and millions have died for nothing…real people with a life the same as yours……..there are no real answers to life….theres theology given to us from well meaning people…but no real answers…. the answers to my questions are paradoxes that never give a real answer to the now…its always after your dead or some time in the future…..if someone is starving you feed him/her straight away , right….you don’t tell them , ill feed you some time later… or after your die from starvation..if you tried to sell something like this in a shop as a working system , you would be in court …..
If god really exist then why my life sucks?? And I can’t think even a single moment of happiness?? Why none of my prayer has any effect and whatever has happened or happening is just the opposite of my prayers and needs. If god is so loving why have not it been shown on me?? Does he hate me?? Does he hate me so bad that he let me born and instead of killing then and there he let me live and suffer slowly??? Or is he keeping me alive so that when any of his precious humans suffer he can put me aid them and let them use me as mat and when they recover they can throw me into dust??? I really don’t understand how can u preachers say if god doesn’t answer your prayers he is gonna give you better or or the best one now you suffer later you will b happy…what’s all this about?? I don’t see any of these happening !!!!
The standard answer from theologians is “God doesn’t hate you, its people that are doing wrong, its the fallen world”. But God allows it. Once I helped someone in distress, rather than just allowing it because I, unlike God, put my compassion into action.
For all of you who are suffering, I think I know what is the explanation.
I am hesitant as to whether I should write this or not, because this is something that probably very few people understand about God’s creation. I am thinking about the dilemma as I’m writing this. But there is no better group of people to give it to, so maybe I should write it…
What I’m going to write is not meant as a consolation for you. It is not meant to make you feel better. But it is an explanation about your depths of suffering.
You see, in Heaven, God can provide only love and everything that goes along with it – wisdom, peace, joy, gifts, talents, etc. As a result, every creation that God creates in Heaven has an incomplete understanding of reality – it doesn’t understand evil. Consciousness of such creation is lacking. In some sense, we could say that such creation is naive.
The highest creation God can create understands both good and evil. But God can’t create such a creation in Heaven. So, God created our universe with Earth, a Petri dish of sorts, where beings in it do evil and are exposed to evil.
And obviously, God doesn’t allow all people to have the same amount of evil being done to them. Some go through life relatively easily, while some go through a form of “hell on earth”.
That’s because God creates different levels of highest created beings. Not every resurrected human will have the same reward on the other side. There will be differences, levels, positions, whatever you want to call it. And the main factor for the difference, as I understand it, is the amount of suffering one has gone through while he or she was here.
Again, once a saint gets to the other side, God can provide him or her all the love, wisdom, peace, joy, gifts, talents, etc, for all eternity. But one thing God will not be able to provide an inch is evil. So, whatever suffering you got here, that’s something that deepens or widens your consciousness that nobody who didn’t go through that same level of suffering can reach, ever, for all eternity.
So, the more one suffers here, the higher his or her reward, his or her position will be, for all eternity. And the one who suffered the most will be the highest creation God ever created and will ever create. For all eternity.
It’s not much of a consolation for present suffering, but nevertheless, that’s what I think is going on.
I left an earlier response but I’d like to respond again.
I really like what PH says about God, about heaven, about suffering.
So many responses are full of bitterness towards God.
What do you gain by being bitter?
I struggle with not being bitter towards my husband of 26 years.
So I decided I would treat him as he treats me.
At the end of a few days, the heaviness and lack of peace I felt, told me it wasn’t worth treating him with disrespect.
I would rather try to be loving and kind despite how I’m treated.
It is who I want to be.
God does not want us to be bitter.
Remember to look at Jesus. Tell him you don’t want to be bitter.
Take it out of your chest and give it to him. He will carry your load.
God seems petty to me. This is *@&!.
The idea of sharing in the sufferings of Christ is a long time Roman Catholic belief. Those who most suffered and displayed the character of Christ within them – sometimes were given sainthood by the church. I would dare say that this belief is no longer prevalent among most Roman Catholics. Consequently, I would say, just historically speaking that your beliefs have great merit.
The idea of sharing in the sufferings of Christ is a long time Roman Catholic belief. Those who most suffered and displayed the character of Christ within them – sometimes were given sainthood by the church. I would dare say that this belief is no longer prevalent among most Roman Catholics. Consequently, I would say, just historically speaking that PH’s beliefs have great merit.
Another validation of this idea of suffering having a great reward in heaven – comes from Jesus’ parable about the rich man and Lazarus (Luke 16:19-31) Lazarus was probably an invalid because it says he was “laid at the rich man’s gate”. Lazarus begged for and ate scraps of food and had open sores that dogs came and licked. Lazarus suffered physical and mental degradation and humiliation. Even in death, the rich man wanted to use Lazarus for his own ends. However, Lazarus is rewarded with being by Abraham’s side in heaven.
Why would Jesus use such an example if he did not know that the suffering of people on earth is a reality. Even people who believe and hope in Him, still live a miserable life. However, we also know that Lazarus knew Christ and offered up his sufferings to Him. We know this because Lazarus had received a great reward.
If I were to guess at one similarity between Lazarus and all the people who have written above – those who despair from life, who feel God is laughing at their misery and simply does not care – the similarity between them all might be a deep desire to be loved by God and to love him. One way you can measure whether or not your suffering will attain higher glory in heaven – is how strong is your aversion to treating others the way you feel you are being treated? Or how strong is your aversion to being dishonest or ??? in the situations you find yourself in? If in your heart and by your actions, you show that you want to be and do good – by all means, you are Christ’s and the sufferings you are bearing – will most certainly attain for you great glory.
The Word says that life is but a breath – a flower that fades quickly away. Suffering lasts but a moment in historical time.
Learn to listen to the Comforter, the Holy Spirit. He does speak to our hearts and his purpose is to provide comfort and understanding. The devil will always lie, confuse, accuse, kill, steal and destroy. Command the devil to leave by the authority of Jesus – and quiet yourself and listen to the Holy Spirit who has profound love for you.
A big thank you for your blog article.Much thanks again. Great.
Why is it when I pray, whatever I request, I mean all request I ask from God, each one of it situation gets worse?. I am afraid to pray. But I tried it again. A simple request, Doomed! It was not even given a chance, and made it worse and hurtful. What I hate most is He gives you a little taste of it (happiness) then takes away. I see a lot of people don’t even pray, and they are the most luckiest people. So, I don’t even know if there is really a God. If so, then I must be the unluckiest person that God every created.
I have to agree with the comments.I feel God never cared about me. He condoned people being hurt and abused to this very day.I have prayed and fasted but what i see he blesses the sinful and they have happy lives.I am giving up this and go on the best way I can.IT is said because we love a God who does not love us
I tried all my life to live by Christian teachings I’ve fought off temptations of the flesh. I got fired from a good paying job because I stood up for injustice. And lived with next to nothing just do his will. If I kept my mouth shut I would have lots of money. People think I’m odd because I always try to do the right thing. But now l face a crisis so bad I want to die. And God is never here for me. All I hear are words. I feel abandoned. I wish I had never heard of him. And I wish I were dead. I feel he is purposefully tormenting me.
Can someone explain to me, ” why God hates me” I have asked God many times without an answer back. I’m Catholic, my life has been very bad for the last 7 months. I have prayed & prayed for 7 months, only for things to get worse by the month. I have begged him over & over! I’m now lost for words. Can someone explain to me why God is so against me for this long. I’m truly about to give up on all of this. Why does God hate me? I need answers
people searching on the Internet for answers to their faith questions seem to assume that God is primarily a judgmental, capricious tyrant who selectively applies oppression and suffering to certain groups, or who makes some people “ugly” and others not.
If course he did, are you BLIND.
And the worst part is he cares nothing about the suffering we face from this inequality or handicap
I read in dismay how you can disregard the pain we sufffer , the humiliation, loss of opportunity and social and other oppression
Please offer some constructive answers , admit that this is a price we are paying for a fallen world that we get NO additional credit for when it comes time for judgment.
Further more the fact we hate our appearance disgusts god as it is a sin.
So we suffer , sin for something we were given
God has abandoned me since I was a kid. Neither one of my parents were ever there or care about me. I have suffered great losses after doing a good deed for someone. God hates me and will continue to let me know I am hated, God I wish I was dead I don’t want to live anymore, let me pass please end the pain.
Too all you of you wondering why God hates you – God hates you because he is a wicked psychopath who enjoys seeing people suffer. 😀
Of course everyone suffers. You hear beautiful stories of how Christians get saved and encounter life-changing events right after they accepted God because, unsurprisingly, those who suffer are busy being sad and wondering why God mistreats them, JUST LIKE YOU.
Do you see people complain on Facebook about how much their lives suck? NO. You see your friends traveling around the world, visiting Disneyland and partying hard. People don’t go around preaching their own miseries, they only brat about their achievements. This is exactly what churches do – cherry-picking stories to brain-wash you, tricking you into believing that believing in this imaginary being named Jehovah could save your a_s. Ha! Too bad life doesn’t work that way! Grow up and face the truth.
There are no answers when it comes to God. If he even exists. If he exists then the usual questions ‘why does he allow suffering, evil, bad things to happen to good people, etc etc’ There are no true answers–only empty platitudes. Life as most of you know just simply stinks much of the time and there is no god waiting to save you from all the misery. If god exists it’s obvious that he either doesn’t care about us or if he cares he seems to be impotent to stop evil/suffering. Or maybe he hates humanity and enjoys our suffering. Maybe its all a game between him and satan. Or maybe there is no god or satan. Who knows Just get high or drunk or zonk out on pills and try to forget it all because there isn’t any explanation. I don’t even see a problem with someone offing themselves–why not? We’re all going to die anyway–so why wait until illness or disease gets you and brings you to a slow painful death–choose your own time to bail out. Yes it will grieve your family/friends but if you go naturally they will grieve then too. So if life has become miserable why hang around if theres no chance it will improve.
The most sincere and honest answer of them all. Thanks Jack. By the way, I loved On The Road.
I found this by googling ‘what do you do when God hates you.” I’m pretty sure HE hates me. I have been a Christian for almost 30 years. I got save thinking God would heal me of homosexuality. Which didn’t happen. I’ve been in a heterosexual marriage for 24 years. Have made a complete mess of things by hiding my same sex attraction, not functioning like a straight man. I regularly hear how gays are perverts from the pulpit.
Why do I think God hates me? Because imbdisobedient in my feelings and attractions. I spend a lot of time wishing I was born female and wishing I could change sexes. (Gender issues). He clearly says “Esau I hate”. There are vessels created for dishonor.
I live in a state of frustration. I want to please Him but I can’t (I know no one can). I’m just screwed up from child sexual abuse. I know life isn’t suppose to be easy; but I’ve been falling apart for 10 years now; emotionally, financially. When you see your children suffer because you can’t seem to get out of the ditch; you sometimes think they would be better off without you.
Hi Sean,
Just so you know, you are not unusual. Many people suffer with sex identity issues after sexual abuse.
There are many other sin areas too. Other people suffer with pornography, masturbation, sexual fetishes. Even more people struggle with drug addiction, anxiety, fear, feelings of uselessness and other painful things.
Then there is guilt from horrible things people actually did (violence, child abuse, stealing, betraying, murder, abortion, etc.) Imagine, you did nothing wrong to have your problem! It was done to you. Many people are the abusers they and live with that horrible burden of guilt and shame.
Then there are people who suffer from pain of seeing a child sick or dying, family members murdered other horrible things that they watch and become victims of. Helpless and hopeless feelings. Somehow this seems like the worst pain to me. When you can’t protect your child or family the grief never seems to end.
I am the most angry with those proud fools who think they have no sin problem, and expect they are better than you or I. They shame you and I from the pulpit. They have that pride thing. God hates that so much. Yet they walk in the churches with their smiles and pride, when underneath many are stinking, cowering sinners just like you and I. I think many claim healing, when really they are just hiding or they would be far more understanding.
Jesus talked about picking up your cross and carrying it. Please understand, I think you have a HEAVY cross to bear. I would not want it. But also understand that everyone has some of these painful burdens. You are not alone. As I read it, God accepts you as you are! That is the wonder of Jesus. He knows the human condition. He said he will be there with you. Only in Heaven will all these burdens cease. God knows this! He knows that are trying to be faithful and it will be a great reward in heaven for those who are faithful like you. I think of it as a jewel in your crown, once you get to heaven. A jewel of faithfulness. Sean, you are an amazing person. 24 years. You are loyal to your wife and children. I respect you. I think He does too.
God predestined me from eternity to hate Him forever. I want to love Him but I hate Him. He created me to be an example of what not to be. I am a believer but I am a depraved reprobate. I curse Him every day. I change the words to tunes and sing Oh how I hate Jesus because He hated me first. I sing that Jesus rapes me this I know, etc.. I’ve had chance after chance after chance to repent and to reboot my life and I never repented. I am haunted by Hebrews 6. I am one that does not bear fruit and shall be thrown into the fire. I am doomed forever. If the fire burns forever and I am conscious forever then it will be worse. I never get used to this. I am tormented all day every day. I hate myself. I hate life. I pray for death every day.
I posted as:
Had It
and
Honesty.
I repent of what I wrote.
God made everything.
God is in control of everything.
God did what God wanted to do.
God does what God wants to do.
God will do what God will do.
for several years i have been asking the same question why do God hate me no answer. Through out last night could not sleep, nothing is working for me even the basic things that work for others. pls if you have answer get in touch. emman
“We are the ones who have created societies in which individuals are judged based on their physical appearance or on their membership in particular demographic groups.”
“each one of us is created in the image of God”
If we are created in God’s image, and we create societies that are unjust, then maybe God is unjust.
GOD DOESN’T HATE YOU, GOD WOULD HAVE TO EXIST IN ORDER TO HATE YOU. JUST LIKE THE GREEKS THOUGHT ZEUS HATED THEM, YOU ARE SIMPLY A VICTIM TO THE DOMINANT RELIGION OF YOUR TIME. IN 1000 YEARS I ASSURE YOU, THERE WILL BE NEW RELIGIONS JUST LIKE 1000 YEARS BEFORE.
God DOES personally hate me…all the specifics of my troubles are too precise to be accidental. God has infinite power, it is narrow minded to believe that god wouldnt use that power to ruin some lives once in a while. Infinite power equals infinite possibilities, good or bad.
Just like a parent loves the better looking, more successful children, so does god. I wish i jad been born taller, smarter, and with better work ethic. I wish i had parents who acknowledged my existence, or felt it nesecerry to teach me about life and work. But because i sisnt…god does not love me. I apologize to him all the time…i wish i had grown up under different circumstances so god could be more proud of me… im so so so sorry i wasnt…
But now, illl never be allowed to have a happy life…and i feel like there was nothing i could have done about it. Im sorry i ended up this way, id change if i could…
But instead ill just suffer for all of eternity, cause its clearly what i deserve.
Hi Ray,
No God does not personally hate you. I know how you feel, since I have felt that way too. I mean, why couldn’t God create a world with out pain. A perfect world, where people like you are “taller, smarter and with a better worth ethic.” I get it.
Here is why.
God created such a world, and we rejected it. (See Adam and Eve in the Garden). We wanted to know, we wanted freedom. We did not want to be children, living in a gilded cage. Adam and Eve were just like us. If I was Adam, I know I would have ate that fruit. So would you! We picked freedom, and therefore suffering. Freedom meant risk, suffering and a real world where we matter.
Now I want you to know that you are important, because you were created. You can help others. You are important. Everything you do for someone else is ETERNAL. People are eternal beings. If you give a child a glass of water in Jesus name, they would not have it without you! You matter, more than you know.
Here is the key to happiness. It is not what you have. You will never have enough. You will always want more. You will never been good enough. God knows this. No one can be “good enough.”
The key is not what you can get – its is what you give to others. That is where we can find value, meaning, love. Not getting Ray. Its giving to others.
God loves you so much, that He created you. You have something special, unique. God values you just for you! Not for what you do, or can’t do! You are You! And someday, you will celebrate with Him, all the good things you did for others. If your cupboard is bare, go fill it up with good gifts for others.
Meanwhile Ray, i like you a lot. You are an honest person. I bet I would like you if I knew you.
But please don’t think about yesterday or what you don’t have. You don’t have yesterday. None of us do. I can’t make you or me taller. However, you do have today, and maybe tomorrow! I expect to you see you in heaven someday.
God Bless you Ray.
Dan
The last few entries about addiction with opioids, meth, heroin and then giving up to the devil, is Satans master lie to drag your soul to hell. I have shot meth, heroin, benzos and booze, BUT GOD has transformed my life into a prayer warrior, to pray deliverance, and delivering my drug addicted friends to sanity
God is a very evil bastard altogether since he punishes many of us for no reason at all. And i had always hoped that i would meet the right good woman someday and have a family instead of being a single and lonely man all the time. Not fair at all to see how very extremely blessed and lucky other people are to have that since they will never have to worry about being alone like many of us that really wanted the very same thing. Why should other men find love and not me? And i know friends that are having the same problem too.
Hi Paul,
You are not right about God being evil. He is not evil. Let me explain.
God created a real world. I don’t believe God created a play that we are unconsciously following to the letter. I don’t believe God controls us, or He would need to be the author of all the good things – and ALL of the evil things. Then He is the puppet master and nothing we do matters. Either we are free – or we are not.
Nope. The world is real. It is random. There is pain, suffering and freedom. People can show love for others, by giving of their real time, their real selves. There are HEROES! There are also villains. There is adventure and suffering. Its not a play. You are a real person.
So yes Paul, you got a raw deal. You wanted to be married and it did not happen. However, that is not God’s fault. It is much more random than that. I don’t know what transpired and why this happened. I can only agree with you that it is horrible. I grieve for you. I am married and grateful to be so. I know how lucky I am. I am grateful I’m married, since I am a pretty flawed person. Paul, its luck. I don’t deserve it. I know it. You know it too.
As a suggestion from a person who appreciates your situation. Please consider submitting this desire to Him. Then you will have peace. Its okay to ask for Him to help you find a person since being married is a good thing. Its also okay if you don’t get married, since you are His, if you gave your life to Him. As Paul writes, I have learned in all things to be content (Phil 4:12-13). Paul was single and had the most exciting life. It is not that being married is good or bad – its just different, with different opportunities. Consider those opportunities as special to you! You see, I can’t move since I have a family. I can’t buy what I want since I’m paying for kids. I can’t change jobs. I’m always working. I don’t have enough money to be the Dad I should be. I’m a working class schmuck. I have to pray the same way, trusting that He will make it work, submitting my desires to Him. Its the same but different.
Meanwhile, pray about it. You can yell at God. Its okay. You can also rest in Him which is where we all really need to be – at peace whether we have plenty, are in need, whether single or married.
God Bless you!
Dan
Why should many of us be alone when life sucks as it is? And then to be single and alone all the time makes it much worse for us since it can be very unhealthy and depressing Not having a love life. Oh by the way, Didn’t God say that man shouldn’t be alone?
If anyone reads my reply I want to point out, that NOT always necessarily do people believe GOD hates them because of color, race and such. That is more of a society problem. But, for example, in my case I know there are people out there going through a heck of whole lot more than me. But in my own personal view, my situation is the one I am dealing with and the one that matters. The one that seems huge! So I question God, often. I have conversations all the time, alone, in my car, on the hill, in my kitchen, I am constantly talking to GOD. HE does nto give me a sign, a reply… I lost my house, now I lost my job… WHY DOES GOD HATE ME? Why cant he give me a break for once already?
Hi Lily,
I’m reading your reply!
Hey Lily, just so you know, I agree that you have had a bad shake of it. Losing your house and job is horrible. As you said other people may have it worse, but when its you and its not supposed to be this way, that is huge. I mean, we don’t expect these things to happen to us. God is supposed to protect us. God is supposed to be there, be on our team. I mean we are serving Him and so many horrible things are NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN! It makes me want to scream at God too. I’ve done it too. You see, I believe there is a God. I can’t deny it, but why doesn’t He bail me out??
Here is the story.
God created a real world. It has pain, suffering and death. Christians suffer too. Paul was stoned, whipped, imprisoned and beheaded. Eleven of the twelve disciples were martyred. Peter was crucified upside down just to rub it in. Only John, the disciple who Jesus loved, lived a long life – only to write the book of Revelation from the prison island of Patmos.
God doesn’t hate you. He just let us have a real world. We are “in the world” but not of it. We have the same problems as non-Christians, but live differently through it.
Part of the problem is expectations. We have been told through the prosperity gospel, and protestant work ethic, that God rewards those who have faith. The measure of God’s reward is due to our goodness, and His Goodness. This is an extreme lie. It is not true. I’m a big Joel Osteen fan but he is wrong. We are not protected from every evil. The world is random. Christians suffer too. We are less than perfect. We have bad luck, injustice, pain, suffering and death just like everyone else.
The real challenge is to trust God through these problems. To know our life is hid with Christ. Its not here. We live with Him in God’s Kingdom, through the problems. Not without them.
A gap for me is the church, where we are supposed to find support during crisis. That does not always work out. It didn’t for me. It still doesn’t. However, God is still God even if people are flawed. God is still there for you. Please try to pray in faith, asking Him to influence situations. Realize He did not cause you to lose your job. That is just the price of living with freedom – in a real world. Bad things happen to good people like you. But He can help you get the next job, or a place to live. Ask Him to enable you to live in faith and have peace in this world. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Phil 4:13) is a verse about suffering!! See 4:12. Rest in faith knowing that there is nothing you cannot survive on this earth, with Him. Maybe you will look back and see His hand later. Maybe when you get to Heaven, you will remember how you had faith, when you were not in heaven! We won’t need faith in heaven. We sure need it now, and we can serve him with it now.
Meanwhile, I want you to know I can totally see why you were upset with God. I know He can too. That was the right thing to do. He can take it. But now is the time to turn your suffering into perseverance and a faith story as He redeems your difficulties. It will give you a story to talk about in Heaven, where I hope to meet you someday.
God bless you!
Dan
Blah, blah blah. He didn’t want to make us into robots, so he allowed evil to flourish for the sake of free will. Well that worked out well, didn’t if? Two world wars, Nagasaki, Hiroshima, Auschwitz, the Cold War, Chernobyl and now the world stands on the precipice of an impending environmental catastrophe, unable to do anything about it because of a global Capitalist system which thrives on free market principles, thereby fostering competition and distrust between nations. We’ve emptied the oceans of half their marine life, and replaced it with plastic; humans are predispositions to fight each other for resources, just like in the natural world, and if this life is some sort of lesson or test from God, then WE ARE NOT LEARNING!!!!!!!
Paul I know it’s difficult. And confusing. And I know what it’s like to want to be loved, especially after loving others first and then not being reciprocated. Humans are hard to love. Unlovable even. We mess things up. A lot. Please don’t harm yourself anymore with bitterness. I know you want love. And at least this one person in the world knows you deserve it.
God still hates me I can never have a peaceful and good life ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I’m 52 and I’m ugly and pray for death every day
I truly wish I was never born. Suicide has been on the table as
well. Your lucky if never felt this way because hell on earth is not
what I’d dream GOD wants for any of us to feel.
Hi Richard,
My heart breaks as I read your statement.
I’ve also had the same exact thoughts, when I was suffering. Depression was my constant companion for years. Years of my life were a blur. A haze of private pain. I’m doing a lot better now.
Suicide is not a good answer for this type of pain. Suicide is the unforgivable sin. Its giving up the greatest gift God ever gave you – Being. You exist. Quite a gift, since it is everything we have really. Suicide will lock in the pain you feel. Hell is eternal separation from God, who is your only hope for feeling better. How about an eternity of pain – not a relief from it, since you are rejecting God. So suicide is like really the worst thing to do. Cross it off your list. Wishing you had never been born is more logical but we can do better.
First, you need to accept the truth. The truth is that God created you to know you. He values you. He invites you to give your life for Him now, in exchange for an eternity with Him. Once you have given your life to Him, you can believe what He says about you. How you are His adopted child. His eternal project. How you will have a heavenly body in heaven, that will NOT be ugly! Its like giving up what you don’t have and don’t want for a better life in His kingdom both now and forever.
Second, you need to change your mind, so you are feeling better. Keep your house clean. Consider those negative thoughts as demons. Speak to those demon thoughts and tell them to go away. They are not true and not from Him. Be transformed by the renewal of the mind. This is hard and will take a while. It’s a process. The harder it is, the stronger your mind will be later. That’s how it worked for me. Read the bible, listen to good sermons, worship music too. If you have depression, you need to work to be healthy. Fill the mind with good things (see Phil 4:8). A healthy mind does not just happen for you and me. We can lose it too and need to return and house clean again. Be ready. A clean house (mind) is your new normal, but it is work.
Hey Richard, I’m glad you were born! I’m sure He is too. I hope to meet you someday in heaven. (I’m sure you will not be ugly to me, not in that heavenly body thing! We can compare funny features. I’m pretty big and lumpy myself!)
Dan
It’s Rich here on dec.5 2018 at 10:50 I had a finger ripped off my body at work, 8 years ago my hands and arm where set on fire at work, with second and third degree burns, yes I had skin grafts. I had a tough childhood as well. In other words my life sucks, the only lottery I’ve won is pain. I’d love to ask GOD why me. I’ve been better to this world and go out of my way to make peoples life’s better. Yes it feels like GOD hates me, I know there are others who had it a lot worse. My question why bring some of us in this world only to suffer. I’ll still be myself a ugly guy how spreads kindness not hate, no matter bad it gets. Please GOD stop with all the trauma, my mind and body have had enough. Here this is for the world.. I’m not aloud at KFC any more because it’s finger licken good. This is what I understand about demons don’t acknowledge them, no matter how close they come. My outer light has been dimmed at times like all man, but I have a glow like no other I an one of a kind … My ups and down are because i’m real I’m a tough kid with a soft side and have plenty of scars…….
I learned that God is the only person that could save all of us. But more then that. I too believe this life is not only tragic, its reality is terror. But if you cry bad things to the lord, you will see the spitfulness of heaven. But the main thing you should think of this whole world is a complete DECITE. Gods earth and SATAN’s ruleing Earth you can barely know a difference. God loved Earth, but the Earth we live our lives out on here right now, is a complete decite. Its VERY big shame that people actually try to live lives on here. But I mean, God did make some angels for Earth, just think of Jesus christ. He was made for Earth, and heaven. What people should understand In my opinion is that this Earth and Gods Earth is whats confusing everyone.
Hi Kiel,
Yes, I can see that. We do confuse this difficult Earth we live in, with God’s perfect earth.
We want to live in that perfect Garden of Eden, maybe brought forward in time to our situation. I would like a perfect modern earth, with no wars and no pain. Maybe just a little sin, tolerated so people are free. But no pain. I hate to see others in pain. Satan’s angels seem to have way too much freedom to wrack pain and suffering.
We expect God’ perfect earth, while we are here. We want God to make the way for us. This is the deceit, since it does not work that way. Christians suffer and die just like everyone else. Everyone suffers and dies. Even if we hope that EVERYONE would have a great life, it does not happen. I could call it a cruel joke, except its absolutely not funny.
Anyway Kiel, I don’t think a half way solution was possible. The Angels were created just like us. They are free too. They have more knowledge of God, and many of these rebellious Angels rejected Him anyway. Then, with their freedom, they use their influence to damage His creation.
We have a chance to have the greatest gift in this complicated mess, to have a relationship with a perfect God. Who loves us. He is the greatest gift. A perfect love shown to fallen creatures, part of this fallen world. An eternity with Him, after our trials here. And we can serve Him here, in a way we could never do in Heaven. We can love others. He needs nothing, so we love others to love Him.
See Matt 25:31-46 where God winds this temporary world up, and we are judged in heaven. (New Living.)
“God says to those on His right, come and inherit the kingdom prepared for you. I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger and you invited me in. I was naked, and you visited me. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.’
“Then these righteous ones will reply, ‘Lord, when did we ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you something to drink? Or a stranger and show you hospitality? Or naked and give you clothing? When did we ever see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ “And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’”
This opportunity to love God is not possible if there was not a real, broken world. We can question that maybe it could have been “nicer” but I expect it is what it must be based on the fallen free creatures, creation, and people that we are. Or maybe we are the ones who are supposed to make the world a “nicer” place. Maybe that is a large part our role.
God Bless you!
Dan
You say that God doesn’t hate us but sometimes it’s hard to believe. I lived my whole life a Christian, the best I could. Yet day after day for at least the last ten (10) years, I have had more struggle than strength, more trial and tribulation than triumph. The only thing that keeps me here is the fact that I’m a single mother of four–who would be devastated by my departure. I am publicly shunned, lied on, ostracized, defamed, embarrassed for nothing more than trying to be the best Christian I know how to be. I watch people around me receiving amazing blessings in all their humanness. I ask for help. I pray. Nothing comes. I read my Bible and know the Word but for some reason, it just doesn’t seem to be working for me. I hesitate to pray because I’m so tired of being disappointed and am scared to move for much of the same reason. I just want to know what I’ve done to be so abandoned.
I hope things are better for you. It’s hard to understand why or how other people seem so blessed and their lives seem so easy when they live such Godless lives. And those that try. And those that believe. We have so much more riding on it. We have so much and so many more counting on us. It’s not just me that I worry about. I’d leave earth today if my kids were grown.
Hi Cynthia,
Four kids! Wow. That is a lot of work and faithfulness. I know God has a lot of love for you even if you don’t experience it materially. You see, you may not have those material blessings. I know that other people do, and some Preachers say you should. It’s just not true.
Jesus rode into Jerusalem on a donkey, not a chariot. Jesus did not have a place to lay his head (Luke 9:58). The disciples were sent out without a bag, walking stick or money for their missionary journey (Luke 9:6). And with nothing, they went out and healed the sick. This poverty created the more beautiful miracle. I think it does for you too. You are living a miracle!
However, when I heard that the bible is not working for you, I think of the next trap that hurting people can fall into. This is bitterness. Bitterness is when you put up a fence to protect yourself. When you vow to not let anyone hurt you again. We all do it. However, it cuts us off from His forgiveness.
The best way to explain this bitterness thing is the parable of the unforgiving servant. The servant who owed God billions pleaded for the King to not divide up his family. The King forgave the debt, billions of dollars, the man could never repay. Then the servant went and demanded payment for a debt from someone else for $3000 and tossed his debtor into prison. The King promptly changed His mind and put the unfaithful servant into prison. In verse 35, “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.” Serious stuff.
It is awful when people shun, lie, ostracize, defame and embarrass us. But when we don’t forgive from your heart, the miracle often stops. Even in pain, carrying a hard load, people can still have joy. If there is bitterness in our hearts everything else gets affected. The damage from years ago can still be there making us dry spiritually, damaging relationships, making life disappointing and lonely. We may find this bitterness goes back a long way in your life, like root.
I have been working on this myself. I’m a sinner too. A big one. I have prayed to forgive the people I am bitter about. I have asked God to forgive me for being bitter. I have been pretty specific, but I expect I will need to work on this more over time to get to the place where I could return and love those people. I can’t imagine it now, but I’m working on it. I can now pray! I feel so much better. To back up, I forgave God first for how he let me down (or that is how I perceived it). Then I was able to praise and worship regularly. Recently, I heard some sermons about this bait of Satan, bitterness thing. How I should have an “unoffendable heart”, so I can love others. I’m feeling more free. . . I feel love for Him now, that has been dry and missing.
This is so cool, that I want this for you too!
Cynthia, this was a hard note to write. I hope it blesses you. I see so many good things in you and your family! I hope to meet you in heaven someday, to talk about the miracle you are living with your kids!
Dan
Nice article, but you then trot out the idea that we are all born sick. Which leads straight back to “why am I ugly/gay/black”? You have just destroyed your argument, however well-meaning it was.
And we AREN’T loved unconditionally by God, who threatens us with the eternal fires of Hell if we don’t love Him. Get your beliefs right.
I myself have been through sufferings. Many times like waves after waves throughout my whole life and like God had his eyes on me trying to bring me down and kill me when i am at my best. He tried his best limiting me and not bring prosperous. But let me say, we all have a false Hod in our hearts. And we place importance in our perceptive happiness rather than spiritual. The only thing incan say is that God doesn’t give you pleasures. But he gives you salvation. He does not give you worldly love but he gives you peace. We put too much importance on our basic primal needs that we misevaluated what it means by happiness and suffering. What it means by freedom. Sometimes i should say, fight through and bear those suffering is an important process. Do what you can, blame, curse, whatever, in the end do more goodness to the world. “For only goodness that you shall live” Suffering is unbearable only when we can’t handle it. Be your own God. Fight it. Think if God were you having a human body, what would he do in his limited power when as a human?
Sometimes great suffering means great power and oportunity, but we were not given the right mindset to deal with it. Afterall you were created after the image of God.
So i asked you to not believe “God”. But in the same time i did not ask you to not believe God.
During my journey of finding God. I realized there are many times i disbelieved God. Trying to test him and tempt him in many ways, multiple times a week. But God has showed actions to me in the most stern way ever. No matter if i believe or disbelieve him, he was still doing miracle for me. Strange right?
All of us has a false God within us that we believe in. It may be, destiny, it may be weather. And then we started on blaming God.
Many times I blamed God this, blamed God that. But i just realized. If I disbelieved God, i stopped blaming. But when I calmed down and heart is soften. I see God. What is going on?
So we all come to know God in many false ways and rumors, Satan has done all those to misleed us all.
Personal journey 17th Oct
Bottom line is that some people in this lifetime have been blessed with many things/talents/beauty etc. Other people have been dealt the opposite. Why is this? No one knows. Does it make sense or is it fair? No. But who am I to question God
I really hate God since he never gave me a wife and family.
God is a filthy pig for punishing a good man like me everyday.
God doesn’t punish you. You are believing in the lies that the fallen ones are whispering in your ear. I’ll be praying for you.
I hate my life too but I don’t want to end it because I have kids to raise. Please, please people don’t kill or end your life because you feel mistreated in this lifetime. It is a sin to kill oneself. You or your soul do not want to end up in any lower dimension than on planet earth after death. If you’re mad at God or not happy with him, just ignore him for a while and try meditation … listen to some nice music for hours or grow some plant cuttings and watch them grow through stages. You can sing to the plants too and help them grow. Lol, worship mother nature instead and you will find some peace in your life. Have positive thoughts so you can attract more positive energy. The more you feel negative, the more it will attract. And if you choose to be close to God, pray for others more than for yourself. I don’t think he likes selfishness. This way you will get his attention for sure. Please don’t hate me. I’m just like you are on here.
God really sucks since he punished many of us with Singleness.
I have been cursed with body dysmorphic disorder and have been tormented,tortured my entire life.I have cancer of the mind.My hatred of god is unyielding,undeniably stronger than ever.God and the devil are one and the same.The god loves you crowd is delusional.Life is 100% luck.The only god is the Luck GOD
About 7 years ago I went through a terrible time. I thought everything I had worked for was gone. I had to move, find a new job, find new friends and basically reinvent myself. I took me way out of my comfort zone. But then I met people that changed my life forever. Years later I moved back to where I was from and many doors of opportunity opened and life was great. Recently things have not been going so well. And that’s what brought me to this page where I read all of your comments. Yes I too feel like God is testing me in a painful way. It makes me feel like he doesn’t care about me. But I have to remember the last time thing were this difficult. Change for the better may be just around the corner. God could never get me to change while things are good and I’m happy. Its only when the chips are down and there’s no place left to turn. That is when I will step into something new and exciting! I don’t believe God hates any of us. It just feels like it sometimes. He wants us to rise above this and show others why we believe in him.
Hi thank you for taking the time to write this article. It was really informative and I am glad I came across it by sheer coincidence. Keep on writing!
Let me tell you what I think. GOD IS AN @%#$^%!!!!!! Why? Because why would any “loving god” let people suffer in pain, disabilities, loneliness, or any other abnormality? Jesus supposedly died on the cross so that we would be forgiven our sins but yet we are still having to suffer. I think that God is getting his holy rocks off by seeing all of us suffer and die terrible deaths here on this god forsaken earth. He has abandoned us!!!! If he really loved us or was a real god he would not let this happen to the people that he supposedly loves. People dying in wars, from hideous diseases, and from other unthinkable reasons. Why? I hate god!!!!!
I think GOD is an @%#$^%!!, the latest thing that happened to proves that GOD is a asshole I had a finger ripped off my body at work 8 years ago I was set on fire at work my skin not close 8 years before that my brother commit suicide and I didn’t have a father was a kid because he died. GOD IS A @%#$^%!!.thanks for all the pain. I didn’t ask to come to this world The saying the world is what you make it is not completely true. The rich stay rich the poor stay poor, if your born in the family your life can be hell. And I found that hard work doesn’t always pay off, so far my hard work got me a missing finger and skin grafts. Maybe if you lived my life you just might say GOD is a blank blank too
The truth is, the thing you call God doesn’t care about human suffering, and that is because ‘God’ is the Universe. How could something so huge have personal feelings? It’s ridiculous! It’s you people that are the problem, projecting human values and morals onto something that is quite beyond them. This is the second simplest and most concise answer for theodicy, behind God’s non-existence of course. Any answer that requires an essay replete with passages culled from the Bible is unlikely to satisfy most people and will therefore not be correct.
Hi Paul,
Well you offer no one any hope.
If there is no personal God, there is no meaning, no purpose.
People come to a “Why does God hate me” blog post, since they are hurting. And life really hurts. It is suffering. Read some of these posts. It’s heart breaking. People do suffer. And you offer them nothing except condemnation.
Here is some hope.
The fact that we have values and morals is proof that there is a God. We do appear to be different than other animals – we search for God. Every culture since the beginning of time, has created Gods, found Gods or thought God found them! When did we see a turtle hold a worship service? Even the highest animals, primates, don’t worship. Yet we do. You see, we are made to connect with God.
If you are philosophical theist, there is not a problem with this idea. If a God exists, wouldn’t he make us for some kind of relationship with Him? Would he create a world with no meaning? I expect this world was created, by God, hoping we would find him. He needs us. Not for any physical need, but to worship him, to enjoy Him, to have followers who appreciate Him. What fun is being all powerful, all knowing, the Omni-God – and being alone.
I also think he would create us in His image. The values we have, show He has similar values of love, freedom, justice and peace. It’s like we know what the highest values are, intuitively. We even know how often we fail to meet these values – but just knowing these values exist show who He is! He is Good, he is loving, freedom and peace and justice.
Paul, I am not quoting the bible. I am speaking just to your heart. Don’t you believe that all of this pain, disappointment, suffering is horrible? I do. But I also believe that suffering has meaning in the context of serving a higher purpose. This random world is where we can love Him by loving others. This is where we can have faith in Him. We won’t have such important work, if we are in heaven. There is no need for faith in heaven. There are no children who need a glass of water. . .
And Paul, I know there is a heaven. Maybe I will see you there someday. No one posts here unless they want to believe. I hope for you too!
This is bull$@#*. Humans did not create beauty or ugliness. These are innate judgements that come from biology and reproduction. We all naturally want to reproduce with people that will give our offspring the best chances of success. God created the system -not humans.
I have prayed to God for a job. I search for all kinds of jobs but i am not hired. I need to feed my family. Why doesn’t God give me what i ask?
Jesus hates me, He’s hated me for decades. Back in 1998 I bought a new car, but the car was doing funny things. It veered to the left, the odometer and speedometer were reading more mileage and a faster speed than I was driving, but my wife refused to believe me. I got depressed, so she put me in the psych ward of a hospital where I was forced to receive electro shock treatments. After one treatment, I was lying on the gurney and I started to wake up. They left the side rail of the gurney down and I rolled off the gurney and I fell very hard on my back. A few months later, images revealed I had two torn lumbar discs and needed back surgery. The doctor at the hospital never filed an incident report and he kept my fall quiet. After I got out of the hospital, I met two men who used to work at the dealership and they told me how they rigged my car. They put a shim in the front-left strut, which causes the odometer to read a further distance than I was driving, and raising the speed by 7mph. After this, I ended up needing nine back surgeries because I developed Arachnoiditis from a pain doctor who gave me epidural steroid injections. So, I became disabled for life. The first surgeon who operated on me twice quit being my surgeon, so I found a new surgeon who implanted my spinal cord stimulator and fused the last two levels of my spine. After several years, because my spine was fused, both my hips became arthritic and had to be replaced. Because I walk with foot drop, my right knee became arthritic and I had an artificial knee implanted. The rotator cuffs of both my shoulders kept tearing because I have to use my arms much more to get up and down, and I had to have an artificial right shoulder surgery. After a few years, from all the stress of this, I suffered two heart attacks. Now, I have constant hypersalivation in my mouth for almost 9 months, but no medicine worked. So, I just had botox injections in the salivary glands, and I’m waiting to see if the botox will work. This is why I say Jesus hates me, He has made terrible things happen to me for twenty years. He is evil. My life is ruined because the spinal nerve damage made me impotent. I can’t get an erection, so my sex life is over too. Now you know why I say Jesus and God hate me.
Wow Peter. I can see why you say God hates you.
Since you are posting here, I expect you don’t want to believe God hates you. But it’s absolutely hard not to. I read your story. Its horrible. Unfortunately, you are not alone. There are others who are suffering like you, maybe a little less, in this blog.
But wouldn’t it be great if there some alternative explanation – than just God Hates me. I mean, what we need is hope when there is endless pain. I can’t heal you. I wish I could. I really do. I hate pain and suffering.
But there is some hope.
First, I don’t see God as the cause of your suffering. God created a real world. A world with free will, free nature, random results. There are no bumpers. It’s a real world. Bad things happen to good people. There is war and peace. There are villains (like Doctors and mechanics in your story) and heroes. Then there is tremendous bad luck and lots of consequences of the human evil and random luck. I don’t think the world could have been created with meaning and purpose – without real suffering.
Hey, let’s get to the hope part.
If you believe what is promised, you have an eternal life in Heaven. Every tear will be wiped away. An eternity with a creator God, who gave us being. All of the suffering will be changed in a moment.
There is a catch. You need to give Him your life, give him what you don’t want, for what is in the future. You need to love Him now, when it matters. Love Him when we have pain, and other people around us are suffering too. There is no need for us to love Him though others in heaven. No pain there. But here, there is work to do – even within our limitations.
Meanwhile, I see people like you as heroes. It means little to praise God, when your life is perfect. The world is full of people who praise God when they hit home runs, score touch downs or thank him for their luxury cars. But who is impressed with that? That is easy! Praising God, when your life is so hard, well that is something to respect. I actually think that is how God sees it too.
Peter, I hope to meet you in Heaven someday, with your new body!
DanS
Thank you for the good information that gives us knowledge.
What is amazing I like your article a lot.
God hates me because I am a sinner. and I know he is not going to listen to my prayers or turn his face to me and make my life less miserable. That is fine with me. Because at least God has showed me that he is there and by letting me down let me know sinners will be punished eternally. There are many who do not believe in God, his curse will make me teach others who do not believe or do not care.
Let me get this clear I live in England and I’m nineteen years old. Ever since I was about five or six years old I knew that God is making my life a living hell, he has made sure that I can’t have friends or a girlfriend nor that I can have a easy life..many times his insistence on making me suffer pure agony has made me commit suicide attempts multiple times, 79 I think is my current record.
Everytime I prayed or begged to give him a answer he ignored me and made my life worse, what have I done to deserve this? Existed?…..some days I think my purpose is to be the universe’s punching bag
Plain and simple GOD isn’t always nice he can be cruel, why would GOD put me into a ugly body .I hate my body did and have for 45 years. GOD loves some people and must hate people like me, I’m not sorry I question GOD will about how I feel. I didn’t ask to be born. and then given a cruel life. I wasn’t born into a loving family , I’ve been set on fire at work and years later had a finger ripped off my body. If this is GODS love than he can keep it. I don’t expect you to truly understand unless you felt or see what I have seen. It is Easter Sunday and I truly wish good will to all, may we all learn how to live together..
”In a time when beauty is defined by supermodels, success is defined by wealth, and fame is defined by how many followers you have on social media, Lizzie Velasquez asks the question how do you define yourself? Once labeled, “The Worlds Ugliest Woman,” Lizzie decided to turn things around and create her own definitions of what she defines as beauty and happiness.”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c62Aqdlzvqk
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”What’s money? A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do.” – Bob Dylan –
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The discussion here is very honest. Thank you for it. Thank you all for expressing your thoughts and feelings about God.
The problem with Good God is evil. This is hard to understand and difficult to explain. But I try. God is Good. Absolutely good and that means there is no evil in God. All evil resides in the Anti-God also known as Satan. Both Good Spirit and Evil Spirit exist in us humans.
Now the problem with Good God is everything that is not Good God. I don’t use the word ”he” for God, since it is dishonest. God is pure goodness and it has no gender. Making it humanlike is a big mistake. God is not humanlike. But human spirit known as soul, that’s godlike. We are gods.
And there’s the problem we have.
It is inside of us, where we must spiritually battle against everything not-God. The only way to battle it is to Be with God. Just Be. Every soul knows God, since every soul comes from God. God created souls.
So getting to know your soul is what’s happening. And that can be terrifying. Not because of God, but because of Satan.
Satan is warring against us. Remember Satan is Evil. It is so evil, that it’s impossible to understand, being just a human, since it is more evil, than all of sins of humanity ever. Satan is absolutely evil. Ultimately. But there is no evil in God. In God there’s truth. In Satan there are lies. In God there’s peace. In Satan there’s war. In God there’s righteousness. In Satan there’s sin. In God there’s knowledge. In Satan there’s ignorance. No, it is not bliss. On the contrary. Don’t be fooled by names. You know their spirit.
We are under attack now. Every one of us.
We must fight the devil. How to do that? Acknowledge that you are god. Then change your spirit. I know it can’t be done easily. But it can be done. Start doing it now. Stand tall, no matter how small you are. You are not your body. You are not your possessions. You are spirit, and your pure soul is as good as God.
Search for your pure soul. It is always with you. It loves you. It is You.
Why would GOD put us in a bad place from the start as children seams pretty unfair for some. We don’t all get loving parents and family’s.I’m old now and this still troubles me. Do I have a fantasy of a loving GOD or did I not get the memo. I’ve never had a easy life and I’ve had all kind of different traumas scars you see and scars you can’t see by looking at me. I’m far kinder to this world than I’ve ever received, that part doesn’t bug me but the cruel acts I’ve received I don’t understand why. I’ve had a finger ripped off my body, I’ve been set on fire,at work, my best friend committed suicide [ he was my brother] and no father. those are the whoppers. Does it ever get any better or should I keep planning on more cruel acts. I practice a good life to people, animals and are planet. I know you can’t truly speak for GOD, but as a man that believes, which is cool. Put the good word to the man upstairs that we all don’t have it easy, Are questions are far and vast……
Are you Really that delusional? Your “god” is omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent. If that “god” were any good at all it would not subject Anyone to Any of this. Your “god” doesn’t care. It delights in the pain and outright torture of people. It takes pleasure and joy in causing such pain. You’re a fool to think otherwise.
I do not care if He loves me or hates me anymore but I just want to know why
God doesnt hate anyone. Jesus LOVES you all dearly! If you want the answers you must study scripture and be built slowly. one cannot expect everything to all just come at once! you dont go to school and expect to be a fully educated individual in a year right?
well its the same here! if you want HIS blessings you must study his WORD and abide by it. Jesus is King and his will is paramount!
for those of you who cant believe dont bother. its all good! no need to hate on your fellow man.
I suggest something like a non denominational that has sound biblical doctrine or possibly 7th day adventists. please study from beginning to end and with a study group so you can all share in the learning and spirit of the LORD together.
Peace and Blessings!
I hope you are either sarcastic, or are ignorant of the world around you. Look at the news, and then. Tell me god loves all of us. But don’t think for a second that there is anyone who actually believes this bull.
My heart breaks for you. For all the stories I’ve read here. Even the posers just making fun. If I could invite you all over I would. Or give you all a hug I would. And I’m not a hugger. I don’t have any answers. The people at my church are busy “introducing God” to the lost and aren’t good at being friends to people who hurt or feel lonely. I think they are bothered by the thought of it. And they solve the problem with 13 week small group sessions. Like the answer is to go through life with acquaintances. I continue to pray for others. And do for others. But I have given up on having friends. Or being loved.
I don’t think God hates me, but I don’t think he cares about me. I’m not one of the special people who God does everything for the instant they ask. I’m simply at the mercy of luck and fate. I can’t be a better person, pray harder, or do whatever else the special people say is required to have God care about you.
I quit asking for anything because that just meant disappointment. When I did pray, the opposite always seemed to happen, including people dying. I won’t risk anyone else’s life by praying for them. At least if I pray for myself, only I will suffer for doing so.
Hi Kyle,
Christians often have that same feeling. God may love me (Jesus died for me, etc.), but does He care if I live or die right here on earth?
I believe he does care about us – but it’s not what we expect. We want our lives to be easier, be wealthier, or be exciting and then we would be a special person. Few of us have that prosperity gospel experience. I sure don’t. I’m a working-class fellow myself. My car is rusty and I’m broke.
No, He promises to be with us in our suffering. Not the same as fixing our problems to our dreams and satisfactions. We still suffer. And maybe if we were living the life of the Apostles, with great meaning and suffering, it would make sense. But if your life is normal and routine or even boring then is seems like God is does not care about us.
So here is the big question! How do we make God care about us?
Well, if you want to feel that God cares about you, do things that He likes. Isn’t this how to be friends with someone? Do what they like, maybe do it with them. Then they care about you.
He seems to like when we love other people. See Matt 25:35-40. He likes when we visit people in prison, feed or clothe someone for example. He said that when we do this, we do it unto Him. This kind of thing also makes us feel important. We matter to other people. We can do it with Him too. They we have something to talk about with Him.
When we do things for others, we matter to Him. We are important. He is pleased. Then maybe our prayers seem to be answered – when they are about loving others and not ourselves as much. He does not live to serve us. We live to serve him.
Anyway, I’m glad you were so honest and wrote about how you felt. I’m sure MANY people feel the same. I know I do, unless I’m loving others.
Thanks!
Dan
all i know all my life i have been suffering everyone tells about God but i just don’t understand why dose he do the things to me that he dose all my life i get so far then he takes everything from me this has happened now 6 time then i have to start all over like love all my life i wanted someone to love and have them love me but yet nothing now i have someone that wants to love me and we are kept apart why yes i have done a few things in my life i am sorry for but it’s like i am being punished the rest of my life i am hurt and sad i have been told God puts people through things to make them a better person but the more he has done to me just makes bitter and more angry to the fact that i did not do any really bad things to get what i am getting now that i finely found someone to love and they really love me it’s like we are being kept separated and will never be as one i just don’t get it why just why
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The writer of this forgets its the Sunday fashion show crowd with good jobs, nice teeth, good looks who PERPETUTAE this.
Not Hollywood, not the media. The large suburban church and its judmental members who shun and hate people who are not as good looking, as smart, as cool, as popular as they are.
Most Christians are the most judgmental people in the USA. All talk and holy with their silly praise songs that all say the same thing, thinking they are so bold for Jesus……and then form cliques, shun, and drive out anyone who may be diffrent from them…or who just may want to learn.
After I was formally shunned in church for not being as cool as everyone else in the “in crowd” in church, I saw through the sham and now study Jesus on my own….I hike, camp and backpack and have more “insight” to Christ than I EVER got in a modern protestant church (they’re ALL the same today. ALL of them).
Hypocrites. All of them.
Church wants to know why “people just don’t want to know Him!”
LOOK IN THE MIRROR. Most people are on to your sham, and the price YOU will pay will be far greater than mine for not “tithing” or “forsaking the gathering”
See Christ in the streets, in the cancer wards…….in the trailer park across town that sits on a toxic waste dump instead of the nonsense there now.
That changing? No way! Popular kids are doing the same thing now at 30,45, and 60 they were when they were in high school. Today its not high school. It’s called church
May it die and a real “take up thy Cross and follow Me” movement grows up. Until that happens, the church gets all it deserves at judgment or from the government.
You are really evil people. I hate you.
Hi Jason,
I agree with your assessment of church. I spent 10 years, attending 4 different churches and feeling shunned in one form or another. I’m too old, too working class, too awkward, too frumpy looking – not cool enough, not needed. I was hurt. Sounds like you were too.
I have not given up. The injunction to not “forsaking the gathering” is quite logical. We need a place to love other people. It’s the be-loved part that seems to be so hurtful.
Here is how I’m handling this.
I’m still attending church sporadically, when I can handle it, as an anonymous visitor until I find a safe place to be. I hope to encounter God there, not people.
I’ve spent some time on forgiveness of those people and churches, by name, in prayer, with repeated effort. This has helped. I now know those church people are people, flawed, full of sin and selfishness. I’m not the problem! They are flawed. But, wait – so am I. Ouch. Now that I know how painful these social things can be, I hope I’m better if I’m ever the insider. I’m now in the place mentally where I could talk with one of those people if I bumped into them. I would not avoid them.
I changed my expectations to expect not being wanted or appreciated. I want nothing except to experience God when I visit a church. Yet, I hope to find a place to give to others someday.
Meanwhile, Church is part of what brought me to “why does God hate me.”
I’m glad you left the places that did not want you. Good decision. Its self-destructive to stay in those environments. It triggered my own depression, anxiety. I saw no path to change, healing, reconciliation. Just like Paul and Barnabas went their separate ways, so I left a few dysfunctional churches.
Hey, I like your idea of studying Jesus on your own. God is still the same. It is just people who are so flawed, even hateful, as they pick their social hierarchies in church families. But you can still pray and you need to interact with God. At least I did, to get back to a healthy place.
I expect you will find a church family in some unexpected place, if you don’t give up. When you do, expect to give love – more than receive. You will find the same flawed humans in that next church. But if you can love them, that might work.
Jason, I hope to meet you someday in Heaven! It will be fun to see you. I won’t reject you. Jesus does not either.
DanS
I don’t appreciate all of these negative comments a out how good hates and we are doomed and that things don’t get better
I don’t need to hear that!
The last few entries about addiction with opioids, meth, heroin and then giving up to the devil, is Satans master lie to drag your soul to hell. I have shot meth, heroin, benzos and booze, BUT GOD has transformed my life into a prayer warrior, to pray deliverance, and delivering my drug addicted friends to sanity
This answer is nonsense. God is the creator of both Good and Evil. He forced this law of opposites on us upon the creation of the world. He is omnipotent and responsible for everything.
To say God allows evil to happen is the same thing as saying he caused it; he is omnipotent. To “allow” a hammer to fall on someone’s foot is just as good as dropping it. Theology can’t just take something God put into action and blame it on man through whom the action comes to pass. That is more insidious than saying he causes my suffering for a reason. That says that God is a conniving scoundrel, who makes me imperfect and then makes me suffer, and puts the blame on me for being imperfect.
My question is, why has God afflicted me with so much evil on top of taking my ability to enjoy the good away? Don’t put blame on me for being created. If Christianity can’t explain this source of evil other than making my status a scapegoat, it’s time I started seeking a better faith. I am tired of crying to the sky in anguish and getting no answer.
Hi Gordon!,
Let me be brave and try to answer you.
We need to change your Christian cosmology.
First God created Angels. They were perfect, beautiful, given every gift. They can see God and they have much knowledge and physical power. From the moment they were created, they were in Heaven with God. They were given free-will and were part of a great community.
Yet some used their free-will and rebelled. They rejected God. (See Luke 10:8, 1 Cor 6:3, Rev 12:7-9 and more). They wanted to be God, and not work for Him. So they use their rejection of God, to justify causing us pain with lies, misleading us. This is part of their rebellion against God. Deep stuff.
Next, God created us. We were given less knowledge, but a simpler task. Don’t eat of one tree. Yet, we wanted the knowledge of good and evil, that rebelling against God provided. We wanted to see for ourselves. (It was not just Adam/Eve who ate of the tree. ALL of us would have tried it. We are all the same, with this free-will and ability to sin. And we choose to sin all time.) So we were sent out of Eden, into a real world where the ground was cursed, woman suffer in childbirth, and we get to see a lot of evil – murder, wars, every form of pain and degradation. We now know a lot about Good and Evil. More than I can stomach. We have experienced it.
Its in this real world, we now live. We are persecuted on every side by human needs, failings, random bad luck and just plain human and perhaps angelic evil. This is our lot in life. As an example, Hitler was not an aberration. In many ways, Hitler was the sick normal of this world. It is the Mother Teresa’s of this world who are the aberrations!
But to your original observation on God creating evil – He did not. There is no yin/yang. Everything thing God created was good. It was a beautiful gift. Our greed for knowledge, lead us into a real world with good/evil in it and lead us into hard work, and pain.
I don’t know what you have been afflicted with. I just want you to know I hate pain. That whatever you are afflicted with is real, and its wrong. Its part of this broken world. From the self-inflicted sin Jesus words are designed to save us from, to the sin of others we can’t avoid, to the evil that simply exists in this real world. Its all real. I grieve for your suffering.
The only solution I know of, is our future and present salvation in Jesus.
In the present you can talk to Jesus, who can understand your pain, since He suffered so much. He does not serve us, so don’t expect your every desire to be met. We serve Him. So expect to serve Him with real struggles and loving others. Matter of fact, that is HOW we serve Him. Don’t let the fallen Angels, wreck your faith, with TV and prosperity Gospel inspired dreams. We are in suffering, we will be in suffering, until the future salvation. Just expect joy and peace in it, from loving others, knowing Jesus and knowing your future.
In the future, you will be in heaven with me, and we can talk about it. Or more accurately, you will talk with Him about your suffering, even though I hope to meet you! We can hopefully forget about the painful parts, but remember all the Good things people did, good things we did when we could, while we are living for an eternity in heaven, in His presence.
Dan
I’m with you Gordon! Several times a year I find myself beyond p*ss*d at God because my life always sucks. I google “Why does God hate me?” and end up somewhere like here reading comments from ppl all over and relating to them on every level. I write a few mean comments to express the rage I feel inside towards God as well as the ppl who feel all warm and toasty inside while defending the God I currently despise, resenting them with every fabric of my soul. I then break out into alligator tears until my eyes are so swollen I can barely keep them open.
Then I remember scriptures that say “you will ask for death and will not find it” or “you will call on God and he will hear you not” and I wonder could I be doing more to get close to God? Am I grateful for what I do have? Am I pushing God further and further away? How often do I help others? How often do I open the Bible and read it? Am I a bad person at heart? Do I have a bad attitude?
The answer is almost always no I am not being the best self I can be. My most peaceful moments I have ever had were when I was reading my Bible daily and for some reason it is difficult to remember or even care enough to do this. Something so simple, yet so hard. Idk know any answers to anything but I can honestly say in my personal experience that reading the Bible has brought to me inner peace regardless of what was going on around me and as soon as I finish this comment I am going to give it a shot and see if it helps. I haven’t even opened a Bible in years.
I hope we both can find some peace and happiness soon. It sucks being in this place.
You born Rich or Poor?
You male or female?
You black or white? not your choice .. Unfair right ?
I don’t hate God and I don’t love God
If there are anything I want. then here what I want
( I don’t want to live this life and I don’t want to live the afterlife I don’t care about paradise and I don’t want to be in hell I want to be non existence forever)
I would read the article but the side slider bar is too small and thus annoying to try and use, all for aesthetics.
I have watched a child abuser prosper while his son suffers in unrelenting agony. God doesn’t care about some people,fact.
Why does God allow so much hurt in this world. Doesn’t he see people being taken advantage of ? Doesn’t he see people being tortured and sold for human traffic? Doesn’t he see people living like pigs?
How could God ignore this? If he existed he would’t allow these bad thing to happen to people.
Humanity’s characterization of God is incorrect and has always been incorrect. God does exist but we have misunderstood what God truly is and have wrongfully placed human attributes unto a God; that’s the truth. God is not human, for God existed before human beings and before the Universe that created human beings ….God doesn’t hate us, we hate ourselves. Bad things happen because it’s the nature of a lawful Universe. We all need to accept that bad stuff happens and find a way to deal with it. We can start by loving each other and helping each other and only then will we truly see how God works, and how God really loves.
Why should you praise GOD if he made you ugly, Life is hard enough for all of us, but being the ugly duckling in this world seams a unfair. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve prayed for death, I truly wish I was never born. WHY is GOD so cruel. I thought GOD loved all of GODS children so why UGLY. Being ugly means people treat you badly. ugly means a long very slow painful death. ugly means your alone for life.
Why should I thank GOD for this life
The truth is there is a God who sees what is going on in the world.God gave perfectly created beings (Adam and Eve ) the right of choice. The knowledge of eternal life or the knowledge of good and evil. Unfortunately they and all of humanity made the wrong choice.It is for this reason that humans suffer on this earth. Christ paid the penalty of death for our sins. As the bible says the wages of sin is death but the gift of eternal life is through Jesus Christ our Lord and savior. Mankind is learning the pain and suffering of living a life without him. Even if we pray to him in faith he will not always answer our prayers. The bible promises a period when the devil will be restrained and we will be reunited with God for an eternal life with him. Humans will then not desire another way as the devil Lucifer did, when he rebelled against God as we will by then all know the fruits and results of living in opposition to God. God does not force us to worship him. We make the choice ourselves. Eternity is a long time and unity and contentment in his government is paramount to a harmonious existence for all. He has made many promises to those who will be there in his Kingdom. Endure your suffering as Christ and all the saints and Profits of old did and you will be rewarded when the time comes. Killing yourself is not an option. It is an easy way out and is pandering to the god of this world the devil. He wants to destroy humanity as he is extremely jealous of us. His hell is a black bottomless pit where he and all the demons will spend eternity in total darkness.Be strong ask God for a right attitude and set your sights on the end goal.
ALL of humanity didn’t choose anything. Supposedly two individuals made a choice which resulted in the suffering and deaths of endless numbers of human beings and creatures, so many that I can not even think of a number to give it. “Ask God to give you the right attitude” That would be a hard concept to sell to the 15,000 children that die slow, painful, agonizing deaths due to starvation EACH and every DAY across the globe while billions of people have homes filled with non essentials bought from evil corporations with evil business practices with the dollars you earned from equally evil companies.
If God does exist and the sign of the beast is true (accepting the world of men 666 vs. accepting of the world of God 777) then just about every person on Earth who buys, sells, or trades with these evil, unethical, money hungry businesses are on a one way trip heading straight to the depths of hell. Furthermore people who stack up wealth on any level and turn a blind eye to suffering will also get a ticket. According to the Bible “those who say they know me I will say to them I never knew you…” and “…anyone who would cause harm to any child would be better off throwing themselves into the sea… Woe unto anyone with 4 tv’s, 3 smart phones, and a Netflix subscription while people are suffering and dying everywhere. Narrow is the way, few there be that find it.
If God exists, most of you folks that think your Christians will have a rude awakening coming their way.
God doesn’t hate you – but he’s not going to put up with your whiny bull either. If anything, you probably hate yourself, but need someone else to blame — and of course you choose God. Grow up. You’re an adult!
The truth is god won’t do jack shit about anything. One big man in the sky, he gave up after the last verse of the Bible was written. Who cares, religion is just a scam now. Give money, give time, for what? Spiritual righteousness. We have the leaders of Islam in middle Easter countries wanting to declare war on non Islamic countries, and a centuries long war between TWO SECTS OF THE SAME RELIGION trying to destroy each other. The world would,just be better if we all died.
God never gave a good single man like me a wife and family which would have been normal to have since i really hate being single to begin with. So many other men were very blessed and lucky to have that. So why would God punish me this way?
Why did I end up on this site? We all know that if there is a god, we would have known about him. This crap that we have been brainwashed with to believe in from small is nothing other than playing with peoples emotions and to control people. Sick world we live in – sick people too.
It sadness me to see adults still believing in the jesus story – do they really believe in santa and the easter bunny too?
There is no proof and I will not follow crap like this.
My son is 14 and he already knows that there is no santa, jesus, easter bunny, batman, etc…
Having read alot of these replies of feeling suicidal at times feeling depressed when being dragged into a church and when the service is over it goes away. Feeling rejected and disregarded by god even turning to praying to satan at times even because i as so angry desperate and sad. I didnt know so many others have felt this way too. In a way these make me feel like Im not the only one who has gone thru these things. I sometimes worry tho what if its true that God really does care , I would feel so bad if God really did care about me .
Stop being hurt. You are hurting for nothing. There is no man with a beard in the sky waiting to hug you and take away all your pain. There simply is no god. It does not even deserve a capital letter. In the beginning, there was nothing. Nothing. Well there always had to be something. But it was not one being looking to create humans because he wants to show us love. god doesn’t put on you more than you can handle. False. god doesn’t abandon you. If you seek him he will show you who he is. False. god is good all the time. I’m sure thats what the jews were thinking while being gassed. But your here now. Might as well make the best of your time on this @#$% hole.
you start off why are some people so oppressed and have bad things and diseased etc……. then you summarize with people are all beautiful. and all capable in different ways// but not one of this says why one guy has a genetic illness or etc.. no fault of their own and cant walk and feed themselves.. and oh they are beautiful.. so it doesnt matter because – its what society perceives and it not real// BUt what is real – is their suffering and not by other people – i am sick and sick as hell- and with no society i have suffering each day and no one;s hand – but yes no one gives ,me sympathy and the drs cant fathom my discomfort and suffering…. you know nothing.. GOD sucks is a worthless piece of evil #$%*.. no one – no one can judge and no human is empathetic or sympathetic unless they have had pain and suffering themselves – there is no way one can equate good without bad.. but everyone does – when they have had no bad.. what they think is bad is nothing.. compared to the cross true @$$#%*! suffer at the hands of god. and this #$%& the good die young – you can try to say that about anyone.. that is myth – there are good people who do die young and there are good people who live for ever.. – but living sick for ever is hell. and makes the person real god — I AM GOD>>> i am god.. god is evil and i will kill him when i meet his dirty pathetic loser @#%. he is no one he knows nothing and is not in control other than playing like a little boy with toys and tools he does not understand.. god is a baby a dangerous baby with a loaded 357.. that is what god is.. and he is going to hurt lots of people.
God is not evil, real the scripture, it will tell you what is going on. That is, if you can believe it.
God is not evil, read the scripture, it will tell you what is going on. That is, if you can believe it.
Calvinism: God is sovereign, HE is responsible for everything. Including letting Satan off the hook for the evil he has done at this time and well into the future. Read Amos 8: 11, HE has decided to allow a famine of faith to happen. People die and go to HELL at this time, because HE will not let them come to faith. HE will not send the Holy Spirit to them to convict them of sin.
I’ve just seen this now & what you need to know is God does not let bad things happen to anyone. Even when persecution comes to the child of God it is not from Him. Would a truly loving father want to do anything bad to their children? Of course not. Why bad things happen in this world? If I as an authority over a particular house handed over to you all the authority & influence I wielded over the house, it becomes your responsibility to take charge over the house & if you misuse that authority or give it over to another terrible person, the house & everything in it will be damaged & destroyed not because of me who gave you responsibility over it, but because of you who misused the authority given to you over it. Now that’s exactly what happened at the beginning, man (through Adam) was given dominion over this earth & everything therein, but he handed this dominion over to the devil who has done the damage ever since then. Now unlike man who sometimes when they give you something they can take it back, when God gives you something it is yours for good, He doesn’t take it back. So when he gave man authority it was man’s for good. Now God sent his son Jesus to undo the damage that man had done, but the effect of his finished work can only be felt when man receives Jesus. If you reject him you’ve simply rejected the solution to your very problem
You see this is absurd, but I’ll tell you this, whether you throw tantrums & get angry at God over what you’re going through or over what evil things are going on in the world, it will not change anything about who God is, he remains love & will keep seeking to let you embrace the true revelation of him that you’ve never experienced, instead the anger worsens everything about you & how you feel, & you remain entrapped in your own prison of grief, anger, depression & all kinds of damaging emotions. Jesus put it this way, which of you by worrying can add anything to your stature. God comes to liberate anyone & everyone that receives him because they have the choice to either receive or reject him. From your comment it’s clear that you’ve really gone through a lot but you don’t have to remain that way, in Christ Jesus there’s complete healing available. I mean complete healing physical, spiritual, emotional. Doctors, science & generally man have all concluded that there are some incurable diseases or conditions, that is man’s conclusion based on experiences, the Lord on the other hand has never ever concluded anything as impossible. He says to you, “come unto me all you that labor & are heavy laden & I will give you rest, take my yoke upon you & learn of me, for I am meek & lowly in heart, & ye shall find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy & my burden is light”-Mathew 11:28-30. That is Jesus for you, he’s not as you’ve been convinced by the hardships you’ve experienced or seen around you. You’re blessed Jim Wolf
Committing suicide is never the right solution because you’re eliminating any hope for you to discover if there is any alternative solution to the present problems you’re going through. What if you have been living a lie all your life & you choose to commit suicide, you’ll have destroyed all hope left for you to ever discover the truth. Don’t let the deceiver, the devil or present bad circumstances or even any person ever rove you of this privilege no matter how tough things may be. There’s a glorious life that so many people are still oblivious to, one that many are yet to discover. Some have tasted it faintly, others not at all, others are yet to, some have experienced a counterfeit or a form of it that is not the real deal, that life is & is in Christ. Know this one thing, there are people living that life, why shouldn’t you.
From Father Mulchahey on M.A.S.H.
God created us so that he could be here himself. So that he could exist in the lives of those that he created in his own image.
The scripture says, we walk by faith and not by sight. Faith in the name of Jesus has moved many evil people out of my life. God is waiting for the human race to just believe. He promised to be with us even unto the end of time. For without faith and belief, it is impossible to please God. at lease that is what the scripture says.
This was is one of the most disheartening blogs I have ever read. Who ever is still reading this blog, please here me. I found this Blog because I was and am struggling with very similar issues. I am not someone speaking from the “outside”. I am you in many ways. I found this blog because I was scrambling to find answers of my own, about the sorrows in my life. They have lasted what seems like a life time.
It got to the point where I despaired of my life. My failures mounted. The rejections I faced kept mounting without cease. I had nothing left to give. After decades of trying, and praying, fasting, and reading, I was finally done. This life had worn me down. I did not care if I woke up the next day. In fact, I asked GOD not to wake me up the next day. I didn’t have the strength to face another day if it was going to be like the last. When you are suffering something, for such a long time, it is almost impossible to see any hope, any light at the end of the Tunnel. I was looking down the Tunnel, and it was pitch black.
I am not a “beautiful” person. Never have been. As much as I tried to become what I wasn’t, nothing worked. I’ve been told to me face, as a Kid, as a Teen, and as an Adult, that I’m ugly. No kid should ever hear those words. But I did. Several times during the course of my life.
So I NEVER had confidence or a high esteem of myself. The years where you develop those things were taking away from me with ridiculement. Words do hurt. They hurt more then sticks and stones. A word thrown at you as a kid, can bruise you for a lifetime. I could not outrun my pass, my present, and I saw no future. I prayed to God many times, through tears on my he created me this way.
Why did he forsake me physically as Child, a Teen, and as an Adult to suffer the kind of torment I endured. I did not get an answer, and like you, the words in the Bible as it pertain to my struggles, slowly started to become just that. Words. Words in a book. I’ve seen what God had done for others. But I no longer cared about what he did for others. I was ready for him to do it for me now. Make it real for me now. Make it become more then just words for me. I want to live what you did for them. I have no more words to Pray. I’m all out. I’ve exhausted my entire vocabulary. I have no more eloquent speech. My prayers were desperate and to the point.
Reading these comments, I found myself without any wisdom to share to ease the suffering some of you were enduring. I wanted to help. I wanted to minister. I wanted to provide a soothing word. A healing word. A word of comfort. But I was unable, because I could not even ease the pain that was going on in the inside of myself. I prayed that night (next night actually). Not just for me, but for the other people who’s comments I read on this board. What can you say to a person that’s broken, and the words in the Bible are no longer encouraging to a person who is living in sorrows? I Prayed to God while lying flat on my back.
And the Lord took me to Isaiah 53:2-3: 1″He grew up before Him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no stately form or majesty to attract us, no beauty that we should desire Him. 3″He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief. Like one from whom men hide their faces, He was despised, and we esteemed Him not”
Me being rejected as a Child, as a Teen, and as an Adult. Being despised. Me being falsely judged. Being Abandoned. Not being anything wonderful to look at. Was all that Jesus was. God did not create me “wrong”, he created me perfectly. In the likeness of his Son.
Brothers and Sisters. I acknowledge your sorrows and validate them, though I do not know your situations personally. I know you have prayed. I will not tell you to Pray more. Instead, I would advise you to Pray different. Don’t pray for the pain to end. It’s there. God allowed it to be. If he did not want it there, he would remove it at this time. My whole life I’ve been praying for him to take this away. But what I deemed to be a “curse”, was really a blessing. I’ve always wanted to do something great with my life. This is something that has always held me back. My insecurities, my infirmities, my loneliness, has always been a thorn in my flesh. It was not until now, at this very moment, I’ve been free from a chain that has been around my neck since a child. I will GLADLY be rejected like Christ. I will GLADLY be despised by men like Christ. I will GLADLY be nothing special to look at like Christ. I will GLADLY be falsely judged like Christ. A man of sorrows. That’s how the book of Isaiah describes Jesus. If you are suffering in Christ, you are suffering with him. He has found you WORTHY to suffer for his name sake.
The Apostle rejoiced with they were beaten in front of the Sanhedrin and released. The Bible says they rejoiced because they were found worthy to suffer for the name of Jesus. Rejoice in your suffering. Not for the pain. Not for the anguish. Not for the toll it has taking on you emotionally, spiritually, physically, and psychologically. But for the honor that you have been found WORTHY to suffer in his name. It is our cross to bear. We are carrying our own personal cross to Cavalry as he did. Beating. Dehydrated. Thirsty. Exhausted. But we can make it. He will give us the Grace to make it. I love you all who are in Christ.
Don’t take your life. You have a great story to tell that will heal someone I promise you. Some of you could write a book I’m sure on your sorrows that would help someone greatly. But please, never believe God does not care about your situation. I’ve been down that road.
God does not do things mindlessly as we do. He does not allow turmoil for the sake of turmoil. There is a reason. I don’t know them all. I’d be lying to you if I said I did. But to be like Jesus, you must be rejected like Jesus. You must be despised by men like Jesus was. You must suffer unfair judgement and persecutions like Jesus did. You must suffer grief like Jesus did. And you must suffer sorrows like Jesus did. That’s what it takes to be like Jesus. He pushed through these things on his way to the cross.
If any of you in Christ take your lives, you hurt the whole body. You are unique. No one can fill your shoes or replace what you are called to bring to the table. And if you don’t endure to the end while carrying your cross, the body of Christ will suffer because you are unique. And no once can fill your shoes or replace what you are called to do in Christ in the way that only you can do it. Because you are special.
I pray that what I wrote touches someone, anyone who desperate in Christ. I will continue to pray for those on commented and shared their story on this blog.
According to the Bible it is not true that people walked in faith alone. In the Old Testament GOD himself was actually present. Suspended in the air in the form of burning flames or transfigured into some other wonderment. In the New Testament there was Jesus who was GOD in the form of a human being who performed endless miracles witnessed by masses of people. According to the Bible there was tangible evidence of Gods existence back then. Conveniently, in the modern world, a time when evidence is more important than ever. In a time when psychological warfare and propaganda is more prominent than ever….we have nothing. No miracles, no burning flames or bushes, no angels, no Jesus…nada. Why can’t Christians see this for what it really is? Either God doesn’t exist at all or He is quite literally the most evil entity known to man responsible for the deaths of every human being that ever lived as well as every form of suffering by every living creature that ever existed in time.
Reading this thread made me realize, I am not alone in this world. God has definitely created a group of people for Him and His favorites to kick around. Unfortunately, whatever we do is not going to please Him. How much ever good we are, He is going to ignore that. He is going to encourage only them and overlook their miscreants. We struggle hard to prove our worth and it’s all a joke for Him. We have to live this life with constant fear of what and how strong our next misery be. We are the leftovers. We will have to accept this and live. There is absolutely no point in fighting… How much ever we fight hard, He is going to throw more perils in our path. Just stop and let us be His torturing toy. At least we are serving that purpose.
It brakes my heart to read these stories. I read over and over how God hates, I have to admit there are times I felt this way but the Bible clearly states it’s the devil who kills steals and destroys. He wants one to believe God hates you it’s a lie of the devil. My life started as a bastard who was molested by family friend, a mother who hated the world and me only person she loved was her! And yes I felt rejected, I have question God I admit, but if you believe in God the Bible is the book to read to know him, it clearly states his love for us, it also states as Christians we will have troubles in this world. It is satin who hates us and blames it on God. Don’t believe this lie! It’s just what he wants and to be honest I still pray for God to show me his love I felt such rejection as a child and I believe this has a profound effect on how I see God. I pray he changes that and I pray for each person on this blog. Don’t give up as hard as it is to believe God is the only one who truly loves you the most! God bless You all.
The better question is “Why did God make me __ (black, gay, ugly, undesirable to this society) and throw me into a society where all these things are seen as negative attributes?” Nobody has a real answer to that. “Why did God make me __?” Alone by itself is easy to answer, as said in the article, there’s nothing inherently wrong with those attributes, but they are painted in a negative light in our society. So the real question is why would God tack on these attributes to people knowing that society would hate, mistreat and even kill them for it? That doesn’t seem very loving. Seems as though God threw marginalized people to the wolves.
Since coming in to believing it feels that I am alone my mom who was molest by one of these being in her sleep and for a second I seen blood then there was none. As a child I had been abused only to have my children and girl friend ripped from me. It then trysts to say I’m its f ca there you know trying to state the father god killed his son and so on. I am poor been born that way & yet it’s like the Ritchie do what ever they want no penalty so why is it the poor are the only ones made to suffer?
Jesus came to change people in their hearts . That change must be real.
Suffering is real and personal but so was jesus cruel death.
We all have a personal fight , a spiritual path.toward christ . Do not depend on prayer
But meet christ on the cross to live.
If God truly cared for his “creation” he would’ve started over. God is a narcissist and it’s all about him. If he is that powerful, why not make it an even playing field for everyone?
He actually did start over with the flood. Everyone basically died. The only reason that he had not started over again is because he made a promise that he would not condemn all of humanity again. And to show that he still cares for his creation he has given us an easier path through Christ who died for our sins.
This world sucks,you don’t get rewards for being a good person, instead you get punished. If you ask me what I think about GOD is, unjust and unfair. Don’t tell me GOD loves me because I don’t think GOD does. I’ve been set on fire, I’ve had a finger ripped off my body, I short fat and ugly, my best friend committed suicide, my father died when I was 7 and There isn’t any love in my world never had any, and it’s not that I didn’t try. Knowing GOD loves you doesn’t mean a thing in this world of hell. My whole life has been a joke, right from the start. I do wish I was never existed. I didn’t ask to be here and I pray for death after 52 year of this. Why does GOD pick winner and hate the others, there isn’t fair play in this world.
Untrue. God is not real! Lol
If God is not real, how come of all people that tried to prove he is not real became a believer themselves. Even people that do not believe in God say that Jesus was a real person. And if this is true the there and only three ways this plays out. He was a liar and and a hypocrite for telling about God and the sins of the world, or he was a lunatic and he thought he was Gods son, or he was truly the son of God. If Jesus was a liar or a lunatic why would so many people believe him. It is impossible to make believe in something like that especially the number of people involved. The only explanation is that Jesus is the son of God.
God is not real! Lol
I was created in the image of god so I am BUTT F***ING UGL I have never been liked or LOVED. My mother abandoned me. My father said cruel things to me. I have absolutely NO FRIENDS BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO BE NEAR REPULSIVE. I AM REPULSIVE AND THAT IS WORSE THAN UGLY. GOD IS EVIL AND and said if I want to stop suffering I HAVE TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE GOD REFUSES TO LOVE ME AND NO ONE ELSE WILL. SO WHY AM I STILL ALIVE?????? I live on government benefits because I am so repulsive I can’t get a job. I have to beg for money on the streets to survive. I don’t drink. I don’t smoke. I went to an evangelical church for many years and I still have NO FRIENDS BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO BE NEAR REPULSIVE. God NEVER EVER EVER loved me because if he did I would be loved by at least one person. I am an only child with no cousins and NO FRIENDS BECAUSE I AM SO REPULSIVE. GOD IS EVIL AND AND MENTALLY ILL. I WANT TO DIE BECAUSE THIS IS NOT LIFE I LIVE IN A REPULSIVE PRISON CALLED MY FUGLY FACE. SATAN DESERVES PRAISE NOT GOD.
I am so repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross and unworthy of ever being liked or LOVED. No one HAS ever loved me. I was born on the crappiest day of the year, December 25 and NO ONE LOVES ME THAT I HAVE NEVER HAD A BIRTHDAY PARTY, I spend my crappy birthday and Christmas ALONE SO VERY ALONE BECAUSE I AM SO REPULSIVE AND HAVE NO FRIENDS. 49 YEARS OF BEING REPULSIVE. I WANT TO DIE. GOD SAID I HAVE TO KILL MYSELF to stop suffering. GOD told me to kill myself. GOD SAID he never LOVED me. GOD SAID I am unworthy of ever being liked or LOVED. GOD told me I will always be HATED because I am so repulsive. Even my psychiatrist said there is no FIX for ugly and it’s my FAULT for being such a loser. My psychiatrist said I can’t FIX UGLY. Not even surgery????? I must be that repulsive. GOD IS EVIL AND NEVER EVER EVER loved me and he never will. So when I die cremate me and flush me down the toilet because I am SHIT. And shit goes in the toilet. That’s how much God loves me THAT my remains will be flushed down the toilet because that’s what god DID for me. NOTHING. PROVE me wrong!!!!!!!!!!!
What every or who ever told you that God does not love you is a liar or is foolish to say so. No matter who you are, no matter what you have done will not make God love you any less. I know this for a fact. I have seen people from all walks of life who came to God from whatever it was, thieves, addicts, and so many more that have been changed by Gods grace. If you do not believe me I give you this Romans 5:6-8 says, “You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” While we were yet sinners… when we least deserved it… when we were not “worth it” by any earthly standard… that is the very time when Christ made the greatest sacrifice and showed the most powerful act of love in all of history. If you would like to discus this with me more I would be happy to show you more verses and testimonies that will show you that you are worth it to God. God bless you.
I know why god IGNORED Cain and FAVOURED Abel because Cain wasn’t as pretty as Abel. GOD plays favourites. GOD only likes pretty. Only pretty things are wanted and desired and LOVED. but god created me so repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross and unworthy of ever being liked or LOVED. Others on here have family. I have NOTHING AND NO ONE. I AM SO VERY ALONE ANS AND UNLOVED BECAUSE I AM SO REPULSIVE. HOW can you think that god loves if he doesn’t even love me AND DON’T say that he does because I have done nothing so wrong that even as a child, a 4 year old girl NO ONE LIKED me. I was picked on and ignored. And UNLOVED!!!!!!!!! WHY????????? BECAUSE GOD IS EVIL And you must be decent looking because YOU try to convince people that god is good but ask the UGLY and repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross and unworthy people like me, god NEVER EVER EVER loved any of us OR we wouldn’t be in this position and we wouldn’t be depressed for over 33 YEARS because we would all be LOVED. But what did I do so wrong that even as a child I have never been liked or LOVED????????????????? Tell me. You can’t because god, jehovah, is a LYING sack of CRAP. Jehovah NEVER EVER EVER loved me. Jehovah said I gotta kill myself if I want to stop suffering. Jehovah said I gotta kill myself. GOD told me I am a worthless piece of CRAP and my existance is pointless. I don’t matter. I am nothing. I don’t exist. For this, my soul NOW and forever belong to Satan. I renounce jehovah yahweh jesus allah god whatever STUPID name he chooses to be called. He said I gotta kill myself if I want to die. GOD said suicide is the only way. Jehovah said suicide is the BEST thing I could do. Jehovah said I am so repulsive and a loser I will NEVER be loved. Jehovah said I am a loser and worthless. Jehovah tells me EVERY SINGLE DAY that I will NEVER be loved and I should KILL MYSELF. Jehovah said it. GOD told me all that. Jehovah wants me to DIE but he won’t help. Jehovah said he NEVER EVER EVER loved me. Jehovah said I am never going to be a real person because I am so repulsive that people are afraid of me. People recoil if I get to close as if they too will be repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross and unworthy of ever being liked or LOVED. People recoil if I get to close because I ooze UGLY. Jehovah is a sick prick. I am beyond UGLY. I have NO REASON TO live. But god insists on torturing me daily by reminding me THAT every one else can have LOVE and a family and friends because even the television is full of it BUT I sit here ALONE day after day in my crappy apartment, lonely and crying every day several times a day because I have no reason to live. I want to die now. BUT god loves to torture me. That’s god’s love for me, to leave me so very alone in this world. WHY did he make me so HATED. Donald Trump has MORE people that like and love him than I do and I am not NASTY like him. Help me. Pray to your god and ask him to let me DIE.
You are very correct – about god only rewards superficial – and hates everything against it….. god sucks – period. he is superficial popularity contest highschooler messing with the universe when he knows nothing – he is a child.. the real god.. is not god.. he is a fool. playing with toys.. you and me..
Did you pray for my death????? Please please convince jehovah to let me DIE. My soul doesn’t belong to him. I gave my soul to Satan about 10 years ago. GOD doesn’t deserve it because jehovah treats me like CRAP and never LOVED me so he can’t have it. Jehovah made me a FUGLY LOSER and NOBODY likes me EVER because no one likes repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross and unworthy. I am so repulsive and disgusting and nasty and gross I make myself sick looking in the mirror which is only a few seconds because I am NASTY. I am so very alone. So lonely. For over 45 YEARS OF BEING ALONE and lonely because no one likes me. As a child I was hated and unloved and ignored. God never loved me. God hates me. God is EVIL. God is cruel. God must also be disgusting and nasty and gross and repulsive because he created ME in his NASTY disgusting repulsive image, butt f***ING UGLY. Mosses hair turned white because the sight of god was scary and nasty and gross and repulsive. I look like NASTY jehovah. I want to die. Pray for me to DIE tonight in my sleep. My soul doesn’t belong to god and when I die I left a note to be cremated and flushed down the toilet because that’s what I am. Worthless NASTY poop. And poop goes down the toilet. Jehovah makes me HATE myself so much. I HATE me. I HATE being around me. I HATE looking at me. GOD HATES ME too. God hates me so much I HATE myself for being HATED. Pray for my death. Pray to YOUR god and tell him to let me DIE NOW.
The truth is we are all alone. God pointed Job out to the enemy. An entire generation left Egypt, yet only two crossed Jordan.
Only “thy will be done” makes sense, but that’s unknowable.
Eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die. In the dark. Alone.
GOD made unattractive I don’t understand why I was punished in to this ugly shell, I didn’t ask to be born, Why does GOD keep me alive what is the point. Dyeing alone seams senseless, where is GODS love for the ugly a damned life is wrong..
Calvinism is a correct view of God, HE sovereignly causes all human diseases as a result of HIS hatred for humanity. Our sins make HIM angry. Destroying humanity would only leave HIM alone. HE enjoys causing human suffering and pain. Walk by faith HE says so I can cause you all more pain. Infants that suffer are proof that HE is a sadist.
Reading the other comments on this article makes me conclude that Christianity is not becoming irrelevant, it is irrelevant and has never been anything but irrelevant. The reputation of the Hebrew god Almighty is being flushed out of peoples minds world wide. World Wars, political murders, dishonest governments, dishonest government employees, dishonest ungodly child murdering Jesuit bankers with their ungodly Papist gangster allies for decades and centuries. HE does nothing but watch and eat HIS popcorn, it is a movie to HIM.
This msg. Is to `tired of it. Please understand that each person walking on earth was dealt a particular hand. Some hands are clearly better than others, and some are very bad hands, almost unplayable. Yet and still, once you throw out the bad cards, you have a chance on getting better ones on the next deal. It’s the same for everyone. You play the hand your delt, and make the best out of what you have been given.
Friends, everyone on this planet is in a spiritual battle.
Ephesians 6:12, “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”
Let me explain some truths that will help you in battling the forces that are vying for your very soul.
Settle these things in your hearts, now.
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The 1611 King James Bible is God’s Promised preserved Word
Psalm 12:6-7, “The words of the LORD are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Thou shalt keep them, O LORD, thou shalt preserve them from this generation for ever.”
How do we know this?
Because the seven English versions that make up the first English Bibles, including the Authorized Version, fit the description in Psalm 12:6, of the words of the Lord being “purified seven times”.
1. the Tyndale Bible
2. the Matthew’s Bible
3. the Coverdale Bible
4. the Great Bible (printed by Whitechurch)
5. the Geneva Bible
6. the Bishops’ Bible
This makes the 1611 KJV, the 7th English Bible, and so is confirmed to be God’s promised, preserved Word, purified 7 times.
* Further details of Research: https://www.biblebelievers.com/Vance5.html
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The 400 years of the KJV
The KJV has been the Word of God in the english language, for over 400 years.
The Saints have trusted in it for their very souls.
Would God let His people follow a corrupt book for over 400 years?
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God hates lieing
Proverbs 6:16-19, “These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him:
A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.”
Proverbs 12:19, “The lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment.”
Colossians 3:9, “Lie not one to another, seeing that ye have put off the old man with his deeds;”
Proverbs 13:5, “A righteous man hateth lying: but a wicked man is loathsome, and cometh to shame.”
Proversb 14:5, “A faithful witness will not lie: but a false witness will utter lies.”
If God hates, lieing, then how can He lie?
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God will not go against His own Word
Psalm 138:2, “I will worship toward thy holy temple, and praise thy name for thy lovingkindness and for thy truth: for thou hast magnified thy word above all thy name.”
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It is impossible for God to Lie
Numbers 23:19, “God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?”
Titus 1:2, “In hope of eternal life, which God, that cannot lie, promised before the world began;”
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The Word of God praises Truth
Proverbs 3:3, “Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart: “
Proverbs 8:7, “For my mouth shall speak truth; and wickedness is an abomination to my lips.”
Proverbs 12:17, “He that speaketh truth sheweth forth righteousness: but a false witness deceit.”
Proverbs 12:19, “The lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment.”
Proverbs 14:22, “Do they not err that devise evil? but mercy and truth shall be to them that devise good.”
Proverbs 16:6, “By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil.”
Proverbs 20:28, “Mercy and truth preserve the king: and his throne is upholden by mercy.”
Proverbs 23:23, “Buy the truth, and sell it not; also wisdom, and instruction, and understanding.”
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The Word of God is the Truth
Proverbs 22:21, “That I might make thee know the certainty of the words of truth; that thou mightest answer the words of truth to them that send unto thee?”
John 17:17, “Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.”
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God does not change
Malachi 3:6, “For I am the LORD, I change not; therefore ye sons of Jacob are not consumed.”
Psalm 102:27, “But thou art the same, and thy years shall have no end.”
The God of the Old Testament, is the God of the New Testament. He does not change.
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Jesus Christ is the Living Word of God
John 1:1-3, ”
(1) In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
(2) The same was in the beginning with God.
(3) All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.”
1 John 1:1-3, “
(1) That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life;
(2) (For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness, and shew unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us;)
(3) That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ.”
John 8:32, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”
John 8:46, “Which of you convinceth me of sin? And if I say the truth, why do ye not believe me?”
John 8:55, “Yet ye have not known him; but I know him: and if I should say, I know him not, I shall be a liar like unto you: but I know him, and keep his saying.”
John 14:6, “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”
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So why did I type all these scriptures?
The point is, God can not lie. One reason is that He hates lieing.
Another is that God can not change from this state.
And the fact that Jesus Christ, is the Living Truth.
So if God can not lie, and actually hates it, then who is lieing to you?
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The devil is a liar, a thief, a confuser, and the author of them
John 8:44, “Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.”
John 10:10, “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.”
1 Corinthians 14:33, “For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints.”
If the devil’s lips are moving, he is lieing. There is no truth in him. The fall of man started because of the lie the devil told eve. And he has never stopped lieing to man ever since.
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Salvation is a Must
If you are not a Child of God, then repent of your sins, turn from your evil ways, and get born into the Kingdom of God first.
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How to Be Saved
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Acts 17:30, “And the times of this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent:”
– God commands all men and women to repent.
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Isaiah 64:6, “But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.”
– All our ‘good works’ are as filthy rags to God. Why? Because it is our will, and not His.
– After we are saved, then we are able to do good works, thru the Holy Ghost, by walking in Him.
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Colossians 2:14, “Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross…”
– Jesus paid for our sins on the cross, by suffering and dieing on it.
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John 6:44, “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day.”
– God has to draw you to Jesus.
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Acts 3:19, “Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord…”
– Repent of your sins, be converted(born again), and start your walk on the narrow way.
(Matthew 7:13 / Luke 13:24)
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Acts 4:12, “Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.”
– Jesus Christ is the only way to be saved from the Final Judgment of God, that must come.
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Acts 2:38, “Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.”
– Repent of your sins, and be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ, and receive the Holy Ghost.
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Romans 10:9-10,13, ”
(9) That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
(10) For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation…
(13) …For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”
– Confess your sins before God, believe with all thine heart that God raised Jesus from the dead, and ye shall be saved.
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For Those Who Are Christs
My friends, if you ever in your life turned your life to Christ (repented of your sins and forsook them), then the devil is the one that has been telling you that God hates you.
The devil would love to convince you to kill yourself, so he can have the pleasure of watching you burn in hell with him forever. (Revelation 20:14-15 / 1 Corinthians 3:17)
The Truth is, you must believe that the Word of God is True.
If you are reading newer translations, then stop it.
They have changed the Word’s of God around, some ever so slightly: Those are the most dangerous of them all.
Read His promised, preserved Word for the English Speaking World. (1611 KJV based)
A multitude of brothers and sisters before, have trusted in that Book for their very souls, over the last 400 years. Shouldn’t we?
His Word is Truth and can not change. Believe with all of your heart that it is True, because it is!
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The Heavy Price for Changing God’s Word
Acts 13:10, “And said, O full of all subtilty and all mischief, thou child of the devil, thou enemy of all righteousness, wilt thou not cease to pervert the right ways of the Lord?”
Proverbs 30:5-6, “(5) Every word of God is pure: he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him. (6) Add thou not unto his words, lest he reprove thee, and thou be found a liar.“
Revelation 22:18-19, “(18) For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book:(19) And if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and from the things which are written in this book.”
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Christian, if you are tired of satan’s lies, then stop believing them!
God does not, and can not lie, by His own very nature.
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A prayer for everyone here on this Website
Father in Heaven, in the name of Jesus Christ, I bind and cast out every vexing, oppressing, and possessing unclean spirit and devil from the people that have posted on this website.
I ask you Father to remove every hex, vex, or curse that has been cast upon any of these people, and to free them from them; even to heal those who are in terrible physical, mental, and emotional pain, and for them to give thanks for it and praise your Holy Name.
And Father God, to give these people a refreshing by your Spirit, for them to get up and press on to do your will, that they were created for, before the foundation of the world.
Father, your Word says that a just man falls down 7 times, but gets back up. I believe this because you can not lie, and I compel my brothers and sisters in Christ, to get up!
And for those who are not saved and lost, I ask for the Holy Ghost to come upon them, to convict them of their sins towards thee, and to break their hearts for a true repentance, to save them from the Wrath to come.
I pray all of these words in the name of Jesus Christ’s Holy Name, Amen.
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Hebrews 10:23-25, “(23) Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;) (24) And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works:
(25) Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.”
Find you a good King James Bible believing church that does not compromise.
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Joshua 23:8, “But cleave unto the LORD your God, as ye have done unto this day.”
Revelation 2:25, “But that which ye have already hold fast till I come.”
2 Timothy 1:13, “Hold fast the form of sound words, which thou hast heard of me, in faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:21, “Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.”
2 Thessalonians 2:15, “Therefore, brethren, stand fast, and hold the traditions which ye have been taught, whether by word, or our epistle.”
Hold on to your faith, to receive that Crown of Life promised to those who endure til the end.
(Matthew 10:22, 24:13 / Revelation 2:7, 2:11, 2:17, 2:26, 3:5, 3:12, 3:21, 21:7)
So, your saying life is basically hell , and we are to battle evil for eternity.. then how do explain the rewards and luck people who do not deserve it? they are just over-looked from the hell the rest of good people who choose to battle evil.. you make no sense.
Romans 1 says that all men are without excuse of believing and knowing God. Romans 9 says some believe and some are damned. So if you have a bible or can get one you should read it and make your calling and election sure(1 Peter).
There is ZERO HOPE for me and my mom. I am 48 and for the life of me land a doable job to keep us from being homeless again. NO MONEY,CAR,JOB,FAMILY FRIENDS…My health is bad….hernia mesh gone wrong,I need about 6 chiro adjustments for a very painful out of place rib…..cant move around to well,liver is bad from drinking….i dont drink anymore for the last two years……I am done for.All that is left..and I am sorry mom….but I cant even get dr. to look at my hernia without saying it is all in my mind.Let alone a dr. in general………..I have a gun.I hope it does the job of ending it…I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!
About par for me too – But I bet my list of @@#$% would run circles around your problems – but by no means is your @#$% not way ^&*(ed up bad enough to end it all.. But , I ant going tell you lies and say dude get your @#$% together.. and fight on.. – because its obviously not that simple or in fact its impossible. maybe without health bull you can get by the rest.. but you have no support system and have no health – and no money.. it ant really any way to go down from there.. death is a welcome proposition from there.
This is just such intellectually dishonest blog post, summarizes the church quite well. You essentially say – god doesn’t hate you, people hate you. That may be very well be so, but ethically it is the same question. Why does God allow us people to suffer given that he has the capacity to fix the suffering? The natural conclusion is that god is evil or a different flavour of it, he hates us. It is the equivalent of seeing a person slowly and agonizingly dying from sickness, having the cure and choosing not to help the person, just watching them slowly, painfully die.
Thank you so much for posting this. I think this really puts things into a different light. I mean, I have read about this stuff before but the way you write just makes it clearer, if that makes sense
Being a single man is enough punishment as it is by God, especially when God said that man should never be alone. So much for that.
Yep out here we teach kids how to respect GOD
GOD to me is not a man in the sky. Our Creator Doesnt exist. We are a Phenomenon, Our Brain and Heart and Spinal Cord, All use Electricity to function and so does the rest of the body. There are so many things I could mention as a miracle,yet were just mere chance. I do believe in evolution. I wish that I could finally be convinced in a god. The only concept of god I have are electrons flowing in copper.
There Are so many different beams of energy flowing through the universe Frequencys Amplitudes. Millions upon Trillions of stars so far away/ with planets. Why is this planet so special. I dont want to praise a god that made me lucky. Screw that.. While we blow eachother apart. GOD WAS CREATED BY MAN TO EXPLAIN WHAT MAN DIDNT KNOW AT THE TIME.
A($%^&ing)MEN brother
Psalm 19:1, ”
To the chief Musician, A Psalm of David. The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament sheweth his handywork.”
It is foolish to say there is no God.(Psalm 14:1)
I just would like to know why even though I try every day to live my life correctly, god continually s%^&s on me?
I turn the other cheek for things all the time, up to and including a cheating wife who left me for another guy and abandoned our daughter, and I can’t catch a break for literally a minute but methheads get offended and lash out and nothing goes wrong for them.
I stayed faithful my ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP INCLUDING MARRIAGE only to get cheated on multiple times.
I helped my mom get a car with my credit, and she lwt the payments default.
I give to others and can’t save a dollar.
I work hard only to be pressed more and more or told my work isn’t enough or isn’t good enough, even though the lazy people at my job can’t seem to lift a finger.
My in laws have torn me down for XYZ only to turn around and ask for favors.
So why?
I pray for others, NEVER FOR MYSELF, save for strength and perseverance.
U try to do every thing I can to live by the straight and narrow, I take care of my child, I take care of others, I help any and everyone and god seems determined to NEVER LET UP!!!!!
You want to know why Google statistics says the question “why does god hate me” is the top googles search on the subject?
Because god seems to s!@#$ all over people who try to do good, but gives rapists, murderers, swindlers, liars, cheats and thieves the golden life ticket and those people are confused because they do what they were told to do by gods word.
So it’s bull, or he isn’t listening, or doesn’t care or just likes to use people as a whipping boy.
AMEN!! I feel you, This is EXACTLY my life and how I feel. I finally stopped swimming oceans for ppl who won’t step over a puddle for me. Stopped praying too and guess what? Life is a little better and I’m not so angry and frustrated anymore. I finally figured out that God doesn’t want me to bother him. So I leave him alone and for the most part, he doesn’t bother me.
not half as bad as my life – then you have to add in a bunch of $%^&ed up health…… and then you can come close.
The fruit of Christianity are evil when we don’t understand real meaning. Turning the other cheek doesn’t mean that you must suffer, be abused or used. You must fight for your Life, not let others ruin it.
I see you’re a good person, but don’t become a doormat.
Doing good to others doesn’t mean that you don’t do good to Yourself. Love yourself first. And love God who is Good. Then loving others becomes natural.
Ecclesiastes 8:11, ”
Because sentence against an evil work is not executed speedily, therefore the heart of the sons of men is fully set in them to do evil.”
People continue to do wicked things because they are not immediately punished. They end up believing that they are getting away with their evil.
Job 21:7-13, “7 Wherefore do the wicked live, become old, yea, are mighty in power? 8 Their seed is established in their sight with them, and their offspring before their eyes. 9 Their houses are safe from fear, neither is the rod of God upon them. 10 Their bull gendereth, and faileth not; their cow calveth, and casteth not her calf. 11 They send forth their little ones like a flock, and their children dance. 12 They take the timbrel and harp, and rejoice at the sound of the organ. 13 They spend their days in wealth, and in a moment go down to the grave.”
Evil men and women do prosper but their life will end suddenly and without mercy. (Psalm 73)
Nobody gets away with evil.
But can not let the evil that people do to us, turn us from God.
Dudes, look forget all this god stuff. GOD does suck if there is one – otherwise this stuff wouldn’t happen – and its not some choices unless you chose your @#$% life before you are born – which is what happens – its sort more like you are a god and you chose your life while you sit there with your god buds.. and drinking and go – hey let me take this guys @#%@ life – I will show you how bad $^@, tough I am .. Sort of like its a contest between gods to show who can deal with more $%^& and win.. that is the only thing that makes any sense so that is why I say I am god.. nothing else makes sense – or GOD is a real low-life.
You are confusing the Creator God with the god of this world, satan aka lucifer.
satan hates man and wants nothing more than to convince man to goto hell with him.
God is the only one that is good. If God is the only source of good, and you reject Him, then you get nothing but bad.
Freewill is why people do so much evil to each other.
God created man to be good. Its the choice to do evil, is where freewill comes into play.
Jesus Christ suffered as a man, even though He is God.
He knows what we go thru and He knows how to keep us from giving up and falling.
This life is for a time, but the next life is forever.
We must choose what we want: This temporal world, or the God who created it.
Almost 50 years ago I was a very driven person who studied every religion I could find anything about. I received a priceless Bible as an inheritance and I began studying it. Honestly I have an extremely high I.Q. I thought I could figure the Bible out. Months went by and I filled up several spiral binders with footnotes. Then one morning about 2 AM I lost it and went ballistic and began swearing and couldn’t stop, when all of the sudden my ears began to ring so loud I thought I was dying, my eyes began to blur or something. I was sure I was dying. Then what looked like spirits materialized and entered my body through my heart, they passed through me and attached themselves to my back. Everything I touched made a different distinct ringing sound in my ears. When morning came the sound in my ears was not as loud and I laid down on my back and noticed I could change the intensity of the ringing in my ears. So day after day I laid there and I noticed I was straightening my spine. I continued every day and everyday the ringing got louder until it sounded like a radio tuning in. Then I began to hear talking, saying come on up here, so I continued until my entire body was literally screaming a high frequency sound in harmony. I noticed my heartbeat was loud and that I could match my heart beat to my breathing then I stopped my heart and my breath. And as long as I could not physically move it stayednit beating, All the time the sound getting louder and louder and my heart stopping for very long periods of time. To start my heart and breathing all I had to do was move one muscle and it would boom boom boom start up again. I kept going and finally one morning I woke up and felt my body move and speak by itself, telling me to go to Kathmandu, Nepal, so I took all my money and gave all my stuff away and went to Nepal. I wandered the streets by following the direction which I could hear had the highest frequency of ringing in my ears. I came upon a group of men and they literally inserted a very thin scalpel and cut the insides of my ears through the epitympanic recess and cut out my first ear bone, they actually broke off the head of the malleus from both ears. I immediately began to sweat profusely and the ear surgeon pointed at the sun and I looked at it and it was like a kick to the head. I turned my head away from the sun and I saw a black line appear and it began to vibrate rapidly and it split into like it was rolled together like two scrolls, I immediately fell when it became an enormously bright light, and I could see my thoughts right before I died. I was in the light and it had destroyed every memory of who I was. The next thing I know I was sitting on the ground and the ear surgeon fed me a slice of blood red fruit and I swallowed it and it revived me. As the ear surgeon was cleaning out the malleus from each ear he called the bones “stones” they did look like like Little Rock’s. Coming back to the USA I read in my bible “To those that overcome I will give a new stone, and eat from the hidden manna. The fruit was from the tree of life. That was nearly 50 years ago, and now I hate god with every fiber of my body, so if this was overcoming and my reward, well I hate god for the way Iv’e been treated. This is not what I wanted, I never wanted to hate god I thought you were supposed to find god on earth like Jesus. But then I remember they killed Jesus, might as well kill me because I will never help god EVER. DONT DO WHAT I DID
sounds like a devil either vexed or possessed you.
that is not God, but an evil spirit.
Read the revelation, read the Old Testament, if you are expecting god to be just good, then you have no understanding of one, one god is both good and evil from our viewpoints
God works in funny ways
If the Hebrew God cares about HIS reputation, he will use Donald Trump to take down the evil central banker gangsters with the Global Currency Reset. Nobody is going to have faith for much longer other wise, including me. A great spiritual revival will then happen. This GCR will have a positive impact upon world peace, that will be interrupted by an Islamic war against Israel in 2020? Then peace will happen again for several years (Rapture somewhere in here) until another Islamic war against Israel. JEALOUSY is thy name sons of Ishmael. Much murder world wide, then natural disasters. Isaiah 24 the fly-by of the earth by a large planet, close enough to make the earth flip on its axis. Much death, much war then HE comes to stop WAR, HIS kingdom begins.
Ignore what I wrote on October 8, 2019. I reject the notion that I just wrote as a definition of HIS compassion, it is an indication that HE plans well for HIS goals but HE has no care for humanity suffering. HE does not show compassion for humanity by allowing war and disease. People are suffering. Intervene upon this earth YOU who rule this Universe or my faith is lost to the suffering YOU have imposed upon me. Make great medical breakthroughs happen or I will not offer my worship of YOU. Who is holding back great medical ads to human suffering? YOU to make a great splash at one moment in time?
My faith is dead because YOU claim to have compassion upon humanity but disease and WAR exist because YOU want this evil to happen. Calvinistic Sovereignty blames YOU for the evil happening on the Prison Planet Earth. YOU are the Warden of this Prison. YOU have caused the evil on this earth.
God is a piece of garbage altogether.
We live in a society
what a crock .. You forgot to mention those that are born with.. oh let’s say scheuermanns kyphosis look it up im not a doctor but thats what i have. 24/7 pain amigo. God HATES me. Why would he create this? for amusement? a cosmic joke? @#$% god.
Reading some of these posts has brought tears to my eyes. As much as I feel sad over how many people suffer horrible lives (most of us in fact), there is a truth that a lot of you are missing. GOD does not hate you, you hate yourselves … You say that GOD is silent, uncaring, incompetent, or worse, non-existent?
You pray for a miracle in your life? Be the miracle you seek. We are not created to think only of ourselves. Forget yourselves for a minute. Instead of dwelling on your own suffering, consider the suffering of others. You obviously can’t make yourself happy, so try to do it for somebody else. This is why we were created – to help each other. Replace your self-pity with empathy.
Realize that others are feeling exactly the way you are, maybe worse, turn it around and help them, forget yourself, your problems, your trauma. You will be happier and you will start to understand GOD’s love. Be the miracle you seek. Take the darkness of your own existence and be a light to someone around you!
Jesus teaches us: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.'”
This is the way to turn your life around and find true peace, genuine happiness. You can’t do it for yourself – do it for others. Suicide is life wasted so make a difference – turn your pain into empathy. We are living the End Times. We are called to be courageous and support each other now, more than ever.
Forgive others and your Heavenly Father will forgive you – love others and you will feel GOD’s love. Simple really. Blessings XX
Same yall if god really so called loved us he would have never put us on earth from the start before he even created anything he knew we was gone fail and he knew some of us was gone go to hell and some would go to heaven and why did God
created satan and he knew satan was gone do all of that crap to us. Common sense or is it just me ooookkkk.
God’s plan is beyond our understanding. Remember, God created us in perfection. We lived in paradise. But WE chose sin over God and now the curse of man is on us all. Yes, God knew that we would choose sin. Yes, God knew that satan would become satan. Yes! God knew that He would have to die and yet He still went on with His plan. We don’t know why! But we do know that God’s plans are perfect and that everything is done for good for those who love Him. Besides, people say “why do bad things happen to good people? well that only happened once and He volunteered.” -R.C. Sproul
You see we are wretched sinners who deserve the absolute worst punishment anyone could think of. So the question isn’t why do bad things happen to good people, it’s why do good things happen to wrecthed sinners? and the answer? God’s grace
If you don’t believe in doing good will get you what you want, then do something bad and see if it works.
It’s so sad to read all of these replies! My parents didn’t take us to church often, but I remember the pastor telling us “God helps those that help themselves.” I think to truly witness Him in your life, you have to look at it as a partnership. He will do his part if he sees you’re trying. As a single mom, there were so many times I wasn’t sure how I would be able to pay rent or buy food even though I usually have at least 2 jobs and some how some way I always survive! I thank God every day for what I have, even though it’s not much, but I have seen some miracles and He’s the only one I have to rely on as I’m alone in this world aside from my children. You also have to hold onto your faith, especially when times are tough and you feel tested. I remember reading something that says ‘You have to suffer though the hard times to make it to the good ones.’ The truth is, we don’t know His plan, He may have wonderful things planned for you that you don’t even know about yet! Remember, what we put out in this life, comes back to us ten fold. Put out negativity and that’s what you’ll get back. If things aren’t going good, it could also be a sign to make a change. We are the masters of our destiny, if you truly believe you can be happy, you can do _____, you can!
I wholeheartedly disagree with this statement! God helps those who CAN’T help themselves! He wants us to rely on Him fully! Not in ourselves at all! If we could form our own destiny’s what a wretched world this would be! Yes, God has wonderful plans for us, just like Peter who was crucified upside down, just like Stevenson who was stoned, just like John the Baptist who was beheaded. What we might deem wonderful is not what God always calls wonderful, a true Christian WILL face persecution in this world.
Hebrews 4:15, “For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.”
God knows how we feel and what we go thru.
Trust in Him to get you thru.
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Luke 9:23, ”
And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.”
We must suffer as Christ did for us.
We must also deny that selfish nature and focus on the needs of others.
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Isaiah 48:8-10, “(8)
Yea, thou heardest not; yea, thou knewest not; yea, from that time that thine ear was not opened: for I knew that thou wouldest deal very treacherously, and wast called a transgressor from the womb.
(9) For my name’s sake will I defer mine anger, and for my praise will I refrain for thee, that I cut thee not off.
(10) Behold, I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.”
God knows what we are going to do before we are even born.
He also has mercy on us, to give us space to repent from the evil we would do, that we would turn to Him for salvation, and be saved thru testings and trials, that make us perfect. (Hebrews 2:10 / 1 Peter 5:10)
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Joshua 24:15, ”
And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”
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1 Kings 18:21, ”
And Elijah came unto all the people, and said, How long halt ye between two opinions? if the LORD be God, follow him: but if Baal, then follow him. And the people answered him not a word.”
There is no fence riding in this life. You either love God or hate Him; you can not do both. (Luke 16:13)
Choose whom you will serve: God or the devil.
Good afternoon,
I would like to ask everyone a question. What about blind people like me, who, being intelligent and with a degree are constantly rejected in job interviews, even working from home, were I to disclose I am blind, or, when, wanting to marry a man who can see, I was constantly told, through my teenage years, «you are pretty, just a shame you are blind», only because, they could not cope with introducing a blind person to their family, since they knew the backlash they would get. I wish god told me what is my mission in the world, if I am blind, maybe is to learn or teach some lesson to someone. At the moment, I only feel emptiness and inner pain.
God puts people in situations to show that we can’t do anything without Him. Listen to the Bible. If you want to know why God has created you the way you are, listen to a recording of the Bible. There are multiple stories of blind people running to Jesus Christ and begging to see again, these stories show this; although God might not restore your sight (although He might) when you trust completely on Him, He will bless you. I think, just from your comment alone, you sound very proud of your academic level and you seem to focus on jobs and boyfriends. But God wants you to wholly rely on His son, Jesus Christ. But remember, the reason why there is evil and sin in the world is because of us.
My name is Sapphire aka o.h this is how I feel and if christians people read this please do not judge or criticize because im gonna say how the way i feel because in the bible it said be sincere and pure and
I’m gonna speak how the way i feel. To me how people talk about the bible he seems like an a%@hole, people say god is loving and they say god will love you forever. If God was so loving he would have never even created us. if you think about it before he even created anything he knew some of us was gonna suffer and people blamed the devil, but god created the devil he knew from the start that the devil was gone do some devil #@^!, and christians don’t blame god he made the the devil now we gotta suffer because adam and eve and satan did some stuff now we gotta suffer. To me it’s either the book was written my man or god just a strict holy god. In the bible it say don’t do this, don’t do that, to me he expect you to be perfect. People say its a sin to think about adultery I’m single i wont a man and a husband. Sometimes i think about Se* christians say It’s a sin and people say you don’t need a husband if i don’t need a husband you don’t neither i don’t even know why god created a men what’s the used of creating a man if you cant marry or have anyone who loves you, they say if you think about sex it’s a sin and you will be in hell. I’mm lonely what you expect me to do i am a whole female. It’s to much trying to do everything right in the bible it’s impossible i wish god and christian people could understand people like us. Christians people say we aint suppose to party, i mean like god ay we can enjoy earth and plus life is short yall be happy if you think you going to hell enjoy your life to the fullest matter it’s doing something bad just enjoy, life is to short. People who understands me please don’t settle for less you worth more than tat don’t let the christians people make you feel that you gotta be thankful for the little things and settle for little things that you do have if you want more strive for more that’s what my daddy say. All my girls who feel insecure if you won’t a husband pretend and imagine that your married and happy if god wont send you one, imagine about one we got one life to live, live happy. peace Don’t mean to sound harsh but thats how the way iam
I do agree they are sins but everyone sins. God does not expect us to be perfect, that is why he sent Jesus Christ to die for our sins. The bible is a the word of God to guide us through life. and If we pray and look for his answers we will discover in time her will answer us. No matter what we have done he will be there for us. And God did not create the devil, sure God created his angels but it was the devils own decision to go against God. The devil wanted to be God and he thought he was powerful enough to destroy God. So, the devil created himself, the devil wants us to go against God and his word. He knows he cannot win but he wants to bring as many people he can down with him. I hope you do not mind but, I am praying for you, that God will bless you in life and that you will truly get to know him. He is our Father who cares deeply for all of us he just wants a relationship with you and to be your foundation. God bless you and your life.
My question to GOD is why did you make me short and a ugly man, It just doesn’t seam fair. I’ve been here for over 50 years, the mirror and pictures doesn’t lie. Why punish me in a ugly shell, whether you have inner beauty or not people don’t see it at a glance. The only lessons I’ve learned are I didn’t have a loving parents, I’ve learnt that fire hurts [I’ve been set on fire and I have skin grafts] also after having a finger ripped off my body that wasn’t so pleasant. Having a brother commit suicide was a very sad part of my life So why did GOD bring me into this unloving world. Being a ugly short man with skin grafts and a missing finger wants to know why GOD brought me into his world it doesn’t make sense..
God loves you. To him you are a masterpiece. He says in the bible that life is going to bring trials that you will have to go through. If you follow Jesus Christ and put your trust in him God will bring you joy. It may not come right away and people in your life will try to steer you away from him but if you ask God for help and seek him he will provide for you. I understand it is hard for you. To help along, look into churches, not one is the same, if you keep looking and pray for it God will surround you with people that will love and care for you. I hope you do not mind, but I will keep you in my prayers, God bless you.
Brought you here to humiliate you and kick your useless butt like it did me, go smoke some weed and forget about it
Hi Rich,
I have been a born again Christian for 51 years now, and as the old button phrase said “Please Be Patient, God Hasn’t Finished With Me Yet!”
I have just posted my own thoughts on the issue below (awaiting moderation). I hope you will get to read it.
As a baby I had severe eczema at three weeks old, followed by asthma. The two are linked.
At 16 the eczema completely cleared up and the asthma took over. But I had a lot of grief from other kids while I had the eczema! I also came from a very unhappy family where my parents were always fighting and arguing. This made me so unhappy and I remember as a kid saying out loud “I DIDN’T ASK TO BE BORN!”, and sometimes I really wished I never had been born..
I have worked with people who had learning difficulties of various kinds. I have worked with children who were severely handicapped, both physically and mentally. In some cases in terms of quality of life they were little more than vegetables, completely dependent on others to be fed clothed and toileted. I also saw the effects on the family of such a child. Quite often the father would leave, unable to cope with the situation, leaving the mother to cope alone. The other children often missed out in terms of attention, because the mother was focussed on that one child. (Sometimes more than one.)
Did God especially design these children so? In my view no He didn’t. If my other comment is published you will see that I believe we are the result of our parents mingled genes. But this does not mean that God is indifferent to us or that He doesn’t love us completely.
On the contrary God loves us in spite of ourselves, and God regards the heart of a person as much more important than his or her physical appearance. The Bible clearly states this.
So Rick regardless of your physical appearance and how you have been treated, God loves you so much and wants you to be one of His children. Not only that, but He wants to fill your heart with joy, and He has work for you to do that only YOU can do!
God always changes us from the inside out, and I give Him the glory that He delivered me from depression and sarcasm and awful shyness. If you allow Him to Rick, if you ask Jesus to forgive your sins and offer yourself to Him 100% I guarantee your life will be turned around and you will KNOW how much God loves you, just as you are! God bless you.
Carla, so many things in this world are challenges we did not ask for nor would we wish on anyone else. For you it is blindness, for someone else they are deaf, someone else is paraplegic, another is a type 1 diabetic without medical insurance, another is a child born in the slums of South Africa, another is a lonely millionaire who can no longer tell who their friends are and who just wants to use them, another is a child sold into human trafficking by a drug addicted parent, another is a man with a brilliant mind born in an impoverished land destined never to read or write but to work on the farm, another is a tall woman who is shunned by her town because of her enormous height where no one would speak to her let alone date or hire her, I could go on and on. Some more dramatic than others.
My point here is that we all have our challenges. Using my scale of issues I have being blind would be a blessing, you may decide that someone elses issues would be a blessing compared to your being blind. I have many blind friends who have achieved great things in universities, starting a business, working for a large financial firm. This is a wonderful time to be blind compared to even 100 years ago. I don’t mean this to sounds coy but it all depends upon what we choose to hear. If we want to hear that we will never get a job we want, never marry a loving person we want, never do xyz then we will hear that and pass on what life has to offer. If instead we tell God, after we initially yell at him, we need his help to be the most we can be in this world. Then we rely on God day in and day out to guide us on our journey with all of it’s ups and downs. Only seeking our self worth from God, not ourselves or others. Then we will have a truly fulfilling life no matter what our challenge or blessing.
But God knew all these outcomings; why create a world where innocents will get tortured by evil, & their relatives have to live with that grief; are we just pawns in a cruel game? The state of the world, what I see happening to innocents & am powerless to help or intervene, for many, their life on earth is a living hell, why does God allow this set up? I can’t square it; I can’t not believe as I’ve had experiences I didn’t ask for – premonitions, & also the Peace of God – But what it is we’re believing in?!
I feel very sorry for several of you who are suffering from physical ailments that hinder your quality of life from being a positive one. I battle with my own disabilities daily. I also feel for those who blame God and spite God, claiming that He’s manipulating their lives and causing them to suffer. This is not the case. In my belief, human beings have free will. This means God cannot take control of every aspect of everyone’s lives. Those who are upset at God for causing a divorce? Remember, there is a second player in that case, being the spouse. God cannot control one’s wife to return to her husband, because that would be taking away free will from the wife. That isn’t fair, is it? Would you want God forcing you to make choices against your will, such as being married to somebody you no longer wish to be married to?
Let’s be realistic. We live in a fallen world. God loves you all very much, and He has a resting place for you in Eternity (Heaven). Life is not permanent, nor is suffering permanent. After we pass, nothing evil can touch us because we will be reunited with Him. Remain steadfast in these beliefs, and please be reasonable when saying that “God is evil” and that He “hates you;” because, again, no, He doesn’t. Social construct, cultural construct, human pettiness and superficiality, which are not from God, control your life. It is up to you to dwell upon His words and remain steadfast in the faith in order to make a positive difference in your life. Nihilism is dangerous—don’t give into it. God doesn’t pick and choose people; He doesn’t prefer “beautiful” people over “ugly” people. God could probably care less what you look like, because He loves you wholly as you are. After all, we’re not just a body, we’re a spirit. The spirit is what God sees, not our mortal, earthly bodies. Strive to have a beautiful soul.
I don’t understand why would God do this to us. How did god get put on earth, was he just there, people say he knows the future before god even created anything he knew bad things would happen before he created his angels, satan lucifer, adam and eve, if he loved me so much he would have never created us because he knew some people would go to heaven some would go to hell i think he does this for entertainment, he would have saved us from suffering christians say it’s our choice, our free will but were not perfect it’s like christians and god expect sinners and people like me to be perfect i wanna live free, when i try to get saved it’s depressing and it causes suicidal thoughts and people always bring up the rapture, and people say hurry and get saved, how can i get saved if i dont care about my self and i’m damn sure ain’ gone care about god it’s to much pressure and people say don’t do this don’t do that it’s a sin it’s to much for my brain it’s to much and it’s boring be too holy it;s to much and in the old testament make him seem so harsh and that’s what make people snap in half. My friend imagines sometime about having a imaginary husband she ask a preacher was it a sin for her to do that he said yeah, i don’t understand why can’t we imagined things that make us feel existed and wanted I don’t understand and people say i’m cray i’m not crazy i’m tired of this holy $@^* it’s to much people say i’m going to hell but man this how i feel if you christians people don’t understand then @!4^ you i’m different and my mind is delusional
My name is olivia i’m gonna confess, I hate people for no reason sometimes and it’s not healthy. When I see couples I cry and sometimes have hatred in my heart and i get tired of seeing happy couples . Am i the only 1 who feels this away, Am i wrong for wanting those things , people say it’s no big deal but it’s easy for them to say, it hurts to see those things, it makes you feel like your ignored, ashamed, and left behind. Girls in my class always brag about their relationship. It’s to much. It’s like they don’t care about the girls who are lonely. I’mmm sicckk if tired of ittttttt i hate it with passion. I am a angry sad delinquish @$#%* who is tired of seeing people with everything. I hate to see rich people it bothers me. I’m 16 years old and i don’t have a car or a phone and people in my class thinks it’s funny. I can’t help it i was born to be broke. I have to beg people for money, im sick of tired it. It’s to much for my brain. My mom takes care of us my dad stays with us be he never be at the house . I don’t understand this predictive confused world. I hope 1 day we find happiness and enjoyment.
Well someone needs a big cup of Tikum Olam..
Just be sure to get directions first or you’ll slowly go mad etc. I mean honestly, it’s the greatest feeling I’ve ever had in 39 years.. It’s love and warm for all God’s creation. Because I was just like you, maybe not as harsh, but indeed I was hateful towards others. But you’ll probably get a dose anyway, everyone will. I just think they keepers get the directions..The ones they want to die like myself, no directions means death ?
This site for be only who feel how we feel, not for christians, it’s
If God created me the person I am, then He would be responsible for all the good and evil things I do.
If God created me the person I am, misshapen, blind, unable to communicate, in constant pain, without limbs or eyes or whatever;
Then He is responsible for my miserable existence.
Personally I do not believe this. But Christians who point to passages of Scripture that seem to indicate this must also accept the consequences of this view.
Personally I believe that God gave Adam and Eve the ability to procreate, and that ability (obviously) extends right down to the present day.
Therefore whilst God gives the miracle of life via the genetic code, you and I are the product of our parents’ genetic code.
So your height, hair colour, eye colour and certain personality traits came not as an individual act of creation, but as a result of God’s gift of human procreation.
So whatever our physical appearance, our intelligence our talents, these came via our parents and there is a part of us that is made in the image of God, making us unique.
So God loves us completely and utterly and wants to adopt us into His family. Our Lord Jesus brought us salvation and the Holy Spirit enables our sanctification. He begins that process of transforming us to become the person that God wants us to be, so that we become more and more like Jesus.
Love to hear other people’s thoughts on this!
But God
Read my story and you tell me about genetics ?
Tell me why the Bible says Jesus will protect you from curses IF YOU ARE SAVED.. Yes I may of been lukewarm, but it doesn’t say Jesus will say you from curses only if you are living righteous ..
Why I’m I going to hell, according to the Kabbalah tree of life and the Hebrew Letter that was jolted into my mind as I slept during the day, not once, not twice but three times..I woke each time like what the,, But he wanted me to remember the Letter, which are sacred.
Why did God punish a good single man like me that really wanted a good wife and family to share my life with instead of being single and all alone today? A very excellent reason for me to really hate the holidays when they come around.
Hi Jay,
I’m sorry you are alone for the Holidays.
Have you ever thought of a dating service? I’m an older man, as are my co-workers. Some of them seem to find girl friends. I’ve often thought that is what I would do.
Either way, you seem different than some of the hope-less people who are posting here. You sound like someone who could actually take incremental action towards your goal of finding someone. Actually think about what could hold you up from making or finding a relationship. Is it perfectionism, fear, fatalism? Pray about it (since you brought God into it.)
Meanwhile, God does not punish people like you. We live in a real world. Its random, there is evil, but also faith, hope and love. Its way, way more random than we think. Its also more free. Blaming God just holds you back.
If you become resilient by failing, trying and retrying (which is faith if you trust God is at work), your odds improve. That is all an honest person can tell you. Its what I wish someone had explained to me years ago. Might have avoided years of depression and hopelessness.
Jay, I wish I could meet you in person. I hope I meet you in Heaven someday. That is where all the random, awful suffering of this world will fade away.
DanS
God does not hate you. It tests your courage.
Being poor and ugly life suck, SCUMBAGS get do what they do, LIE and MORE LIES it never seams to stop. I just pray for death and I wish I was never born, The lie of what you make of life is your own. It’s true to a point, I’ve made enough lemonade in this world.
When you have a joke of a family my mother and father will being going to HELL and should they do not belong in a peaceful place, same with my grandparents. spreading love was never on there list of things they did, Brother and sister no there good people, GOD gave me a ugly body and a ugly life. I’m pretty sure at some point I will kill myself. I’ve thought about for years now , I’m not looking for help or a reason I shouldn’t but I haven’t yet. 52 Years of living is enough, with GOD in control I live 52 more and it will be the same. THANKSGIVING is coming just be thankful your not me….
Hi Rich,
I think you have posted here several times. I’ve tried to answer you and so have a few others.
People can only point the way to get out of this pain you feel. Many of us have been there, depressed, hopeless, questioning why we even exist. But we can’t fix it for you. This type of personal pain is spiritual, and it is very deep.
I would like to tell you that this kind of pain can be overcome, or more accurately lived with. You can learn to accept your short comings, your situation, and make something good out of what you have.
The big question is this: DO YOU WANT TO BE WELL?
Yep, this is where the rubber hits the road. Do you want to feel better?
Would you be willing to sacrifice your self-righteous position towards God – so you can feel better?
Here is the path, that ONLY YOU CAN TAKE.
First, forgive God. Yep, this will be very hard. We prefer to hate, to be bitter. However, we are holding God responsible for something He did not do. God created a random world, full of disaster, pain and opportunities. Life is a gift! Its just not what we expect. This hate and bitterness stops us from acting in our own best interests. It stops us from taking any accountability to make our rough, horrible situation better. Yep, blaming God is cheap. It allows us to hide from the world and not face it. It is easy to be bitter, spiteful. It just does not work. We never feel better this way.
Forgive yourself. Yes, you know you have done things to make this worse. At least being bitter and hiding from your pain has made it worse. You absolutely need to forgive yourself too. You need to love yourself too.
Forgive others. We know others have made your life worse. Yet holding them accountable, for things they don’t even remember, only ties you up. More of that hiding from life stuff.
The path to health starts with gratefulness. Please, be grateful for what you have. This is healing. Pray and thank God that you have life at all. Find things you can enjoy and appreciate. Then try to reach a finger our to help anyone else, to love anyone else. The best people are those co-workers, those people who we know are even more evil than we are. The ones who will never appreciate when do nice thing for them. You will find your own grace – healing – for yourself. You will be modelling what God does, gives grace to the good and evil, the sun shines on everyone. This kind of love, is healing for people like us.
Hey Rich, please try. I hate to see you in pain. But I can only point the way out of my desire for you to be well, out of my experiences and suffering. You know nothing is going to change – except you. Yet YOU are something YOU can change. It can be done. It will be slow, but you can change. The path to Life is there, and it feels good. This is the Life that Jesus talked about, when people follow him. I feel so much better now. My world is the same, but I’m better. I really am. You can be too.
Maybe I will see you in Heaven someday. No one posts on a blog like this, unless they have or had some faith in God at one point. God is your only way out. Yet God IS A WAY OUT! Hallelujah! You can get better.
DanS – fellow 52 year old man.
God is a very evil scumbag.
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I am going to lay out a FACT here that God doesn’t like or love us all. I know this may be hard to believe, but I have proof ..
It’s a long story, so hang in there…
I mean I already know what anyone responds back is going to be. But here goes, I have had a learning disability,while riddled with ADHD my whole life, I’m 41 now. I went to church every week as a child and up into my teens, I was saved when I was around 10 and then again at 12 ish . I didn’t really understand the first time, nor did I probably comprehend it the 2nd.
I struggled in school, got on drugs and quit going to church when my parents had no more control over me. I was wild from the beginning, and never knew why., Well I’ve been going to psychiatrists all throughout life..I’ve had bad ears to with many surgeries, deaf in left ear, crooked neck, (don’t know how to spell it) so yeah I had severe low self-esteem, depression, suicidal,,extremely negative life etc etc. Then when I got in my 20s, my mom got Huntingtons disease, and died 12 years later, my 4 aunts, uncle, and one cousin at 40 died from it. So that was a huge shock, it made things so much much worse.. I really started getting into heavy drugs..It’s a 50/50 chance of getting it, so I stopped caring about everything, which wasn’t much in the first place.. I’m pretty sure I have the beginning symptoms, but I’ll explain it later. It’s one of the worst diseases known to man, if not the worst. I got clean in 2013 after getting a felony, haven’t went back to that lifestyle, quit drinking and smoking.. I got my life on track for the first time in my life, though I still couldn’t hold job, until I started doing my own thing.
I was dating a girl and helping her raise her kids, because her husband couldn’t stay off the drugs, and continued living in the jail 8 to 10 months out of the year.
I thought I was still a Christian, but made excuse why I was with a married woman. We /she couldn’t afford a divorce ..So I raised those kids like they were my own, they needed a father figure around and it gave me a reason to stay clean ,plus be optimistic in life.
Okay here comes the part no one will believe me, like my family, the response will be you need to see if ya have the Huntingtons etc. Well about two years ago, I started getting into politics, right wing garbage.. I started seeing all this propaganda on YouTube about how the Jewish people were doing all this bad stuff, like Barber Specter, in regards on opened borders in the EU. The majority of If was conspiracy theories but I believed it. Then I heard about the Noahide laws,,and freaked out. So I ran around like a chicken with head cut off, trying to warn others what was going to happen.. Now I’m sure I said some hatful things in comment section, but nothing personal to one, even though I spoke with a few Jewish people, and was never disrespectful towards them. I just asked questions. I seen others saying very hateful things, but never took it that far. I don’t hate them, just scared and confused about what the future was going to be like, especially for the kids. I honestly believed I was doing the right thing at the time. My psychiatrist is Jewish, been going there for well over 10 years, so if I hated them, I wouldn’t of stayed there,.paying out of pocket.
So last spring in early April I was traveling home at night off US 52 about 15 miles east of Cincinnati.. I seen a light above the clouds, upon the hill.. I thought what the heck, is the UFO. So I drove about 5 miles as I watched it keeping up with me, then it just vanished..I thought oh maybe it’s just the moon or something.. When I turned up a back road I seen 3 flashes, so fast that it was like did I just see that, but after the 3rd time I was like yeah I seen it. I got home, didn’t think much about its, joked with the family I think I seen a UFO.. Well the nest morning I woke up and felt irration on my ankle. I looked and had a big triangle 3 dots, blemish marks or scoop marks ..2in x 2in x 2in .. I thought what in the world.. but I just kinda forgot about it until around June 5thish I get really really sick, and lay in bed for 3 weeks. During the time I went ER, family Doc etc. They couldn’t figure out anything after running several blood works and heart test, cat scan, etc. I thought I was going to die and made will, I mean I literally thought I was dying. I had a mental breakdown or something because something was telling me something was not right with that marks on my leg..(still have em) I sent pics to girlfriend mom in Florida, she’s very religious, she had a awful nightmare about it..
Anyway I crawled into bathroom to shower, I had to lay my head on shower wall, because I was so weak. Then I had eyes close, and seen brightest twirling yellowish light ever, and it looked like someone or SOMETHING staring back at me in lower left corner..I remember saying I’m not scared of you I have Jesus Christ. Well was I wrong.. So IT faded away and the light turned purple, then this beautiful snowflake looking thing, it was aqua/turquoise.
I went back to my bed and again thought what in the world.
As I lay there I make peace with God, looking up at the sky.. I felt a overwhelming loving feeling coming over me. Oh and the whole time I laid there I watched about 100 hours of YT videos on other cultures..I felt love and positive for the first time in 39 years. I was well after a couple days of seeing lights (chakras)
All summer I was working at a flip house, for a family member.
I loved all of Gods creation and held no hate or grudges towards no one. Though I started reading up to 10 hours a day about things I’ve never even heard of prior, like quantum physics, metaphysics, alchemy,astrology,etc. I learned more in 6 months than I did 39 years before.. I went from semi retarded to just above average on the IQ chart. But My mind felt like it was going to explode because so much information was coming in to fast at once, it was literally driving me mad. Oh and this whole time I’m seeing the #33 every day all throughout the day, it was getting creepy. But I couldn’t complain because I felt so much love, it was truly amazing. During the summer I was researching everything I could about what was happening to me, including the blemish marks.
Late October I had dreams of dying, which was peaceful, then another one where something said we were all going to burn soon.. Then the last was about the spots ?on leg , this man was at my old church on a elevator that only went down.. There were 3 moons in the sky i said to a friend,that’s whats on my leg, the 3 dots…The man on elevator said they were going to sacrifice me.
Nov 1st everything changed.. I ended up watching some porn, yeah gross, and something hit me hard, like my soul was sucked out of me ..I had the worst cramping nerves knots in my stomach like nothing I ever felt before. I figured out that day or the next what was happening, it’s like it lead me there to find everything I was looking for all summer.. That entity I seen in light in shower opened my 3rd eye, that’s why my mind was going crazy all summer..The colors are called chakra, it’s Hindu and Kabbalah Jews practice it. I found out it’s called Tikum Olam /Yeter Hara or in India it called Kundalini.
Please look this up, you’ll see what I’m saying.. There are people everywhere with same symptoms, suicide rates are up all time high, since last January. The new age ,yoga folks are going through this, at least in the west..
I’ve been in bed since Nov 1st, barley can walk.. I’ve been crying for weeks, my emotions are off the charts,, I mean I’m going to hell, so yeah it’s something to be worried about. It got my nerves so raddled I believe I set off the Huntingtons gene, because I’m jolting uncontrollable. I was cursed for talking about God’s chosen people, by a Kabbalah curse.. by using a talisman, probably bad angel Samuel or Azrael was the light I seen in sky..obviously.
I mean really did honestly think I was doing the right thing,trying to warn others about Noahide laws.,I was following a pastor on YT, Steven Anderson, he’s a snake himself, he said they were synagogue of Satans
But I had everything backwards, like usual, my whole life as been backwards from the beginning. I pick up Bible and turned right to Matthew chapter , that says when you cry out I won’t hear you.. What’s weird is, it like when I pray, there isn’t no one there, well at least Jesus doesn’t feel like he’s there like it felt during hard times in life. I moved back into dads house, quit my job, left the family, because it is adultery. I repented and sat here for weeks weeping thinking of all the sins, and pain I put others through .I was hateful towards others, I admit that, heck I hated myself to, I hated life in general., but I WASNT EVIL like they say ..BIG DIFFERENCE! Then when they put the Tikum Olam in me, I felt normal for the first time in my life, but I didn’t understand how to control it, and let it go, which is deteriorating me now.. Its like going to a hospital in the summer to get a minor surgery on a finger, you wake up and as they are putting you in the Uber you noticed you have bandages on head,,and it’s winter.. Then they say ole, we gave ya brain surgery instead, you were in a coma, see ya.. You try calling no answer, because things are so different in your head, with no directions on what the heck happened and what to do..
The strangest thing is, I asked God to help me quit cussing, and just like that it was gone.. I’ve been praying for years to help me stop cussing.. The same with reading the Bible, never could before, oh but now, no problem.. Idk if it’s God doing this for me or not, or Tikum female Godess, can’t recall her name. Shekna glory or something similar, or the Hindu Kundalini god. I stopped watching porn to, it’s truly amazing.. To bad I didn’t KNOW TO DO THIS BACK WHEN IT BEGAN IN THE SPRING..NOW IM SCREWED.. But that’s what they want, me dead and does God, so he can toss me in he for Satan/Samuel to torture me..I been looking on google maps for a ledge to go sit on and get it over with, cuz it’s better then burning alive like the guy did in front of White House last May, he to probably had Kundalini. You are going to see millions light up here soon, after Christmas, before spring imo..Saturn/Pluto Capricorn transition Jan 20th.
ANYWAY..That’s why I am here to say GOD DOESN’T LOVE EVERYONE, NOR DOES JESUS SAVE YOU LIKE THEY LIE TO YOU AT CHURCH .. I mean as far as I see it Jesus gave em the green light.
My question is, if God LOVED me , why did he wire my brain this way, FROM THE DAY I CAME OUT OF MOMS STOMACH I’ve been wild, ADHD,& LD..Probably bi polar as well but refused to take heavy ssr meds.. Why do ignorant people with mental issues get punished.. AND NOW A MUTANT GENE.. THIS WHOLE WORLD HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT BS AND LIES.. Heck the Bible says in many verses that just being ignorant alone will doom you.,
Now I’m mad at my dead mother for not tossing me in a dumpster or why dad just couldn’t used protection.
. Freddy Mercury was right, in bohemian rhapsody song